I'm trapped in this prison but like any good captured criminal I stand by the choices that led me to this suffocating and inescapable place.
How human it is to take the one thing thats ever mattered, that you've ever felt was important and hold it close, turn it into a belief and let it consume you so completely that it may kill you.
On the days I've been stabbing myself for hours and bled like a dying soldier I walk around savouring the residual pain. My arms will hang like useless meat and once and a while I'll limp from the dull pain in my groin. My neck will feel like the dope literally grew hands of its own and attempted to strangle the life out of me but on these days I wear my pain like a self-flagellating religious zealot wears the marks on her back.
I believe in what I'm doing. And so I have crafted that belief into a sheath and forged myself in the fires of sacrifice into a weapon to fit that sheath. Theres no going back now and even at times like these when I know I will wake up in excruciating pain and suffer for some indefinite amount of time, even when I hate this life I am proud of it.
Great song by Arcade Fire that seemed appropriate for listening to whilst writing..............
My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key
My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key
I'm standing on a stage
Of fear and self-doubt
It's a hollow play
But they'll clap anyway
My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key
You're standing next to me
My mind holds the key
I'm living in an age
That calls darkness light
Though my language is dead
Still the shapes fill my head
I'm living in an age
Whose name I don't know
Though the fear keeps me moving
Still my heart beats so slow
My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key
You're standing next to me
My mind holds the key
My body is a
My body is a cage
We take what we're given
Just because you've forgotten
That don't mean you're forgiven
I'm living in an age
That screams my name at night
But when I get to the doorway
There's no one in sight
I'm living in an age
They laugh when Im dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key
You're standing next to me
My mind holds the key
Set my spirit free
Set my spirit free
Set my body free
How human it is to take the one thing thats ever mattered, that you've ever felt was important and hold it close, turn it into a belief and let it consume you so completely that it may kill you.
On the days I've been stabbing myself for hours and bled like a dying soldier I walk around savouring the residual pain. My arms will hang like useless meat and once and a while I'll limp from the dull pain in my groin. My neck will feel like the dope literally grew hands of its own and attempted to strangle the life out of me but on these days I wear my pain like a self-flagellating religious zealot wears the marks on her back.
I believe in what I'm doing. And so I have crafted that belief into a sheath and forged myself in the fires of sacrifice into a weapon to fit that sheath. Theres no going back now and even at times like these when I know I will wake up in excruciating pain and suffer for some indefinite amount of time, even when I hate this life I am proud of it.
Great song by Arcade Fire that seemed appropriate for listening to whilst writing..............
My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key
My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key
I'm standing on a stage
Of fear and self-doubt
It's a hollow play
But they'll clap anyway
My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key
You're standing next to me
My mind holds the key
I'm living in an age
That calls darkness light
Though my language is dead
Still the shapes fill my head
I'm living in an age
Whose name I don't know
Though the fear keeps me moving
Still my heart beats so slow
My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key
You're standing next to me
My mind holds the key
My body is a
My body is a cage
We take what we're given
Just because you've forgotten
That don't mean you're forgiven
I'm living in an age
That screams my name at night
But when I get to the doorway
There's no one in sight
I'm living in an age
They laugh when Im dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key
You're standing next to me
My mind holds the key
Set my spirit free
Set my spirit free
Set my body free
