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dubstepraver

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So I have taken mdma 2 times over the course of 6 months. I found that ever since the first time I think about it everyday. Usually many times a day. It was just so amazing. Its not that I can't control myself, because I do, but that I just always have it on my mind and i cant wait to do it again. Is this normal?
I feel like after so long I wouldnt obsess so much. I feel like an addict or abuser without really being one i suppose. I have become so into the scene (making kandi etc) due to always thinking about it. Its not that I hate thinking about it or being the new me ( I like it) I would just like to know how normal this is for others and would like to hear others stories.
 
First time I did MDMA all I thought about was when I was going to do it next, your body is naturally going to do what it enjoys isnt it? How often do you think about tugging one off? daily...? its the same

Not exactly anything to worry about, 2 times over 6 months is fine, a good few times a year is fine. The more you do it I think the novelty starts to wear off and just becomes another fun thing to do.

Just carry on doing what you want and taking mdma, "ive become so into the scene making kandi etc" :sus: ahhh it was going so well, so is the new you a fully blown kandi kid? A fully blown dub step roller?
 
how old are you?
I feel like an addict or abuser without really being one i suppose.
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just be careful you are what you think. is there history of addiction or abuse with your parents, or in your family?
Not exactly anything to worry about, 2 times over 6 months is fine, a good few times a year is fine. The more you do it I think the novelty starts to wear off and just becomes another fun thing to do.
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good points.
 
My friends and I are very careful to do it only once every 3to 4 months and keep each other on track. Were 23, started the party late I suppose lol. But yes were all very into it now and buy all the beads to make kandi glowsticks gloves etc you name it haha. It hasn't affected my graduate studies or anything, really just curious how long people constantly think about it and any stories. Yes my family has a bad history of addiction to any and all drugs, and I feel myself pulled into it, but I know I have the control with my friends to only do it a few times a year
 
so long as its not affecting your goals and ambitions your sweet bro, imo.
mdma is pretty hard to get addicted too anyway imo. its not like your gonna do it every day, unless you are seriously dedicated. just be careful if you start doing it every weekend/multiple times a week, thats when it begins to catch up with you.

pro-tip; do yourself a favour a get over dub step and find yourself some decent edm hehe
 
dubstepraver said:
So I have taken mdma 2 times over the course of 6 months. I found that ever since the first time I think about it everyday. Usually many times a day. It was just so amazing. Its not that I can't control myself, because I do, but that I just always have it on my mind and i cant wait to do it again. Is this normal?
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it's normal i think but just remember that if you fall on hard times it won't fix your problems. make sure you have something more substantial that you're interested in and excited about experiencing in the future.

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I feel like after so long I wouldnt obsess so much. I feel like an addict or abuser without really being one i suppose. I have become so into the scene (making kandi etc) due to always thinking about it. Its not that I hate thinking about it or being the new me ( I like it) I would just like to know how normal this is for others and would like to hear others stories.
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when i think of "the scene" i think of some pretty disappointing relationships. being a part of "the scene" costs money and if you ever find yourself in dire straits i can pretty much guarantee "the scene" won't miss a beat without you. when you think of the "new me", is it a sense of openness that you've found in yourself? or is it a cultural identity you've found in solidarity with other mdma users? you'll have to separate the two eventually.
 
Twice in six months... Very sensible, if you keep it as a treat every now and then you are going to be fine. Thinking about it is not a problem.

I had a 15 year break from drugs/alcohol by the end of that I was dreaming about mdma weekly, in the dreams I would take some and then wake up before it took effect :/ . The only drugs I feel ever did me any good are weed and mdma, I'm in no rush to take some but will do again before too long.
 
I have this problem too, since I broke up with my girlfriend I haven't had too much in the way of happy experiences and so the next roll is always something to look forward too.
 
I have the same, might be a bit related to ADD, but it went away when I did mdma a couple of more times (with good time inbetween though I was thinking of it a couple of times a day, sometimes even dreaming about it lol), now that I did it a few more times it's less amazing (don't get me wrong, it's still amazing, but first time was literally magical) and the thoughts go away (after my 5th time)
 
I constantly thought about it for quite some time after my first roll and I found that talking about it with others helped me to relive the experience and therefore my cravings for it began to subside. I still find that I get "flashbacks" when listening to certain songs and giving my senses away to them. It's been just over two months since my last roll now, and I still get the occasional longing for it every once in a while. I got some powder last night, though, so I will soon be reacquainted with the warm, tingly joy that MDMA brings to the table.
 
Im a bit eccentric about it myself, but it calms down and you can really start enjoying it more. Dont worry man, you are just having fun. I think about it daily too.
 
dubstepraver (lol no hate, but its usually dubstep rager from my exp. with steppers),

I think my experience was extremely similar to yours. I started raving and actually stumbled upon real MDMA by accident. I had consumed a ton of bathsalts one night and realized either MDMA sucked, or I wasn't on MDMA. A strange wayward guy at my first rave sold me a finger dip of something that led me to be at total peace with the world. After that party my buddy and I started making kandi on the regular, and I have since heavily been involved with the scene. I can't stop thinking about MDMA, and in fact it is something that I enjoy pondering when I'm bored. Its almost like a hobby drug. You have cute little pills and the varying effects that influence the way you feel when you roll such as: pre-post loading, quality of product, colors, amounts, crystals and powders. And as long as we keep it from interfering with our ambition and follow proper harm reduction, its harmless man.

I like you am a student, who is in the waiting game for graduate school. I think its a calming notion that I have something to look forward to for the rest of my life that will give me the proper release from the every day trudge through normalcy in society, no matter how much I enjoy being a student at the same time.

Stick with your buddies too, I have taught my closest and we stick to proper harm reduction together. It's cool and a good bonding measure.
 
Thanks for the posts guys interesting hearing from everyone. Good to know I'm not the only one obsessing haha. I do find i a great thing to look forward to like an amazing vacation, that's pretty much what I tell myself/how I think about it everytime my group and I discuss mdma.

And as for the music people mentioned here, yes i really like dubstep but also have come to appreciate house and trance a lot more since my first roll, especially since my first roll was in fact at a progressive house show not a dubstep show. i like all edm :D
 
i think about it at least once a day.
self control is key into not abusing it.

not into dubstep:P prefer trance!
 
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