Hi all
This forum may have changed my life. Lets start by saying I have an alcohol problem. I don't like the term alcoholism. I don't think all people that have a problem with alcohol can be pigeon holed. Excessive alcohol is often a symptom of an illness not an actual illness in itself IMO. Also its severity is variable. Its a spectrum disorder.
Personally I have drank in the past for social anxiety and general anxiety, unfortunately it got so bad I had to stop. I started using alcohol as hair of the dog which created the addiction
Anyway what has happened until very recently is my anxiety, which I now know it to be, gets so bad I turn to alcohol, this was happening about twice a year. Now I have vallium instead of alcohol
Also another reason I turn to drink is one day id like to meet someone, and realistically the only way is going to be with the confidence alcohol gives me and in a bar.
The reality is that I will turn to drink at some point. I needed to minimize the risks and read a cure for a hangover from some of the posters on here, benzos. I went out drinking. Instead of waking up next morning dying for drink to take anxiety away I took a 10mg of vallium. And what would have definitely turned into a monsterous 2 week bender of vomiting not sleeping seeing hearing things ended miraculously right there and then.
I DO NOT RECOMMEND WHAT I AM DOING TO ANYONE ELSE. I just want to have a drink say once a week and weekend and know if hangover gets so bad I've got the vallium as a bailout. Once I meet somebody I wont need alcohol.
People get into trouble with alcohol and benzos so dont try this. I was never a daily drinker and my anxiety is only occasional. So with close monitoring I feel I can control my plan and not develop another addiction. I have now had a supply of valium for 3 months and used around 14 5mg tablets and that's with going through a bad patch of anxiety.
Thank you all and please feel free to ask any questions? If you have actually bothered to read my waffling first post lol.
This forum may have changed my life. Lets start by saying I have an alcohol problem. I don't like the term alcoholism. I don't think all people that have a problem with alcohol can be pigeon holed. Excessive alcohol is often a symptom of an illness not an actual illness in itself IMO. Also its severity is variable. Its a spectrum disorder.
Personally I have drank in the past for social anxiety and general anxiety, unfortunately it got so bad I had to stop. I started using alcohol as hair of the dog which created the addiction
Anyway what has happened until very recently is my anxiety, which I now know it to be, gets so bad I turn to alcohol, this was happening about twice a year. Now I have vallium instead of alcohol
Also another reason I turn to drink is one day id like to meet someone, and realistically the only way is going to be with the confidence alcohol gives me and in a bar.
The reality is that I will turn to drink at some point. I needed to minimize the risks and read a cure for a hangover from some of the posters on here, benzos. I went out drinking. Instead of waking up next morning dying for drink to take anxiety away I took a 10mg of vallium. And what would have definitely turned into a monsterous 2 week bender of vomiting not sleeping seeing hearing things ended miraculously right there and then.
I DO NOT RECOMMEND WHAT I AM DOING TO ANYONE ELSE. I just want to have a drink say once a week and weekend and know if hangover gets so bad I've got the vallium as a bailout. Once I meet somebody I wont need alcohol.
People get into trouble with alcohol and benzos so dont try this. I was never a daily drinker and my anxiety is only occasional. So with close monitoring I feel I can control my plan and not develop another addiction. I have now had a supply of valium for 3 months and used around 14 5mg tablets and that's with going through a bad patch of anxiety.
Thank you all and please feel free to ask any questions? If you have actually bothered to read my waffling first post lol.
