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Think i went insane last night

SDforever420

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Its very hard for me to talk about this idk why it just is. So im sittin in my room when i realize im seeing shit and hear shit. I was not on anything which is usuallly the problem. I ignored this since its not so bad. Then 6 in the morning rolls around and i wonder why im not asleep. So i try to fall asleep but cant. keep wakin up. After about the 5th time i woke up i remembered my dream i was so sacred but fell back asleep. everytime i would wake back up it seems like the dreams would get worse but i still couldnt get myself fully awake. Probably the 15th time i woke up i was sittin upright in bed. Sacred as hell. Then it hit Me im havin night terrors. I started crying and still kinda am.
 
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Its very hard for me to talk about this idk why it just is. So im sittin in my room when i realize im seeing shit and hear shit. I was not on anything which is usuallly the problem. I ignored this since its not so bad. Then 6 in the morning rolls around and i wonder why im not asleep. So i try to fall asleep but cant. keep wakin up. After about the 5th time i woke up i remembered my dream i was so sacred but fell back asleep. everytime i would wake back up it seems like the dreams would get worse but i still couldnt get myself fully awake. Probably the 15th time i woke up i was sittin upright in bed. Sacred as hell. Then it hit Me im havin night terrors. I started crying and still kinda am. All these dreams took place at my grandmas house who recently passed away. My ex thinks its cuz i have kept everything inside since we broke up. Which just happened to be the day my grandma died. I just really needed to get this off my chest. Im afraid to go back to sleep. oh and all those dreams happened in less than an hour. Im basicly looking for guidence or help of some kind. if you have any questions just ask
 
Well firstly man, you didn't "go insane" so don't worry about that. Night terrors are, well, terrifying, but harmless. The worst they can do to you is prevent you from going back to sleep from fear of having them again. What you described actually sounds more like sleep paralysis which is possibly more traumatising emotionally because you're in a semi-concious state at the time so you remember parts of what's going on. Whereas with night terrors you usually don't recall the event.

Stress is a main cause of sleep disorders and it does sound like you're pretty stressed at the moment. You should try to actively reduce some of that stress. Some substances are also quite well-known for making you more prone to getting sleep disorders such as night terrors and sleep paralysis, namely ecstacy and opiates. Are you taking either of those at the moment?

If you know that you've been bottling everything inside since your break-up and since your grandma died, it sounds like you really need to sit down with someone and talk about what's on your mind and how you're feeling/coping with everything. Have you ever had any counselling before? Is this something you could consider looking in to?
 
sleep paralysis is wat i was havin cuz i could hear myself talkin before i woke up or see myself tryin to fight something off of me. No i havent taken x in almost a year and havent done opiates for awhile. Just smokin the herb and a lil meth here and there. I really wanna talk to someone about it but idk who. just typing this all out is hard i cant imagen how hard it would be to actually say it. I use to talk to the drug counsler when i went to school but thats about it.
 
Could you maybe even mention it to your mum or dad or a friend or something? Just say like you've been having nightmares and they really freak you out and you can't sleep because of it? It always helps to talk about things like this, you'll feel better <3

If you think you'd be comfortable with it, you could go and see your regular doctor and tell them what you've been experiencing. They might then refer you to a counsellor or psychologist so you can discuss it in more detail with them.
 
If you're afraid people won't believe you, or that they will think you're insane- never fear: most people won't.

Maybe you should check in with your doctor/counsellor? Night terrors and the like are disorders or a sort- you may find a sleep specialist is who you need to see.

I sleepwalk and do all sorts of things in my sleep, and went to a sleep clinic recently- whilst I still get up constatnly and talk/fight/generally-be-weird, I have a few tactics to stop that behavious- ie. wet blankets on the floor near my bed- I get straight back in to bed (apparently) as soon as I set foot on the wetness....Sometimes I will still wander off, and generally my girlfriend tries to gently wake me; its during the period of waking and disorientation that I experience night terrors; mainly bizarre hallucinations, but they fade after a few minutes. What works better is if she sets my alarm for about one minute in the future, so I wake naturallly; even if I'm having a shower in the pantry ;)

Sleep doctors. Try em :)
 
i only get this once and awhile tho. But i do have bad dreams a lot. Other than that i my emotions seem to jump around from happy to mad to sad to depressed back to happy then mad the all of the above everyday followed by anxiety. Its only when im alone and start thinking tho. I would talk to my mom but she hasnt broke down since her mom died and i dont wanna worry her. My dad would worry more and probably think i am tweaked out or something. Only leaves my friends. Wait i dont have any that tell this to. My ex i would but she has enough problem. Doctor it is then. Thank for the quick and honest feedback dude. Really it means alot
 
Yeah it sounds like you would really benefit from seeing a counsellor to talk about stuff man, good luck and keep us updated if you like <3
 
Definitely sleep paralysis. It happens to me all the time I'm to the point that I know it is happening. It is not as scary anymore, but still very frustrating because you can't make yourself come out of it. I can see the tv, hear whats going on around me, but I cannot move. I think clearly and feel things that arent there. It's like your stuck halfway between sleep and wakefulness. Look it up online... The very first time it happened was 2 days after I had my first child,so I would agree that it is stress related. Also the first time, it felt as if someone was on my chest and I tried to fight it off
 
Sleep paralysis is the worst. I get it from time to time. The only thing I've ever found helpful is to make sure I'm sleeping on my side, and not on my back. It only seems to happen when I'm on my back.
 
I was sleepin on my side at first but when i rolled onto my back thats when it bad. Like ^ said i saw myself trying to fight something off my chest but couldnt wake up. Im feeling better now btw i finally got to sleep and just woke up not to long ago. I looked into it and im guessin its cuz im stressed as fuck right now and havent slept much. Thank you to everyone for there input
 
blahman8000 said:
The only thing I've ever found helpful is to make sure I'm sleeping on my side, and not on my back. It only seems to happen when I'm on my back.
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I definitely agree with this! Although I have been known to still get sleep paralysis when I'm lying on my side or on my stomach, but it's definitely more common for me when I'm lying on my back.
 
I get this same thing, the only way i can describe it is a strong feeling that i'm falling, like i have no control over what is going on or my fears.

Nothing will take me out of it, the only way for it to go away is if i sit there for like an hour and just think about it and how crazy it was, i get these about once every 2 weeks, is that bad?

I'm thinking about telling my doctor about it when i go see him next week, especially if i have another one befor then.
 
^^ I dont think its bad but i dont think its good either. Depends on how you look at it. I always wondered if they ment something ya know like your brain is trying to tell you something you cant think of on your own.
 
Nah sleep paralysis isn't bad. It can just be a bit traumatising at the time. But it doesn't mean anything wrong is going on inside your brain. We actually don't know for sure how or why it happens yet, but I personally suspect it's just caused by an imbalance of some neurotransmitters which have an effect on sleep and dreams, i.e. it's not harmful at all.
 
Sleep paralysis use to scare the hell out of me, I would be having very vivid dreams and come to realise i was asleep without conciously realising, this would bring me to an out of body state and i would freak out bringing me back to my room. Because the mind cant comprehend what is happening logically alot of the time people will hallucinate whatever comes to mind, and for me and many other people this was something paranormal being the reason behind it and i would see creatures sitting on my chest etc etc similiar to what you experienced. After a while though i became comfortable with the state of mind and stopped seeing evil things etc. With a calm mind that accepts the state the body is in it can be a blissful experience and doesn't have to be scary. From their you can fly around like your in peter pan or something lol. Next time it happens if you get scared the fastest way to get out of it is to calm yourself down, allow yourself to realise your having sleep paralysis again. As soon as you calm down you will be able to move your body again, but while your freaking out you won't be able to move.
 
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