Well as some of you know I ended up leaving where I was living, and moved in with this girl. At first things were going good. Then i start to notice my addiction coming out again.. It was like a beast locked up until I fucked up and got high.
A few days ago I was taking a shower, and when I got out I opened up the little mirror in the bathroom and found roughly 60 lortabs, I should have fucking shut the mirror then and there and went on with my life, but instead I had to take a couple. There was no impulse on what would happen when the girl found out.
Long story short, she found out(i'm guessing?) because the past week hasn't been like the best week for us, meaning we havn't really been communicating. she works AM,i work PM we hardly even see each other except for when i get off, and come in around 12:30am or so.
I think something is brewing in the background, I shouldn'tve taken those fucking pills already knowing that this shit was going to happen. Why do i do stupid shit like this? Am I really that bad in controlling myself around drugs? I really don't think this is going to end well.. All I can do is say when the time comes is admit and tell her that I have a problem, and tell her that I'm getting help for it.
That wont guarantee anything, maybe buy me some time..
A few days ago I was taking a shower, and when I got out I opened up the little mirror in the bathroom and found roughly 60 lortabs, I should have fucking shut the mirror then and there and went on with my life, but instead I had to take a couple. There was no impulse on what would happen when the girl found out.
Long story short, she found out(i'm guessing?) because the past week hasn't been like the best week for us, meaning we havn't really been communicating. she works AM,i work PM we hardly even see each other except for when i get off, and come in around 12:30am or so.
I think something is brewing in the background, I shouldn'tve taken those fucking pills already knowing that this shit was going to happen. Why do i do stupid shit like this? Am I really that bad in controlling myself around drugs? I really don't think this is going to end well.. All I can do is say when the time comes is admit and tell her that I have a problem, and tell her that I'm getting help for it.
That wont guarantee anything, maybe buy me some time..
