Thick Headed

I'm kind of an idiot sometimes.

My phone rang at about 12:30 last night but the caller on the other end hung up when I picked up.

I called the number back and got voicemail. It was the redheaded girl from rehab. I left a message saying I received a call from this number and that if it was an emergency feel free to call anytime, regardless of the hour.

She called back and we chatted a bit. It felt kind of awkward. She yawned a couple times and I said I was kinda tired as well so we hung up.

I woke up today thinking that I may have missed something. She had dug through her boxes looking for my number, called once (kinda late at night) and hung up, called back later.

I wonder if she was in a bad place and I just didn't pick up on it. It kind of has the symptoms of someone being in a bad spot in their head.

I need to learn how to pick up on these things. If she's like me, its difficult to ask for help. Personally, I rely on others to see that I'm hurting.

A thick headed person like me doesn't catch on to stuff like that until later.

I'll give a call and see whats up.

 

I'm the same way in that I find it really difficult to ask for help when I need it. I've only asked my parents really one time when I was really scared that I was going to hurt myself and they really were able to come through for me and help me out. I still don't know if I'd be able to do that again, but I'm glad I was able to the one time as it really helped strengthen the bond with my parents.

I hope your friend is OK!

 

I called this morning and she is ok. I can't hang out with her though. She believes that she can use recreationally. Hey, maybe she can but I can't be around it. I'm not that kind of junky. Besides, I'm following the suggestions of my sponsor. Friends can turn into sex/relationship and I'm not looking for those kind of problems right now.

 

Od, was this the girl you had been starting a relationship with?
The one who stayed with you for a week?

 

no. oneluta is the girl that was staying with me.
This is the 'girl with the irish freckles' that i was in detox with and ran into the day she ama'd from rehab: http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/blog.php?b=1598

 

Hmm well I would say that you did the right thing there. I mean sometimes people don't really wanna talk about what is going on but have the distraction just to call and have someone there. I think you were rather supportive. Good for you. Sometimes it is hard to find people like that anymore and I know I'm the same way you are. It's not always easy sometimes but you just hope that it means something to someone. Perhaps update us if you hear anything more on it.