It's been a hell of a ride. Been kicking opiates since the 31st of March cold turkey. Using just vitamins,Herbs,water and believe it or not Mikes hard Lemonade. Last night it seemed like it was starting all over and then I fell asleep around 4am and woke up at noon. Thanks ccoyne420 for telling me about the valerion root im pretty sure it's what's keeping me sane. Sneezing and chills are gone and pupils are finally back to normal. Im still really sore all over but that's fine it's time to get up and do stuff around the yard. I tell ya the worst part of all of this was my skin crawling just wanted to jump out of my own body. It's been a scary and I went through some shit and probably will for a few more days. I'll tell you what. I'm going to think about this every time I want to put that needle in my arm again. Keep you updated. Thanks for all your comments. 10yrs of opiates and im clean. WOW!!
Hope you are still doing well man. Good luck to you in the future. You are right when you say it is not over yet. For me I feel like it will never be over, like fighting addiction is something I will always have to do on some level. I know right now you feel like you would never touch the stuff again as to not put yourself through the hell you just went through ever again. Better men than you or I have told themselves that same thing and it been a lie. It seems with time the memory of that hell fades and it somehow tries to work it's way back into your life. I say that not to discourage you in any way, but to warn you that, at least in my case, getting past that first stage is only the beginning. Do not let your guard down and be very weary of any "just this one last time" moments. Again good luck in the future and congrats on where you are, it is in itself no doubt a great accomplishment.