therapy session

[fizzygirl]

(nothing much..just getting some icky feelings out )
I inadvertently went in for therapy today
Stopping by a coworkers office to talk about life and happiness and asking for help and thinking just maybe that sometimes I want exactly what I fight against—that simplicity is my yearning--what I envy when I see it in others’ lives.
We are the products of the world around us, of our generation and our country. The habits of those passing before us cause us to act in ways we are unsure of, except to know that “this is what we are”...which often becomes bland rhetoric when we try offer explanations. We will never know if our choices are our own, or if they were right, or led to our utmost happiness. I’ll never have what they have because somewhere along the line I volunteered to carry some baggage that wasn’t mine and constructed an agenda that I relentlessly hold myself to.
When simple emotions and actions are taken as something larger, you are never really allowed their pure experience.
~fizzy, striving to lose the agenda

 

[Sweetpea]

and that saying "surround yourself with people you want to be like" -truly does make sense

I volunteered to carry some baggage that wasn’t mine and constructed an agenda that I relentlessly hold myself to.
Trying to remember this daily

 

[harraser]

and thinking just maybe that sometimes I want exactly what I fight against—that simplicity is my yearning--what I envy when I see it in others’ lives. *sigh* me too

 

[ice-9]

this hits close to home

 

[Dagny]

Oh gurlllll.....
I get so angry that the choice even has to be made. But then I look around me, and realize that I love amazing people, and that I am loved, and grit my teeth and head back out into the world.
Thank you for being there Miss Fizz. You are one of those hearts that make it all worth it.

 

[cloud 9]

hey you!
wanna hold hands and eat ice cream?
sure hope we can hang out again soon, love ya.

 

[Angelight]

I’ll never have what they have because somewhere along the line I volunteered to carry some baggage that wasn’t mine and constructed an agenda that I relentlessly hold myself to.
When simple emotions and actions are taken as something larger, you are never really allowed their pure experience.
^^^ this was perfect.

 

[Dakeva]

Originally posted by fizzygirl:
We are the products of the world around us, of our generation and our country.
I tend to see us as rather the byproducts of the world around us. We are more so where we are by chance then ever truly by design. A derivative of larger systems that on our best days we strive to evolve past and on our lesser ones seek to at least mimic.
From time to time I recognize my own futility and throw my hands in the air...
This are the moments were time seems to slow down a bit, the sky seems a little more blue, the wind a bit more brisk and your smile a lot more sincere and I’m comforted by acknowledging my own inconsequential state admist the larger order.
And the weight is lifted and so I can push forward again.
P.S. I miss you
[ 17 June 2002: Message edited by: Dakeva ]

 

[E-girl]

I’ll never have what they have because somewhere along the line I volunteered to carry some baggage that wasn’t mine and constructed an agenda that I relentlessly hold myself to.
very deep, and very true. i think we are all guilty of doing this.