Therapy and me.

I've tried to do "talk" therapy a few times since my mother died. My therapists were always older Jewish women. I suppose I saw them as surrogate mother-types. I never really clicked with any of them and stopped going after a few sessions. I did 10 sessions with a counselor at my college a few years ago, right before I started working. The therapist was a younger white woman, someone in my "demographic" but not really from a similar background. She probably was the most helpful out of any of the therapists I've had but it wasn't meant to be a long term thing anyway.

So yesterday I found myself in another therapist's office, telling him my tired old story. Boo hoo, let it out, I can't really cry anymore. I'm just stating facts. A, B and C happened and caused X, Y and Z. Am I hopeless, Doc?

This current therapist happens to work in the same office as my psychiatrist. I'd had an appointment with my psychiatrist on Monday. I went in while I was on 40mgs of Vicodin... not enough to be nodding out but enough for me to be more open with him. As it happened, the therapist was there and my P-doc introduced me to him and we set up an intake appointment then and there. It wasn't until that night I started freaking out about what I got myself into. First of all, this therapist is male. I had reservations about the appointment and wasn't going to go... but in the end I did end up going. I was on 15mg of oxycodone so I wouldn't be w/ding and also just enough to allow me to be more open to this man whom I'd only met 2 days before.

I feel like I will go back on a weekly basis and see if anything comes of it...

I don't know how honest I should be about my drug use because I don't want to lose my clonazepam prescription because, for one, I truly do need it and for two, I don't think I could go through benzo withdrawal at the moment... not strong enough... I guess we'll see in the coming weeks how this all turns out.

 

for therapy to work, you should be completely honest with your therapist. i am pretty sure your therapist can't share anything with your psychologist unless you were a danger to yourself or others.

 

^agreed. though i haven't been honest about my drug issues with my therapist, i do regret that and wish that i had been from the beginning so that i could have gained more out of the therapy. also, don't be too discouraged if you don't click with your therapist. at times it can take several tries to find the right therapist for you.

 

i lied a little about my drug use but i did mention that i used drugs. and i was honest about what drugs i used, just not the frequency of certain drugs.