The worst things of the past year

OK, so I went to jail, went to two live-in rehab programs, am not friends with some people anymore, but the WORST things are: I gained a ton of weight from the antipsychotic meds, and I got amnesia! After I had the head injury from being arrested, I slowly slipped away... I don't recall going from the jail cells to the jail hospital... I've been terrified of getting fat and getting amnesia my whole life! So back again to my weight loss obsession... OH I forgot, the third bad thing: I lost my senses of smell and taste, again from bad reaction to the med! So everything tastes like f'n cardboard now. Yeah, i complain, but dammit, it's my blog and I can complain if I want to!

 

Wow, that is rough. Like, really. I've had my senses of taste and smell dulled somewhat from my work, but they're still there. And brain injuries, especially those resulting in aphasia and amnesia terrify me. Particularly the former, but the latter brings up so many questions of how people experience reality in general, and I feel vertiginous whenever I try to picture having it.

Not to be presumptuous, but have you checked out the Eating Disorders thread in The Dark Side? I'm not saying that you have one per se, but obsession over weight is at best unhealthy. I've suffered from binge eating for most of my life, and can sympathize with how hard it is to be so self-conscious of one's weight.

Oh, and complain on! That's what we're here for

 

Thanks! I haven't checked that thread but I will. i always had anorexia brewing but I never was able to go through with it until I discovered meth... then I was anorexic without trying, and sickeningly, that is why I like(d) meth... I think once I do get my weight back to what is actually normal for me, i'll be ok... just now it's a pain in the ass and I'm losing income cuz of it.