mrs_mia_wallace
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^I eat a lot more on it now than I used to.
Those sessions of dry-heaving and vomitting up black bile definitely resulted in me changing my eating patterns while on the stuff...
uggggh still gives me chills to think about it, I remember being at my ex best friend/sister's parents house when we were using and not wanting to vomit in the house because her sister was ridiculously nosy and intrusive... it was raining and 5 AM so I went into her front yard and vomitted some nasty black shit into a huge puddle of water (it flowed into a trash can) and her neighbor across the street came out to walk his dog and looked at me like I was the biggest freak of nature he'd ever seen...
But alas the hunger suppression meth gave me in those first few years is still does but it's dwindled considerably, I now eat around 400 cals a day on it which may in part be the reason I don't get that way anymore? But I remember when I was living at my old dealer's house he used to make me eat when the comedown started and it didn't do much-- I remember one morning I was sitting on the couch with him and he was making me eat a bunch of cereal straight from the box, about half an hour after eating it I vomitted it straight up back in the box.
Snorting vs. smoking has a lot to do with it for me as well (soooo much less with snorting) and forcing myself to sleep.
Those sessions of dry-heaving and vomitting up black bile definitely resulted in me changing my eating patterns while on the stuff...
uggggh still gives me chills to think about it, I remember being at my ex best friend/sister's parents house when we were using and not wanting to vomit in the house because her sister was ridiculously nosy and intrusive... it was raining and 5 AM so I went into her front yard and vomitted some nasty black shit into a huge puddle of water (it flowed into a trash can) and her neighbor across the street came out to walk his dog and looked at me like I was the biggest freak of nature he'd ever seen...
But alas the hunger suppression meth gave me in those first few years is still does but it's dwindled considerably, I now eat around 400 cals a day on it which may in part be the reason I don't get that way anymore? But I remember when I was living at my old dealer's house he used to make me eat when the comedown started and it didn't do much-- I remember one morning I was sitting on the couch with him and he was making me eat a bunch of cereal straight from the box, about half an hour after eating it I vomitted it straight up back in the box.
Snorting vs. smoking has a lot to do with it for me as well (soooo much less with snorting) and forcing myself to sleep.