Crow
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jun 12, 2000
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The Withheld Cry July 16, 2001
com’on you – do it!
do it now!
i stare at myself, so blank in the mirror,
deep into the dark upon dark of my orbs
past the physical being i call myself
into the chi of my mind
i see the pain, the bleeding, the depressive rut
the tears that want to flow, be released but cannot.
i crash my fist into the mirror, coughing from the lumps in my gut
bracing myself, my arms shaking from the strain as i grip the counter.
i try so hard to let go,
let those tears fall freely so i can begin to heal.
but they stay – inside, not moving,
my frustration builds – builds x2
i swing my arms, enraged, bottles crash.
i cough again, the pits of guilt still in my stomach
gagging my cries
my body crashes to the floor, my face in hands,
i’m left staring blankly into the shards of mirror on the tile floor.
why can’t i let go?
why can’t i cry?
all i want is that release
a release from you
i want this emotional muzzle broken…
i’m drained from being numb –
i want to cry…
com’on you – do it!
do it now!
i stare at myself, so blank in the mirror,
deep into the dark upon dark of my orbs
past the physical being i call myself
into the chi of my mind
i see the pain, the bleeding, the depressive rut
the tears that want to flow, be released but cannot.
i crash my fist into the mirror, coughing from the lumps in my gut
bracing myself, my arms shaking from the strain as i grip the counter.
i try so hard to let go,
let those tears fall freely so i can begin to heal.
but they stay – inside, not moving,
my frustration builds – builds x2
i swing my arms, enraged, bottles crash.
i cough again, the pits of guilt still in my stomach
gagging my cries
my body crashes to the floor, my face in hands,
i’m left staring blankly into the shards of mirror on the tile floor.
why can’t i let go?
why can’t i cry?
all i want is that release
a release from you
i want this emotional muzzle broken…
i’m drained from being numb –
i want to cry…
