The weight of wait

[His Name Is Frank]

I've experienced this on a certain level,but never in this manner and never to this extent. I can only imagine while this is an everyday reality for so many others.

Anticipation slowly turns to aggravation as the minutes crawl
Trying to keep myself occupied
But the storm inside will not subside
My body paces
My mind races
The phone rings and brings me hope
Not the person I was hoping for
Which fills me with rage all the more
I stare at the clock,it's mocking me
I feel my blood reaching a boiling point
I'm nothing more than hate and rage
A casualty to my emotions and the war they wage
The phone rings again
Teasing me
Taunting me
I answer without hesitation
Wrong number
God's cruel joke
The is no end to this aggravation
I put on some music,loud,thrashing
The swarm of anger in my head is deafening
The music,barely a whisper
The phone rings again
I reach for it and pause
My hand hovers over the receiver,shaking,aching
My throat fills with a mixture of bile and hope
"Hello?",I udder,barely registering as a response
There's no answer for a moment and I say hello again
"I'm sorry it took longer than I expected,but I got what you needed and I'm on my way."
I hang up the phone as my face contorts into a smile
My veins barely able to contain the forthcoming freedom from reality's pain
Twenty minutes of torture and hell
The wait now finally over

 

[doofqueen]

Pretty intense. So many emotions in it. Can really feel the frustration.

 

[colicolo]

my blood boiled as i read this, i could feel the anticipation.

I'm nothing more than hate and rage
A casualty to my emotions and the war they wage

this line strikes like lightning.