Psych_Major
Bluelighter
Ok, I can think of about 7 different places this MAYBE should go... so I figured dropping it here would be best.
I'm going to try not to leave anything out, so let me try to get all the background out first. I was sniffing 30mg oxycodone up to ten times daily for about a year before starting to smoke them, at first I'd sniff one and smoke one then basically just quit sniffing. After about two years dropped the oxys for a month went through that detox with norco and xanax, after being clean for that month, then back to sniffing the oxys, another two months of that and back to smoking. After about six months of all that, went to IVing 8mg dilaudid 4 or five times a day for about a year. THEN moved out of state and couldn't get anything, so that withdraw felt kind of easier, with the out of sight out of mind stuff. Well a weeks or two into quitting we discovered heroin... did that for a few weeks then some personal stuff happened with my husband and his boss, he wound up in the methadone clinic and I didn't have to work so I ended up cold turkey with lots of rest, water, and vitamins, which wasn't too bad since it was only a couple weeks of use anyway. I freaked out because unlike him I knew how terrible methadone is, begged him not to go, but he listened to his boss instead of me.
Anyway when he decided to cut off the methadone it was as brutal as I had imagined it would be, he used some pain killers to get through it but eventually we just ended up addicted to heroin for another about 9 months. And now we are here, living in a motel, broke & hungry, busted up car, my wedding ring in pawn, I now screwed my clean record with shoplifting charges, friends and family hate us, etc. you know the drill.
We tried to quit a couple times in the 9 months, even used suboxone and subutex before to no avail, one of us always caved and the other quickly agreed.
There were a lot of other obstacles then though such as his boss not knowing he was back on shit, we were still around and even living with our user friends everyday. Now his boss is aware of why he is sick, and we are alone together with the strong desire to end this and the faith that it is going to work. We are at the end of our rope, everyone is through helping us, we know this is our last chance... unbelievable the money wasted. We need a place to live, the car fixed before it dies, to pay my fines and his license. I feel like this is our last chance, not to mention the strain it has put on our relationship. We used to be the ones everyone was jealous of, constantly being told to get a room, never got sick of each other, and the H has turned us against each other for sure, then in detox no one is happy and we are at each others throats feeling sick and uncomfortable. The difference this time is the faith it will work, the true desire to lead normal healthy lives, and we really just don't want to shoot up anymore...
So my question is what is ya'lls opinion on the method of quitting and the probability of success? We used subutex, two pills (I'm not sure of the mg on them honestly) over a course of 4.5 days, and now it is day two of nothing at all. I feel good physically, and I have xanax but even outside of that I am very faithful this is going to work and I have a very hopeful outlook. We are both sleeping well, and he says he feels great when he wakes up before work, seems good still when he gets home. I'm nervous of what the next few weeks will bring though. Even though this time has differences and feels so different the fact is that we have done this before and failed.
I think one of my biggest fears is what he will do in the next few weeks. If he gives in, there isn't much chance for me... even if I still hang tough and don't use, how can we have a life if he fails? I don't think so... so that really scares me but that is something I can't control. There are absolutely nothing but good signs though... we both feel good, no withdrawal, no desire to use... we are happy and hopeful for the future. Has anyone else ever quit this way and how did it work out? What do ya'll think of the week long sub taper? It was 95% painless, only battles was the desire to be high. Any suggestions, words of wisdom or advice? I hope I didn't forget anything... Thanks!
I'm going to try not to leave anything out, so let me try to get all the background out first. I was sniffing 30mg oxycodone up to ten times daily for about a year before starting to smoke them, at first I'd sniff one and smoke one then basically just quit sniffing. After about two years dropped the oxys for a month went through that detox with norco and xanax, after being clean for that month, then back to sniffing the oxys, another two months of that and back to smoking. After about six months of all that, went to IVing 8mg dilaudid 4 or five times a day for about a year. THEN moved out of state and couldn't get anything, so that withdraw felt kind of easier, with the out of sight out of mind stuff. Well a weeks or two into quitting we discovered heroin... did that for a few weeks then some personal stuff happened with my husband and his boss, he wound up in the methadone clinic and I didn't have to work so I ended up cold turkey with lots of rest, water, and vitamins, which wasn't too bad since it was only a couple weeks of use anyway. I freaked out because unlike him I knew how terrible methadone is, begged him not to go, but he listened to his boss instead of me.
Anyway when he decided to cut off the methadone it was as brutal as I had imagined it would be, he used some pain killers to get through it but eventually we just ended up addicted to heroin for another about 9 months. And now we are here, living in a motel, broke & hungry, busted up car, my wedding ring in pawn, I now screwed my clean record with shoplifting charges, friends and family hate us, etc. you know the drill.
We tried to quit a couple times in the 9 months, even used suboxone and subutex before to no avail, one of us always caved and the other quickly agreed.
There were a lot of other obstacles then though such as his boss not knowing he was back on shit, we were still around and even living with our user friends everyday. Now his boss is aware of why he is sick, and we are alone together with the strong desire to end this and the faith that it is going to work. We are at the end of our rope, everyone is through helping us, we know this is our last chance... unbelievable the money wasted. We need a place to live, the car fixed before it dies, to pay my fines and his license. I feel like this is our last chance, not to mention the strain it has put on our relationship. We used to be the ones everyone was jealous of, constantly being told to get a room, never got sick of each other, and the H has turned us against each other for sure, then in detox no one is happy and we are at each others throats feeling sick and uncomfortable. The difference this time is the faith it will work, the true desire to lead normal healthy lives, and we really just don't want to shoot up anymore...
So my question is what is ya'lls opinion on the method of quitting and the probability of success? We used subutex, two pills (I'm not sure of the mg on them honestly) over a course of 4.5 days, and now it is day two of nothing at all. I feel good physically, and I have xanax but even outside of that I am very faithful this is going to work and I have a very hopeful outlook. We are both sleeping well, and he says he feels great when he wakes up before work, seems good still when he gets home. I'm nervous of what the next few weeks will bring though. Even though this time has differences and feels so different the fact is that we have done this before and failed.
I think one of my biggest fears is what he will do in the next few weeks. If he gives in, there isn't much chance for me... even if I still hang tough and don't use, how can we have a life if he fails? I don't think so... so that really scares me but that is something I can't control. There are absolutely nothing but good signs though... we both feel good, no withdrawal, no desire to use... we are happy and hopeful for the future. Has anyone else ever quit this way and how did it work out? What do ya'll think of the week long sub taper? It was 95% painless, only battles was the desire to be high. Any suggestions, words of wisdom or advice? I hope I didn't forget anything... Thanks!
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