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The Universe Fucking Hates Me

man, the best advice i can give in a situation like this is to keep trying; do what seems right, even if you dont want to do it; know that you cant count on luck, but you can count on time working in your favor if you use it wisely; dont get stuck in that hotel and the bad place that night was, think of what you need to do to avoid it now.

cheap hotels are a dark place for me, they are all the same. thick with that heavy feeling of desperation and loneliness, so many years later and i expect to see the tiny trash can full of needles still.


"ive stayed in every cheap bluelight hotel
cant win for tryin'
dust off those rusty strings just one more time
gonna make them shine"
- robert hunter
 
ADVICE:
The universe and god may not hate you as much as you think, look at it with my logic, all the shit thats thrown at you, or you fall into serves as a lesson or a principle defining lesson, as in if you cud say you learned anything from it or it may have turned out such a way for a reason(as everything does) in which may have had such disastrous results, that which ever outcome you came out with would be a blessing compared too. What I mean by that is there are soo many reasons why things turn out the way they do, and to blatantly blame any forces other than our own is ignorant ya dig.. Anything and everything happens for a reason, say you were supposed to take a girl out to da city thinkin u gon get some ass, n den wut happen..... she a no show hoe, n u stuck beat as hell outside da path station n u slide off n get some trees, maybe call it a nite or chill wit ya niggas, but watever da case u type bummed, no actual damage but you just say pissed right.... den u watch news son, n da mothafuckin train u wanna get on wit da bitch before blew up on some jihad shit... Den u like dam if dis bitch woulda came thru, Id be dead son... Suddenly dat blunt in ya hand on ya couch like da best place to be at.. Shit even if dey aint blow up, some fucked up shit maybe cudda went down had u went and god wanted u to avoid it. Dont just think shit happen to get u down maybe it was actually saving u from greater damage or greater long term damage u feel me. Or maybe ur an asshole... Maybe u did some shit or a whole lotta shit to madd motherfuckers and god wants you to maybe learn a lesson teach u a principle, maybe even feel da pain as they did, wutever the case may be, everything is without a causing force.. If its not to save ya ass, or to teach you a lesson, da out come of your life may be that based upon your output to the earth.... Maybe if you want to your hand to change, change your ways son, or maybe certain things, or maybe be more assertive n fuck more bitches. What u look like payin for high money escorts n motels, nigga fuck a fiend in da park at nite, dont waste more den 20 on pusssy n try to just bag bitches n not pay at all. Shit I cud tell u da principle of wut u shud have learned and appreciated..
1. BE GLAD dat cop aint stop u on some undercover shit n was da "escort" txting u...

2. maybe dat bitch was burnin n u dodged a L

3.wen u go out and try to buy pussy, u end up losin a telly room, losin 250 getin ur car towed, da inconvience n annoyance it placed upon ur father, all dat cuz u wanna put pussy on da pedastool and pay bread n rooms n shit... u need none of dat, all u need to do is get cool with some bitch, even if she ugly, or fat n get some ass.. Dont try to buy it, u gonna end up using pussy like a drug cause u cant get none for free, so what shud be natural is costin u wutever da fuck dumass escorts want which Im sure I can buy atleast a quarter to an O with and each blunt of dat quarter would go twards gettin ass sparkin bitches up n shit gettin high smoking fucking titties im suckin, but instead u wanna waste bread and not get shit. HOW U SOUND? NIGGA U A LOSER GET SOME REAL CHICKS BE MORE ASSERTIVE AND STOP BEIN A FAG NIGGA DEN UR HAND GONE BE BETTA BUT TILL DEN STOP THINKIN GOD HATE YOU BEFORE HE TAKE YOU ASS OUT 4 DISOWNIN HIM, NIGGA BE GLAD U HERE AND STOP BEIN DUMB START FUCKIN BITCHES LIFE GONE BE BETTER MONEY GO TWARDS DRUGS EVERYBODY HAPPY
 
Your description of the motel sent shivers down my spine. I spent too many a night camped out in a 38 dollar a night shitty motel during my housing transitional period. The SMELLS were horrible, the stains were sickening. Sketchy to say the least. I killed many a bedbug. Some nights I have nightmares of those god awful days. I will never end up back there, ever.
 
The universe doesn't hate you. You just made some bad choices that had unfortunate consequences. But for what it's worth, you're very good at writing. Compelling, evocative & entertaining. Sorry to be callous but despite the woeful content I enjoyed reading it.
 
I honestly could have seen alot worse happening here. That bitch 8) could have been a cop and then youd be down for soliciting the services of a prostitute or whatever they call it now. You could have gotten robbed as this shit does happen in certain situations as well. Alot worse could have happened. Hell you could have hit a person while you where driving drunk and that would be the worst case scenirio by far.

Also the universe doesent hate you it doesent know you exist. There is a difference.
 
this is a pretty good story actually. Usually people who have bad things happen to them all the time have some sort of "karma" issue. Whatever you want to call it. What you do comes back to you.

You probably called her "said bitcH" on the phone or something lol.
 
Make the most of this experience and LEARN from it. Have you ever wondered if the reason you have such "bad luck" is maybe because you don't learn from your mistakes?

I mean I have no idea, it's just a question...

Besides, I seriously doubt there's some kind of higher power dictating peoples' fates which leads them to believe that things are out of their control when they're not but that's a whole other topic ;)

Also, it could have been *a lot* worse. From what you posted, it sounds like things could have gotten a lot uglier really fast. I honestly think you got lucky in this situation but I suppose everyone has a different outlook on things.

It can always be worse.
 
Well, first of all, you are a great writer.....so the Universe smiled on you in that way :)
My advice really would be to learn from this experience.
I'm serious. Too many people will say 'Oh, life is shitting on me' and rather than seeing their own missteps, they place the blame elsewhere.
Take a real look at the situations which have led you to starting this thread and see where you are responsible.
Be honest with yourself and try to move forward without drowning in your sorrows.
Yeah, life sounds like it sucks pretty hard at the moment, but only you can change it.
Things don't have to continue to go down the shitter.......You can turn things around.
I would think you'd need to start from the root....which I think would be having a real good talk with yourself on your role in the bad luck and how you can do things differently in the future.
I hope everything works out.....and truly, it sounds like you have a great personality and I am sure you are a sweet guy- don't pressure yourself about sex- things happen as they should :)
I am sure everything will be okay.
Please, Keep us updated!!
 
Maddtime, you are an AMAZING writer. Your tale of woe had me literally crying w/ laughter at times (sorry, but it did).

I don't have any particular advice, except to say that in my (not inconsiderable) experience, the Universe (I don't believe in gods, either) tends to balance out in the long run. I'm not saying Life is fair (cuz it sure the fuck isn't, as any fool can see), but it tends toward an equilibrium.

Go climb the highest hill you can find and scream at the sky "What the fuck did I do to piss you off? Whatever it is, I'M SORRY!!!"

It probably won't do any good, but it'll probably make you feel better. :)

Hang in there.
 
i too found your writing very engaging - in fact it was like reading a funny, wry but TRUE novel! i love that kind of real but you never would have believed it if I hadn't actually experienced and lived it - writing! Don't stop writing & creating - It could be what gets you through and could even make you a living! Well - You've left something behind, changed direction in a good way, i feel. i know you might now see it yet. signposts can almost push us along a certain direction sometimes - and we seem blind to what's happening - then it becomes clear later - i call it being blindsided by fate/spirit and i have had some shocking things happen i wud never have chosen which have All helped me - even given me a career in something i wud never have thought or dreamed i cud do. i'm a clairvoyant now - and my abilities really grew during serious mental illness; even being spiked opened a lot of things up. I hope you will find clarity and a rational way of looking at your life soon which will give you something good to find in your own particular way in life. And I hope my odd way of looking at your apparently awful situation doesn't seem flippant! or fluffy hippy unrealistic. Far from it. I just wish and hope one day I can persuade people that metaphysical is real, if that makes sense. Things are not what they seem and (unless beings are evil and have dictated their own fate thru intentionally-misused free will) - always are better! Longterm and when you look back. Cheers!
 
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I don't think the universe hates you bro. You got a DUI and it was your fault. No one was out to get you. More so, it was your decision to go out and drive around to find your hooker. Actions have positive and negative consequences. Negative actions usually have negative consequences. You are just paying the piper.
 
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