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The thought .... " I will never shoot heroin again" .. how do you feel about this?

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The thought .... " I will never shoot heroin again" .. how do you feel about this?

It's many of our DOC's and in my opinion the most addictive drug there is and most certainly if you're iving.


Being on a sub program and telling people im gonna quit blah blah blah but this thought crosses my mind am i really suppose to be thinking im never going to use heroin again? I've gone since saturday and it feels like an eternity.


It's my favorite thing to do. Favorite way to relax. Favorite everything .. shit when you're doing it .. it is everything. Quitting in my mind means i will never do that again and that just seems utterly ridiculous in my mind at the moment.

What do you think about this thought ... man would i really have to believe in myself and have motivation to never do it again. Like telling an alchoholic you can never have a sip of you're favorite kind of drink for the rest of the time you're on earth.
 
I've thought it and said it more than 100 times... I guess I'm not very good at sobreity.
 
I got outta prison 2 months ago and have managed to stay clean of it since then. Not to say I haven't tried to cop, but thankfully my connect fell through. I have popped some minor painkillers, but hey, no heroin. I HOPE I can keep it up, but I can't make any promises.
 
I got out five years ago and I did shoot dope once, about two months out. That was the last time and I am pretty confident it really was the last. I am not drug free but I have not used heroin by shooting or any other ROA. I guess I finally decided it isn't worth it.
Funny thing, I haven't done dope and I haven't gotten arrested. Life is not perfect but it's pretty damn good to be free of physical and mental bondage. I don't want to sound like a preacher or an NA cheerleader but really , if I can give it up anyone can.
 
I wish you the best of luck Psychlone Jack. I am sure it will be difficult, but try to just get by one second at a time.
 
At this point in my life, I can't imagine never doing heroin/other IV opiates again. It's so awkward staying with my parents to "get sober" when they don't understand that my goal was to cut back drastically, not be sober forever. I am satisfied with the fact that I'm only shooting up like once a month now. But I still have to pretend that my life goal is to never touch another fucking Vicodin or something.

My main problems are depression and anxiety, not drugs. My whole life drugs have been viewed as the problem rather than a symptom. So as long as I'm happy, I don't really see the problem with drug use because I control it really well when I'm not a miserable mess.
 
i've never done iv heroin but when i told myself i would never do opiates again once i got off suboxone i really wanted to stop, and now its been a year and a half almost. The thought of doing opiates barely ever comes to mind, and when it does it's really weird because I can't remember how it feels so if at some random point it pops into my head i'll just wonder why I did it to begin with if it isn't good enough to remember, I remember my trips and rolls and whatnot but nothing stands out about the opiates
 
Of all the stupid shit I heard at NA/AA and rehab, the one thing that makes sense is the "one day at a time" mantra, simply because the scope of being sober until death can be so discouraging when you're trying to get clean.

Personally, I don't think it's likely that I'll never use heroin again, but hopefully I find a few things in life that provide me with an alternative.
 
Oh the times I've heard that, just like I've heard "I'll quit smoking" or even better yet "I'll never drink ever again" HAHA yeah right! Heroin from what I have seen is a really nasty thing to get off of. W/Ds are just the main battle and like shock therapy to your guts plus more.
 
well i did say that and for the last 4 months of my addiction i wasn't iv'ing i was back to smoking off foil, but in the last 2 weeks before quitting for good i went back the needles again...
oh well, it's been a month and a half since i last did heroin(and any opiate for the matter), and i intend to stay clean of opiates if not forever at least untill i can get a oxy script(wich will not happen till at least december so...)
no more IV though, promissed myself i will never stick a needle in my veins and i will keep to that promise (alltough i do spike my muscles at leats 2 times a week ;) )
 
Its weird.

I think the only way itll really happen to me is if something drastic changes my life like having a family (which I cant fathom), and moving to another country, which honestly I think would be the best thing for me in regards to staying away from heroin. Not that I have any problems with it, but you know a clean life isn't bad. I mean as bad as Ive ever gotten on dope at any time in my life, the idea of living in another country always intrigued me.
 
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