Hey guys,
damn! I am in bad shape.
my mom fell and broke her shoulder and I have had to do so much extra work.
I have used my medications (over used) so I could keep up.
I live with chronic pain and I have major limitations.
When I push myself- bad things happen.
I just cannot do more than I can do, but I had to.
Now, I have messed up on every prescription I have and I have been 12 days without my MS Contin.
I am about dead.
I can get my prescription on Monday morning but that seems so far away.
I have lost so much weight.
I have to get back on track with my medications.
This is absolute hell.
I feel your pain. I overuse mine every month now just so I can make it through work without suffering, then I suffer extra until my next script.
I have been trying to remember that I am not a superhero. When I have the energy and strength, I delegate what I have to where I need it most. So my car doesn’t get washed, my dogs never get walked, and my front yard makes my house look like people don’t live there.
I triage my energy each day and decide what needs my attention the most. Usually I make a list of the most dire troubles in my life and when I get home from work I decide how much I can do (if anything) and try to pick from the top of the list. It’s a lot like an Army hospital choosing which patient to work on based on the severity of their injuries.
My next move SHOULD be to apply that practice to my medication and limit myself to only what is prescribed each day, then triage my responsibilities.
So far I am getting a lot of stuff done the first 10 days after my script gets filled, and basically nothing after I run out.
I’m really sorry to hear about your mom P.O. It sounds like you have done exactly what I’m describing. Gotta deal with a bunch of extra hard work all of the sudden, so a little extra medication is truly warranted. Now you’re out and suffering, and it feels like you should have suffered through before without the help of the extra pills so that today wouldn’t suck so much.
I really wish that people like us weren’t getting screwed by the system.Wouldn’t it be awesome if you could call your Dr., explain the situation, and get some extra meds to help you through the emergency you had to deal with because of your mom getting hurt so badly? I think we are all in the same boat here where we are afraid to even mention we ran out this month, for any reason, for fear that we will get labeled an addict and get cut off completely. So instead of turning to our doctors for help, or even just some professional guidance, we suffer in silence. I lie to my Dr every month when I should be able to be honest and ask for help.
Hang in there PainfulOne. You made it 12 days, so the worst of the physical withdrawals have past. Hopefully it also means your MsContin will work extra well for the first day or two. What other stuff have you been using to make it through the last two weeks? I completely stopped using Loperamide, because Kratom works much better with way less disgusting side effects.
Just remember..... one day at a time. Do what you can do today. Everyone and everything else can wait. In my mind I tell myself that everyone else(except the people who live in my house) can kiss my ass. I am polite but I say ‘No’. This has been helping me to do what’s important, and to help the people who are important to me without wasting my strength on things that aren’t my responsibility.