The pandemic kind of screwed me this month. A year ago I was getting my script every 28 days. But it is a 30 day prescription. So I always had 2 days of extra pills. This month its going to be 35 days between scripts. Ironically I’m gonna run out today(a week early) but I’m still about 2 weeks away from my next refill.
This has been the best month I have had in a couple of years. I’m running out but I’m not concerned. A little happy even.
Dosing only once or twice per day with kratom during the rest of every day has left me with very manageable withdrawals. And I have no fear of running out. I’m not suffering much without my pills if you don’t count my back pain. And I have an unlimited supply of Kratom. Dosing multiple times per day was a huge mistake because I was perpetually in withdrawal and then just miserable when I ran out for about 7-10 days. Now, I’m getting good relief once or twice per day which gives me something to look forward to, and I have kratom to help the rest of the time. Compound that with not being ashamed about hiding my usage from my wife and there’s no question that I am the most happy and productive I have been on a consistent basis since my first surgery 5 years ago.
I would much rather NOT need the pills. I don’t like eating a tablespoon of shit-powder(kratom) in the middle of the night or starting each day counting the hours since my last dose of shit-powder so I can take more, but it is what it is. And since she doesn’t let me take enough oxy to be ‘really happy’, I am more present in my life at work and with my family. It is good now and it finally feels like something I can sustain forever.
It feels like next month might actually be the month I don’t have to count pills and still not run out
This has been the best month I have had in a couple of years. I’m running out but I’m not concerned. A little happy even.
Dosing only once or twice per day with kratom during the rest of every day has left me with very manageable withdrawals. And I have no fear of running out. I’m not suffering much without my pills if you don’t count my back pain. And I have an unlimited supply of Kratom. Dosing multiple times per day was a huge mistake because I was perpetually in withdrawal and then just miserable when I ran out for about 7-10 days. Now, I’m getting good relief once or twice per day which gives me something to look forward to, and I have kratom to help the rest of the time. Compound that with not being ashamed about hiding my usage from my wife and there’s no question that I am the most happy and productive I have been on a consistent basis since my first surgery 5 years ago.
I would much rather NOT need the pills. I don’t like eating a tablespoon of shit-powder(kratom) in the middle of the night or starting each day counting the hours since my last dose of shit-powder so I can take more, but it is what it is. And since she doesn’t let me take enough oxy to be ‘really happy’, I am more present in my life at work and with my family. It is good now and it finally feels like something I can sustain forever.
It feels like next month might actually be the month I don’t have to count pills and still not run out
