ShroomySatori
Bluelighter
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The thought of certain fears can make them come true... that runs deep eh I notice it all the time. My reality manifests as what I believe it to be. It is irritating in benzo withdrawal, when I find this to be unavoidable so far.
Life has been a self fulfilling prophecy for me. It seems that everything that happens to me, I watch happen to to someone else or hear through the winds. Those moments trip me out. I had an 10 strip trip where I pretty much watched my life happen in reverse while joking and laughing with my pals in some void after we died I don't know if that is relevant except maybe to a psychologist.
There is far too much for things to be merely coincidental, powerful energies are at work. I didn't have a good attitude today, I haven't all week. I've been really lazy and also sleeping just way too much I don't get it this just happens sometimes. Guess I tired myself out. Gotta make sure my quality of life is okay.
edit... I have also found the opposite to be true, non-coincidentally. Too many synchronicities over the years - positive affirmations, general positive radiation, lack of fear or attachment - these things really do attract positive energies into my life. Like I am choosing the frequency I want to be at. And I have been messing with that frequency with drugs for a lot of my life, and I find that I can get out of tune if I do too many of them. With the benzos and opiates, those completely changed my life though. Turned my life upside down. Ruined my life and I am rebuilding now instead of sustaining like I was before. Weed is sustainable, I would prefer not to smoke it but for now the worst it causes in my life is a few hours of burnout if I smoke it too much. None of it should be a focus at all apart from quitting it. That is all well and good. I make stupid fuckin choices though that is for sure.
Life has been a self fulfilling prophecy for me. It seems that everything that happens to me, I watch happen to to someone else or hear through the winds. Those moments trip me out. I had an 10 strip trip where I pretty much watched my life happen in reverse while joking and laughing with my pals in some void after we died I don't know if that is relevant except maybe to a psychologist.
There is far too much for things to be merely coincidental, powerful energies are at work. I didn't have a good attitude today, I haven't all week. I've been really lazy and also sleeping just way too much I don't get it this just happens sometimes. Guess I tired myself out. Gotta make sure my quality of life is okay.
edit... I have also found the opposite to be true, non-coincidentally. Too many synchronicities over the years - positive affirmations, general positive radiation, lack of fear or attachment - these things really do attract positive energies into my life. Like I am choosing the frequency I want to be at. And I have been messing with that frequency with drugs for a lot of my life, and I find that I can get out of tune if I do too many of them. With the benzos and opiates, those completely changed my life though. Turned my life upside down. Ruined my life and I am rebuilding now instead of sustaining like I was before. Weed is sustainable, I would prefer not to smoke it but for now the worst it causes in my life is a few hours of burnout if I smoke it too much. None of it should be a focus at all apart from quitting it. That is all well and good. I make stupid fuckin choices though that is for sure.
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