ad lib
Ex-Bluelighter
- Joined
- Feb 9, 2013
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It's hard having friends but not being able to tell them you are using when they think you have been sober for years. BL is the only place I can be honest. It's raining and I am so depressed. I hate myself and wish I could just end it, but I can't do that to my family.
I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. I've been there so many times with just wanting to end it...there were very few things that could keep me going. Family was one- I thought of my nephew and how my family would explain what I did to myself to him. My family is a huge factor in not doing anything to myself.
Your friends don't have to know if you're using or not- and if they'd get upset over it rather than try and help you then they're not genuine friends. I never told my friends because I didn't feel it was any of their business. But if I had a friend who told me they were using I wouldn't be upset- I'd do everything in my power to try and help them.
I hope you choose to live