The songs that made us .....

Songs that made me? A lot of songs growing up were meaningful to me and touched me in different ways.
Joe Walsh "The smokier you drink the player you get" was playing the first time I IV'd MDA.
I was really into early Pink Floyd until Dark Side of the Moon then they seemed to be more commercialized so I stopped listening to Pink Floyd about the time Shine on You Crazy Diamond came out, although I liked Animals album.
Listened to Sly & Family Stone and War for a while. I had a few albums of Hawk-wind, Ginger Bakers Air Force and Alan Parsons Project "Tales of Mystery and Imagination works of Edgar Allen Poe" Electric Light Orchestra and Yes were in my library collection as well as Jethro Tull, The Tubes, and do you remember White Witch? "It's so nice to be stoned... "
Some defining songs would be "I'm a man" Chicago, Edwin Star "War, what is it good for" David Bowie Ziggy Stardust and Spiders from Mars




The first album I bought was Iron Butterfly "Heavy"
Steppenwolf Monster
 
This album came out when I was in high school and first starting to open my mind to shit. I felt like I was in hell back then and drowning in my own emotions , but looking back it was a truly great period of my life. I loved being in my own little world with just my small circle of friends and never knowing what crazy shit we were going to get into.

 
I was sent this the first time I spoke to someone special in my life who is from India.
Each time I hear it I am taken back to those first few messages we sent when we first began to chat.

 
Sounds That Made Us...

Get Drunk!



The Famous Mi$ter Ed Chance!

CH3CH2-OH
HO-CH2CH2CH2CH2-OH
Na+ [HO-CH2CH2CH2(C=O)-O(minus)]

DO NOT MIX AND MATCH THOSE SOLUTIONS.
 
bro.... when i was a teen, i started telling everyone i was "mr. grieves" from this pixies song... i just updated in the crack thread... i don't know if anyone is following my past few days of posting on BL, but life is really intense with me... i did a thread about comparing exercise highs to drugs and i don't think people really care about how i'm thinking.

i don't know..... i just know that something knows how i'm praying with the drug culture. blue light helps connect me. the internet is synchronicity despite the fact that some stuff on BL is kind of depressing to me. it all has it's way.


being worried my comparing exercise to drugs thread was stupid, i remembered that i had a thread about comparing the harshness of different drugs and I DON'T SEE HOW PEOPLE COULDN'T OF HUMOURED ME.... like there should've been a bunch of posts like comparing crack to heroin or meth. i know some of you smoked all that shit... no one cares about some foodcrisis robert l..... maybe you just don't want to trigger me to have the thoughts i'm having thinking crack isn't harsh. and really wanting to try crack.....

so i'm on disablity. they don't really make me take an amount of meds that affects my life that it bothers me in any way that i'm aware of, and i might not even have to take the meds to stay on disablity cause the spine doctor said my spine is visibly messed up and disability should pay for it... ANYWAYS, i'm always worried i'm gonna be homeless getting kicked out of smoke free housing regardless of that's probably not even going to happen...

i had some trip i'm gonna be in a homeless shelter, and to try to find housing and friends i was thinking i could spend some days on the street outside the shelter and look for people that have property and tell that i'm just looking for a day to take some shrooms and play guitar for my youtube.... like i have some hope that shrooms are legal some places and people will have pity on me realizing how much joy the drugs and guitar are bringing me, and someone will be my room mate in an area shrooms are legal...

i was having some trip listening to you tube on shuffle remembering the "harshness of different drugs" thread in the past few moments, forgetting they put fentanyl in drugs i got the hope that it wouldn't matter if i were homeless and that i should go to a shelter in a highly crack infested area and just be a streets person that takes whatever life gives them... crazy shit. made me cry tears of joy posting in the harshness thread about my experience with coke/weed and painting and how i'm an advocate that people should be allowed to try that. my whole life is given up to advocating how i feel. the best way i can do this is to do tai chi to over come stress and post on the internet. i walk around talking to myself and it really helps with my tai chi. i'm hesitant to tell people my story, but i will talk to anyone. i mostly keep to myself and find ways out of conversation with people with out any political discourse. i'm pretty good at sizing people up.

a life on the streets for more than a few years probably wouldn't allow me to adjust into any level of comfort. if i couldn't find any housing that would probably lead me to suicide... getting to try crack even before dying gives me some hope and feels kind of beautiful to me.. i don't really trust fentanyl test strips always work, but like FOR ME IN THAT SITUATION, i'll just pick some up and try crack... like i'll have to be homeless for years trying to do my you tube with shrooms and find housing. i don't really want to accidently try fentanly. not worth it to me to mess around unless i'm really super suicidal and i know i can go with out for a few years.. i always think about wanting to try crack though... i probably never will unless they make it legal or life is severely screwing me over.... i have a lot of hope to make great art with shroom trips.

shrooms are legal a few towns over now and they rent out an elks lodge or knights of columbus hall place right off the trains... if i can't find a living situation to keep doing drumming, i'm going to go to cambridge and look for someone that is growing shrooms to help trip sit me and rent out the lodge and open it to the public and crank some crazy psychedelic noise drumming while i'm messed up on shrooms. they are still letting people do shows... i don't really even need to do shrooms, but i want to go deep into a psychedelic zone and do some drumming. WHY NOT!?!?!? LOL

i constantly worry no one is going to help me cause people are gaslighting me because of bizarre things i've said over the internet claiming to be "mr. grieves" from the song that i'm posting below... LOL... i'm really not sure if i'm schizo though... if worst comes to worst, i really think i'lll be able to find people in cambridge that will help me get some shrooms. i'm a pretty chill person, or turning into one/realizing how to be chill at 40.... if i can't find anyone in cambridge mass and i don't have access to federal housing cause i get kicked out for smoking, i'm just gonna go to homeless shelters in new mexico where shrooms are legal across the whole state and take days off on the street looking for places to play guitar and hope someone will help me.... i have a lot of faith that SOMEONE OUT THERE IS GONNA GET ME. my guitar tunings that i do on psychedelics turn up to be stuff that google says is good tunings and people do that on you tube... Someone's bound to respect that i really believe that's shaman shit and like give me a chance to room with them...


anyways, i got this cassette when i first got my license as a teen in the old cassette bin of the record store knowing about the pixies from the end of fight club, and it felt really good to listen to while DRIVING (EDIT: accidently wrote "high" instead of driving before rereading the post. whoops. not a drug thing at all.)... that "doolittle" by the pixies is a perfect album as a whole to me, just some moderate rock shit. i see how some people would find it boring, but it just really suites me.... i started thinking about my conscious super hard from "Mr. Grieves"... ehh.. just sounds fucking cool as hell. so fucking cool. HAH



MR. GRIEVES IS JUST LIKE THIS REALLY STRONG BUT SUPER TRIPPED OUT INSANE DUDE........ THE "Do you have another opinion" lyric was one of the reasons i'm so adamant about expressing how i view the world on the internet. lol...

BRO I CAN GET DOWN WITH SHROOMS, I "Swing from a good rope" like Mr. Grieves. BRO I AM MR. GRIEVES!!!!


alright peace out BL... wanting to post this story and found this place to post a few pages back... pick this thread up again if you like... get down with some Mr. Grieves if you can handle it! lol..... The pixies have the bass player from the band The Breeders that did "cannonball" sounds like she's repeated "In the shade" that was always on hard rock radio in the early 90's. she does vocals in some pixies songs if you are interested, but i see how "cannonball" and maybe even the breeders are more appealing for some than the pixies... pixies go hard in a real specific way i relate to though


YOU TUBE HIT ME UP WITH SOME MR. GRIEVES ON SHUFFLE!
 
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