Ended up using PCE 6 of the past 8 days. Bit of a pyramid set (3 days on, 1 off, 2 on, 1 off, 1 on). Sticking to 1 dose plugged (~8-10mg) per day, no desire to redose. One day I did use a higher dose (13mg) and it wasn't as enjoyable, as I started to enter the claymation/putty zone. At lower doses it's more stimulating, warm and colorful. higher doses it becomes darker, colder, more removed, and less cheerful.
Damn I like this stuff though. Although a few days ago I was on it at the beach along with I guess a good bit of THC and I lost my phone. Didn't have it backed up so I lost all my pictures and my BTC wallet. Looked everywhere for it but nothing. Normally this would have absolutely ruined my day and probably the rest of the week but as I was starting to get upset I was able to calm myself down and think positively. I feel like I was able to flip some master switch that assigns a negative bias to my internal assesment of basically any situation (whether that be the unknown outcome of some event, other people's intentions, etc). My mom used to be like this and while it might be a strategy to occupy some stable evolutionary niche, it's not at all enjoyable way to live. I've been so much happier, friendly, less judgmental, etc, ever since that happened.
I've been surprised how little cognitive impairment there has been on the off days and really even most of the on days. I actually feel like my brain has woken up, which after months on phenibut I felt pretty dumbed down. None of the psychiatric symptoms that dissociatives often give me, which is surprising to me especially considering that I've been using THC more than average. I think a big part of this is the Lion's Mane, which I can't say I know much about how it works, but it's something I want to look into now. Also have been taking 850mg NMN and 150-200mg caffeine each morning,
Pretty good duration on this stuff, as the effects don't really wane for the first 8 hours. Feels very comfortable in the system during that time, after which it develops a bit of a pressor effect, although I've been combatting this with 10-20mg propranolol. It definitely has an effect into the next day (actually the days I abstained were two of the best days I had the past week), but it's more stimulating, colorful, bright, and not really dissociating at all.
Doesn't seem to alter basal metabolic rate or fluid levels much, as I've been able to almost maintain my weight (down a couple pounds over the past week, but I haven't been eating as much either). A lot of dissociatives tend to throw off my body temperature and can also make me perspire, but I haven't really gotten those from the PCE either.
Best part is this stuff is super social. I feel like my interactions with strangers over the past week have been much more beneficial for me. I was able to say things I felt were original and they didn't feel like empty interactions. I'm pretty cool with my neighbor and we've hung out a couple times, but even talking to him I felt so much more connection and camaraderie. It's like I don't care what people think of me anymore (which is a big issue for me normally), but not in a superiority-type way either.
Overall the past week has been really good. I feel like I'm getting back to myself after I spent much of the past year trying to be someone that isn't true to me. I even made a really big change that's gonna keep me a lot busier going forward, and I'm really happy about that.
PCE you amazing lady
