dezz
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I have entered a stage in my life where I am actually starting to take responsibility for the things that happen to me.
Just a month ago I was reading something and some thoughts came up. Just some thoughts which didn't mean anything special to me at the time, I will try to replicate them as much as I can but as you probably know, it's damn hard to do that.
"Why am I actually reading this?... The... old... man... I need to see Dave tonight, I wonder how he is doing? I like pizza, let's order some pizza tomorrow.... Oh I was reading. OK, let's try again....the...old...man....is... hmm it's funny how I'm saying it out loud in my head when I read, haha... hearing...the words..echo...Wait. It's me who's saying this right? Is this me? If it is, then who is listening?"
Woah... And that's when I came to the conclusion that the mind is, in a way sort of schizophrenic. If I tell you to stop thinking about blue dolphins, you will start thinking about blue dolphins. If you consciously try not to do it the thought will still be thrown at you.
I never got the exact idea of the subconscious but I think it's way more easily explained in terms of "The Thinker" and you: "The Observer"
The Thinker is the part of you that runs in a frenzy after everything it wants without considering anything else. It's the part that makes you want to reach level 60 in World of Warcraft in a week, it's the part that makes you chase a girl who is obviously not into you, it's the part that makes you smoke weed everyday while you know you need to cut that shit out.
The Thinker is just that, he thinks, based on previous experiences he tries to minimize pain and failure by convincing you to do something or not do something. There is one big mistake into letting yourself get dragged along by The Thinker's wants and desires. It's animalistic behavior. Minimize all pain and mindlessly seek pleasure without regarding any self growth in the long term.
The Observer is actually you who makes conscious decisions based on what you receive, the one who actually pushes himself to find a job when you dont feel like it, who is scared to death to give that presentation but pushes himself to do it anyway.
The Observer can also be the one who is dominated by The Thinker and will suffer and live a dull, lonely and isolated life of self destruction because of it.
I finally got why meditation has such an enormous benefit. It allows you to separate the two and quiet down the chatter and it gives the observer a break to step back and decide if the thinker's messages are actually useful. I have experimented with this and paid close attention to my level of thinking and time and time again after meditating I could pick out negative thoughts, replace them with a positive one and made them stick after a while.
The more I'm separating my two minds the better I become at analyzing and tweaking my thoughts.
Example: Today someone did some shit to piss me off.
I would normally think "What a little bitch, I hate his guts so much"
I have turned this into: "It's funny that I am feeling anger about this person, when he isn't a part of my life at all"
Instead of repeating the first thought over and over again like I used to do I think the second one once, it leaves my head and I'm done with it, if you come to the conclusion that it was a result of your actions you take it onboard and improve that personality trait if you don't like it.
This allows for less negativity in your mind, allows you to love live a hell of a lot more and I'm already noticing a huge difference in my confidence.
People are asking me if I did anything about my looks (nothing...).
Multiple girls have actually approached ME for a date (Never happened in my life).
Strangers approach me for small talk on a daily basis.
I can revert to a meditative state while walking outside and enjoy the way the wind blows on my face and the way people are communicating around me.
I left my skull-sized kingdom and actually visited Earth, and it feels really good.
When the mind is flowing with positive thoughts, you give off positivity, and people can sense that from miles away.
I was a self-centered hater, an egocentric person who thought his reality was all there was too it, and most idiots didn't realize the bitter truth, that everything about society sucks and it's all just a big corporate scheme. A month after giving the subconscious an own identity and separating it from who I actually am actually made me considerably more happy.
Of course I have good days and bad days, it's still a very hard struggle to replace bad patterns with new better ones, but it's very rewarding to see these results so quickly. I keep my goals small for now, change my patterns step by step. This week I will shut off any computer or phone 2 hours before I will go to sleep, and keep to a steady bedtime to fix my sleeping cycle.
After I have got the sleep right I want to gain some more confidence as I feel like I'm lacking there. I'm already saying hi to any stranger I come across and it feels way less uncomfortable already.
However, I want to take this slow, as confidence isn't about external validation but internally trusting yourself in succeeding.
Pushing yourself to do something that's too much on your plate will eventually set you back if you fail.
Anyway that is what I realized what's best for MY OWN personal-growth I'm not trying to get people to do it the way I do it, but the concept of the observer and thinker and actually having a choice on how to respond to the mind is liberating and is doing a lot for me so I hope it helps someone having shared this.
I'd love to hear your take on the brain, how to better control it, change for the better or more importantly: stimulate happiness from within and create a healthy way of being.
I'm also thinking back on my experiences with psychedelics a lot lately.
I'm very curious on how they would influence a person who is trying to change himself. Will it add too much chaos? Give insights he's looking for? I look back to my experiences and I'm grateful for having had them but I also know it was ALOT of information to take in considering it only lasts 6-8 hours. (Acid/Shrooms) however, my ego is too big for my own good and could use a good beating haha.
Sorry for the massive post, but I wanted to include everything ^^
Just a month ago I was reading something and some thoughts came up. Just some thoughts which didn't mean anything special to me at the time, I will try to replicate them as much as I can but as you probably know, it's damn hard to do that.
"Why am I actually reading this?... The... old... man... I need to see Dave tonight, I wonder how he is doing? I like pizza, let's order some pizza tomorrow.... Oh I was reading. OK, let's try again....the...old...man....is... hmm it's funny how I'm saying it out loud in my head when I read, haha... hearing...the words..echo...Wait. It's me who's saying this right? Is this me? If it is, then who is listening?"
Woah... And that's when I came to the conclusion that the mind is, in a way sort of schizophrenic. If I tell you to stop thinking about blue dolphins, you will start thinking about blue dolphins. If you consciously try not to do it the thought will still be thrown at you.
I never got the exact idea of the subconscious but I think it's way more easily explained in terms of "The Thinker" and you: "The Observer"
The Thinker is the part of you that runs in a frenzy after everything it wants without considering anything else. It's the part that makes you want to reach level 60 in World of Warcraft in a week, it's the part that makes you chase a girl who is obviously not into you, it's the part that makes you smoke weed everyday while you know you need to cut that shit out.
The Thinker is just that, he thinks, based on previous experiences he tries to minimize pain and failure by convincing you to do something or not do something. There is one big mistake into letting yourself get dragged along by The Thinker's wants and desires. It's animalistic behavior. Minimize all pain and mindlessly seek pleasure without regarding any self growth in the long term.
The Observer is actually you who makes conscious decisions based on what you receive, the one who actually pushes himself to find a job when you dont feel like it, who is scared to death to give that presentation but pushes himself to do it anyway.
The Observer can also be the one who is dominated by The Thinker and will suffer and live a dull, lonely and isolated life of self destruction because of it.
I finally got why meditation has such an enormous benefit. It allows you to separate the two and quiet down the chatter and it gives the observer a break to step back and decide if the thinker's messages are actually useful. I have experimented with this and paid close attention to my level of thinking and time and time again after meditating I could pick out negative thoughts, replace them with a positive one and made them stick after a while.
The more I'm separating my two minds the better I become at analyzing and tweaking my thoughts.
Example: Today someone did some shit to piss me off.
I would normally think "What a little bitch, I hate his guts so much"
I have turned this into: "It's funny that I am feeling anger about this person, when he isn't a part of my life at all"
Instead of repeating the first thought over and over again like I used to do I think the second one once, it leaves my head and I'm done with it, if you come to the conclusion that it was a result of your actions you take it onboard and improve that personality trait if you don't like it.
This allows for less negativity in your mind, allows you to love live a hell of a lot more and I'm already noticing a huge difference in my confidence.
People are asking me if I did anything about my looks (nothing...).
Multiple girls have actually approached ME for a date (Never happened in my life).
Strangers approach me for small talk on a daily basis.
I can revert to a meditative state while walking outside and enjoy the way the wind blows on my face and the way people are communicating around me.
I left my skull-sized kingdom and actually visited Earth, and it feels really good.
When the mind is flowing with positive thoughts, you give off positivity, and people can sense that from miles away.
I was a self-centered hater, an egocentric person who thought his reality was all there was too it, and most idiots didn't realize the bitter truth, that everything about society sucks and it's all just a big corporate scheme. A month after giving the subconscious an own identity and separating it from who I actually am actually made me considerably more happy.
Of course I have good days and bad days, it's still a very hard struggle to replace bad patterns with new better ones, but it's very rewarding to see these results so quickly. I keep my goals small for now, change my patterns step by step. This week I will shut off any computer or phone 2 hours before I will go to sleep, and keep to a steady bedtime to fix my sleeping cycle.
After I have got the sleep right I want to gain some more confidence as I feel like I'm lacking there. I'm already saying hi to any stranger I come across and it feels way less uncomfortable already.
However, I want to take this slow, as confidence isn't about external validation but internally trusting yourself in succeeding.
Pushing yourself to do something that's too much on your plate will eventually set you back if you fail.
Anyway that is what I realized what's best for MY OWN personal-growth I'm not trying to get people to do it the way I do it, but the concept of the observer and thinker and actually having a choice on how to respond to the mind is liberating and is doing a lot for me so I hope it helps someone having shared this.
I'd love to hear your take on the brain, how to better control it, change for the better or more importantly: stimulate happiness from within and create a healthy way of being.
I'm also thinking back on my experiences with psychedelics a lot lately.
I'm very curious on how they would influence a person who is trying to change himself. Will it add too much chaos? Give insights he's looking for? I look back to my experiences and I'm grateful for having had them but I also know it was ALOT of information to take in considering it only lasts 6-8 hours. (Acid/Shrooms) however, my ego is too big for my own good and could use a good beating haha.
Sorry for the massive post, but I wanted to include everything ^^
