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The Sad Thread (Anti-Snoo) 2 - Tory Britain in Flames

Thanks. <3

I needed a reminder that this thing isn't beaten overnight, you know. It's just frustrating how slow things can be, but I guess there's a lot of damage to undo.

You know what? This evening was meant to be spent in the company of a teetotal, non-smoking, meditating woman, going to see a film. Normal stuff. She's now offering to come round and see I'm okay. I feel like an arsehole. If I tell the truth, it'll just seem like an excuse and she'll hate me. There's no chance though.

Fucking booze.

EDIT: She doesn't hate me, but I got a lecture about my reckless ways, slurring on the phone, and a promise to help me 'get it together'. Relief, I guess.
 
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Sammy G said:
Thanks. <3

I needed a reminder that this thing isn't beaten overnight, you know. It's just frustrating how slow things can be, but I guess there's a lot of damage to undo.

You know what? This evening was meant to be spent in the company of a teetotal, non-smoking, meditating woman, going to see a film. Normal stuff. She's now offering to come round and see I'm okay. I feel like an arsehole. If I tell the truth, it'll just seem like an excuse and she'll hate me. There's no chance though.

Fucking booze.
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Start telling the truth. If she can't hack it she ain't going to be a friend so there's no loss. Force yourself out or invite her round for a little and YES - tell her all about it. ALL of it. <3

This time of year is hard enough for you without trying to pretend, you know... <3

Aye, that's the trouble with the self abuse stuff honey, it takes a bit longer to get over. But hey you've had a good rinse at it, time for a windy drying out on the back green washing ropes :D

Pick yourself up, shave those gorgeous cheeks and present yourself as you. You = is good enough honey (((HUGS))) <3

ps: this kinda malarkey doesn't shift overnight or in a lifetime flower, its who we are and some of it is fucking geat - just needs a lil love, attention and management...
 
Thanks. Again!

I still feel lousy for having ruined something someone put a lot of thought into, but I think she guessed when she called last night that I wasn't likely to be in good condition. It's letting a friend down though. Still, she can put up with it. I endured her drug years after all. Not that I was straight myself, but y'know.

A clear head and some fresh air is much needed.
 
Sammy G said:
Feel so burnt out that I could just give up today.

My hands are trembling, which is due to either lithium or alcohol. It's annoying. The past fortnight or more has been a maze of confused emotional shit, which was probably not helped by the drinking. Still, it makes me wonder if I'm really getting better at all.

As disturbing as the thought may be, things are so dire that I'm prepared to admit that I need a hug. I could get one, but it'd either involve going out drinking, or going out otherwise, but with attached conditions and a personality which I can't be bothered with right now. Plus my bed smells of all the alcohol and prescription meds I've sweated out.

Hopefully, a couple of sober weeks will leave me embarrassed at getting like this.

Big whinge, etc.
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Part of me was always jealous of my mate that is bi polar simply because every girl loves him! you just got to look on the brightside, reality is you will hit rock bottom at times. I hit rock bottom when i lost my full time job last november, i felt like crap for a week and did nothing but abuse drugs.

My mate split up with his gf and drank for 2 weeks and barely ate few months back, he came back here for a few days to see me and other peeps. Luckily his mum made him get his shit together and go back to work and he is much better now, so yeah listen to kate.

The world would be a sterile place with out people like you Sammy
 
Sammy G said:
Feel so burnt out that I could just give up today.

My hands are trembling, which is due to either lithium or alcohol. It's annoying. The past fortnight or more has been a maze of confused emotional shit, which was probably not helped by the drinking. Still, it makes me wonder if I'm really getting better at all.

As disturbing as the thought may be, things are so dire that I'm prepared to admit that I need a hug. I could get one, but it'd either involve going out drinking, or going out otherwise, but with attached conditions and a personality which I can't be bothered with right now. Plus my bed smells of all the alcohol and prescription meds I've sweated out.

Hopefully, a couple of sober weeks will leave me embarrassed at getting like this.

Big whinge, etc.
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I know you and I haven't always seen eye to eye Sammy but I'm really heartbroken to hear that.

I really hope things sort themselves out soon for you mate.

I hate to see anyone in distress.

Probably not the sort of "hug you wanted but here's one anyway.

<3 <3 (((HUG))) <3 <3
 
Sammy G said:
Thanks. Again!

I still feel lousy for having ruined something someone put a lot of thought into, but I think she guessed when she called last night that I wasn't likely to be in good condition. It's letting a friend down though. Still, she can put up with it. I endured her drug years after all. Not that I was straight myself, but y'know.

A clear head and some fresh air is much needed.
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Is it still too late?

Well get back to her and explain and offer up another time / event if tonight is too late. Tell her you appreciate her arrangements, but explain it - you need to come clean on this one.

It'll do you good to stop watching that skinny navel of yours :p

ps: and quite with the feeling lousey, guilty, persecuted nonsense. Just cut that thinking to the quick right now.
 
I really can't be bothered with her tonight. If that sounds, evil then it isn't meant to.

I've thanked her, apologised and she's alright with that. No doubt she'll have other plans. I'm just intent on not letting her cross boundaries that she's already testing. Again, evil. What can I say?

She's a good person, but not today.
 
Sammy G said:
I really can't be bothered with her tonight. If that sounds, evil then it isn't meant to.

I've thanked her, apologised and she's alright with that. No doubt she'll have other plans. I'm just intent on not letting her cross boundaries that she's already testing. Again, evil. What can I say?

She's a good person, but not today.
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Well that's good - how about following up with another thing to do together? It'll get you out and with someone who "sounds like understanding lovely person" to have a chat, nice day out with. It's routine and connection you need to be picking up again on. Say's yer BL Sis ;)<3

Text her and suggest something on Sunday? That gives you a day extra to steep in a bath and fumigate =D

I insist :|

<3
 
I'm sad because life keeps dealing a shitty hand to the most remarkable person I've met in years.

The kind of person who not only makes me smile without trying, but fascinates and inspires me, as well as caring. Yeah, cynical old me.

I only wish I help, and I can't. It sucks, and I can only be here, which is not even nearby, and offer the odd supportive word. This person deserves the best, and it's heartbreaking to know they're hurting.
 
Sammy G said:
I'm sad because life keeps dealing a shitty hand to the most remarkable person I've met in years.

The kind of person who not only makes me smile without trying, but fascinates and inspires me, as well as caring. Yeah, cynical old me.

I only wish I help, and I can't. It sucks, and I can only be here, which is not even nearby, and offer the odd supportive word. This person deserves the best, and it's heartbreaking to know they're hurting.
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Just keep trying your best <3
 
Thanks. That's all I can do.

Maybe somebody whose best is better than mine will come along. Who knows? As long as I could know they're being cared for, my world would be a slightly less moribund place.
 
Sammy G said:
Thanks. That's all I can do.

Maybe somebody whose best is better than mine will come along. Who knows? As long as I could know they're being cared for, my world would be a slightly less moribund place.
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You need to keep positive and be thankful for the small things that you do that matter a huge amount to people. For they are precious and remembered. You need to keep that in mind too and find those little bits of joy that are passing back and forth between us all <3
 
Thanks. <3

A funny thing happened after I posted - the person got in touch, so at least I know they're alive, and even though they're still not in a good way, my concern was apparently appreciated. So at least I can stop walking round with my stomach in a knot now.

Can I go back to being a heartless bastard? Please? It was so much easier.
 
Sammy G said:
Thanks. <3

A funny thing happened after I posted - the person got in touch, so at least I know they're alive, and even though they're still not in a good way, my concern was apparently appreciated. So at least I can stop walking round with my stomach in a knot now.

Can I go back to being a heartless bastard? Please? It was so much easier.
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Good.

No you can't, I'm not allowing it - it'll be my new nag ;) Hey maybe our meds are working! 8(

Go treat yourself to a packet of cashew nuts :D
 
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