Here we are folks years latter still at the square one
The place and the surroundings changed, but the problem remained.
First, finding a beautiful girl is not easy. Here I am sitting in one of the largest libraries surrounded by 70% girls (I always wondered why the bitches study so much?
) literaly gazing for a perfect one.
Alas, every one of them has some small flaw and most of them are plain ugly, i.e. far worse than my girlfriend. Most could be fuckable, but seems a few would fill my real needs in terms of beauty and 'character suitability'.
I look in horror at one girl who hunched her back over the notebook...reminds me so much of my girlfriend and all the dissatisfaction and resentment I feel whenever I see her hunched.
Besides her hunching problem, my gf has many other, one most prominent being her unwillingness toward being showed off. She never goes out with me to party when my colleagues are present. And most of the time we also fight about the place and timing we should go. It's her way or highway, or a big fight, which I suspect she deeply inside enjoy, because of drama. And all that shit about love, affection, 'you should love me even if I am going to be ugly and old...'. Yes I will, but first you need to be beautiful at least SOMETIMES. And I don't want just 'yeah cute' kind of beauty. I want turning peoples' heads on the street, opening most exclusive clubs, complete wardrobe according to MY preferences (or if you want to surprise me try at least not to upset me). I want adventure, constant competition, topping up...feeling that I am with someone prosperous and valuable...not just valuable...the most valuable. Instead I am with a person who doesn't like even when I talk about fashion, topping up others or plans to overtake the world. She in fact considers me crazy at times, probably due to her lack of experience with the male way of thinking.
And how the hell could I know that the first day I met her? It was just all the right factors were alligned, she and her friend were standing close to us, the night was slow, other girls were plain ugly, she was from a good family, seemed so perspective and smart, SHOWED HER PART OF INTREST...
And now there remained just that last part - her intrest for me and 'love'. Or at least her way of 'love', if we can say that 'my love' cannot even go with me on a party upon my request . She suspects I just want to show her off. I want. And so, what's the big deal?? What's her purpose sitting in house and be occasionaly used for sex only? (and even that is with some restraints and constantfears and obsessions about various problems that might arise if some bacteria from the air accidently gets into her vagina)
But where to find another? It's not just like going into supermarket and picking up a new one. We need right circumstances. For instance a beautiful girl to stand in front of me, or the right situation, so I can actually start talking to her. And since I find just 3-5% of my age group really attractive, simply by probability it rarely happens. For instance, all my female colleagues are out of this group. Nice girls, but still it's not that what I want.
And even if she meets physical standard, who can guarantee she will fit with me and my way of thinking? Will she be ready to be shown off? Will she be a successful well-rounded person? Will she show the same or bigger level of affection like my previous girlfriend?
It would be so good if there was a way to get into peoples'heads instantly and check all this compatibility constraints. Ah, it would be so great if at least it would be normal for a person to approach another person and say all this story instantly and ask 'Are you a such person?'. But no. We are doomed to keep wasting time and let our own fears prevent us from being happy.

First, finding a beautiful girl is not easy. Here I am sitting in one of the largest libraries surrounded by 70% girls (I always wondered why the bitches study so much?

Alas, every one of them has some small flaw and most of them are plain ugly, i.e. far worse than my girlfriend. Most could be fuckable, but seems a few would fill my real needs in terms of beauty and 'character suitability'.
I look in horror at one girl who hunched her back over the notebook...reminds me so much of my girlfriend and all the dissatisfaction and resentment I feel whenever I see her hunched.
Besides her hunching problem, my gf has many other, one most prominent being her unwillingness toward being showed off. She never goes out with me to party when my colleagues are present. And most of the time we also fight about the place and timing we should go. It's her way or highway, or a big fight, which I suspect she deeply inside enjoy, because of drama. And all that shit about love, affection, 'you should love me even if I am going to be ugly and old...'. Yes I will, but first you need to be beautiful at least SOMETIMES. And I don't want just 'yeah cute' kind of beauty. I want turning peoples' heads on the street, opening most exclusive clubs, complete wardrobe according to MY preferences (or if you want to surprise me try at least not to upset me). I want adventure, constant competition, topping up...feeling that I am with someone prosperous and valuable...not just valuable...the most valuable. Instead I am with a person who doesn't like even when I talk about fashion, topping up others or plans to overtake the world. She in fact considers me crazy at times, probably due to her lack of experience with the male way of thinking.
And how the hell could I know that the first day I met her? It was just all the right factors were alligned, she and her friend were standing close to us, the night was slow, other girls were plain ugly, she was from a good family, seemed so perspective and smart, SHOWED HER PART OF INTREST...
And now there remained just that last part - her intrest for me and 'love'. Or at least her way of 'love', if we can say that 'my love' cannot even go with me on a party upon my request . She suspects I just want to show her off. I want. And so, what's the big deal?? What's her purpose sitting in house and be occasionaly used for sex only? (and even that is with some restraints and constantfears and obsessions about various problems that might arise if some bacteria from the air accidently gets into her vagina)
But where to find another? It's not just like going into supermarket and picking up a new one. We need right circumstances. For instance a beautiful girl to stand in front of me, or the right situation, so I can actually start talking to her. And since I find just 3-5% of my age group really attractive, simply by probability it rarely happens. For instance, all my female colleagues are out of this group. Nice girls, but still it's not that what I want.
And even if she meets physical standard, who can guarantee she will fit with me and my way of thinking? Will she be ready to be shown off? Will she be a successful well-rounded person? Will she show the same or bigger level of affection like my previous girlfriend?
It would be so good if there was a way to get into peoples'heads instantly and check all this compatibility constraints. Ah, it would be so great if at least it would be normal for a person to approach another person and say all this story instantly and ask 'Are you a such person?'. But no. We are doomed to keep wasting time and let our own fears prevent us from being happy.