Hello.
I am a 25 year old male. I developed TMJ out of nowhere about a year ago. My jaw literally began completely locking up, and I had to manually rip it open. The noise it made almost made grown men vomit. I already suffered from left arm pain from breaking my left humerus at 17. It was a compound fracture, so bad the docs said only way it could have been worse was if it had broken the skin. Due to the proximity of the radial nerve and the risk of hitting it, I had to be put into a huge 20 pound cast when surgery was really warranted. A tendon or something healed on the wrong side of my elbow during my time in the cast, I literally cannot bench press, can't curl as much with the left arm, and push-ups/dips make it audibly pop. If I use it too much, I am punished the next two days with a dull pain in my joint/arm. At 14 I shattered my maxillary ridge running into a kid's forehead in gym. My teeth were intact, just sticking straight back. Everything was fine, until two and a half years ago when I began getting 'flashback pain' in the teeth that were at the center of the impact. I had a root canal as all the nerve tissue was dead, yet I still get "phantom tooth" pain now. I have lower back pain that began after twisting my back two years ago weed-eating on a hill. I went to a chiropractor, and the severe pain was managed... but as I sleep on a couch, and spend time on a computer, I get lower back pain that then causes muscle tension spreading up my whole back. I get migraines, possibly a symptom of the TMJ as well as stiff shoulders and neck. I also have horrible restless leg syndrome. I also have fibro. And, I am constantly nauseous and get stomach cramps as well.
I had been self-medicating for years, and had my medical card in CA. But, now I am in TN and on probation, so smoking is out of the question. I was on Subutex for about 2 years, but was shooting it (unfiltered) and wasn't even getting pain relief, it just made me feel not dope-sick. My Subutex doctor tricked me into a costly injection, and stopped seeing me when I refused to pay. My late girlfriend's addictionologist wrote her Subutex, but would only write me Suboxone. It made me feel very sick, and gave me headaches. They gave me sumatriptan in response, a bullshit migraine med. I finally got into a pain clinic, and the doctor gave me Tramadol. Seeing as I had been using heroin to self-medicate, this did nothing for me. I went to the psych ward because my depression and anxiety were killing me. There, the psychiatrist gave me 6 10mg Percocets a day. This somewhat helped. I also got on Lyrica, and Remeron (amazing drug, helps me eat as I am in recovery from being a purging anorexic, helps me sleep, helps my RLS, and helps my depression... without the side-effects of most psych meds. SSRI's will literally kill me, distonic reaction, I get the "Lamictal rash," and Abilify makes me feel like I'm shaking constantly). I also got back on Klonopin. When I returned to the pain doctor (actually a nurse practitioner), she was none too happy with me being on 60mg of oxycodone after she had only given me Tramadol. I got dropped back down to 3 7.5mg Percocets a day, and started self-medicating with Opana ER and Heroin. The next visit, I told her that with my fast metabolism, I was constantly watching the clock, as a Percocet only made me feel a little better for like an hour. I asked what long-acting meds there were. I get a localized, very nasty rash/hives from IV morphine, so we decided that was out. She offered Opana ER. I jumped on it. I have been on 2 10mg Opana ER's for about 5 months now. I was getting 2 Tylox 5's until last week, when she gave me 2 7.5mg Percocets in their place for breakthrough pain (they aren't worth shit). I also get 20 25mg Promethazine or Phenegran suppositories a month. The Opana ER isn't working as well now... and my insurance rolls over come January 1st, and I will have to pay $260 a month for my Opana. I am on Vyvanse, and my blood pressure/pulse is always up when I come in. It is obvious I am not at risk of being too medicated when it comes to CNS depression. Actavis makes 15mg Opana ER generics. My doctor wants a MRI on my jaw, even though she cringes when she feels the way it pops (constantly). I want an MRI on my back, and my arm... as well as my intestines checked for Chron's (even on all the opiates, I have at least 3 or more bowel movements a day, coupled with the nausea that was there before the opiates. It is common for people with eating disorders to develop Chron's). I cannot afford my Opana ER's, and they have made my life liveable again. But, the only way I can keep getting them is getting a 10mg a day dose increase. How should I approach this?
Thank you for the input.
peace
~f.xy