The Opiod Machine of Madness

[GoingtheDistance]

For so many years, I've not put myself out here for help. I've read, I've learned, I moved on....slowly. So, it's time for a kind sole, or forum, to help guide me in knocking out the last part of my addiction to Opiods/Opiates.

Eight years ago, a GF of mine, knowing I liked feeling different, or a little bit funky, turned me onto oxycodone. Well, my oh my, there it was.....the feeling I could accomplish all and be the ruler of my Kingdom......until I was not. See, that's the problem with opiods, they work until they don't. When they don't, it's time to go off of them. Being a big shot, I said, "No, No, No."

Is this PAWS I'm feeling, or have I not hit rock bottom yet? Do I have to loose my home, my business first, or can I knock this out before that happens?
I enjoy people at all the meetings I've gone to within AA and NA. Some people think I'm the Speaker for that meeting when I'm at my weakest. I'm not that.! I'm weak, and afraid most of the time. What am I doing wrong here. Is there a forum for me?

 

[Cheshire_Kat]

Hey GoingTheDistance, welcome to Bluelight.

You certainly get clean if that's truly what you want. It is indeed hard work, but very possible.

You might want to check out our Recovery Support sub forum, if you haven't already. There you'll find a place where you can discuss this with people who either have gone through what you are or are presently working on it. Either way there is no judgement and no pressure. I hope to see you posting there and finding the support you need.

 

[GoingtheDistance]

Thank you so much for your kind reply and direction. I've always hesitated to post; however, knowing about Recovery Support sub forum, made it worth it.
I've made it my mission to spend 1-3 hours/ day, on this site, to learn about myself through others.
Thanks again!

 

[Cheshire_Kat]

That's great, GTD, see you around Bluelight