Mellabopper
Bluelighter
The object of my desire,
you,
only you.
But being the pessimistic realist I am,
I try not to get my hopes up.
So every night I tell myself it won't work out.
If the theory that history repeats itself
proves true,
then I know it won't work out.
Every night I break myself down
and try to get over you.
I have to tell myself to forget about you
But it just doesn't seem to work.
I have to tell myself not to stare at your window
when I pass.
Hoping to catch a glimpse
and maybe for you to notice me.
But your eyes enrapture me.
When you're around
The only thing I want
Is you.
I can tell you won't be easy to get over.
I can tell I already want you
much more than I should.
I already know you don't feel the same way
at least not really.
I don't cross your mind on any given moment,
not like you have invaded my mind
and slowly taken over.
Soon enough
I hope I will be free
of the spell you have unknowingly cast upon me.
Soon enough
I will be alone
and fine with that,
just like I have been
for so long.
Because no object of my desire
has crossed my path in so long.
It tears me down
how much I want you to be mine.
You've awakened emotions
I thought were long since dead.
I killed them long ago as my best defense.
I didn't want to let them out
but you pulled them out with one look.
I almost forget how to deal with them
and how to kill them once again.
I can't go through any pain and hurt
like I know I will with you.
I'm destined to be hurt
and alone
and it kills me how much
I wanted you to be the one
to prove me wrong.
3-19-02
Mellabopper
you,
only you.
But being the pessimistic realist I am,
I try not to get my hopes up.
So every night I tell myself it won't work out.
If the theory that history repeats itself
proves true,
then I know it won't work out.
Every night I break myself down
and try to get over you.
I have to tell myself to forget about you
But it just doesn't seem to work.
I have to tell myself not to stare at your window
when I pass.
Hoping to catch a glimpse
and maybe for you to notice me.
But your eyes enrapture me.
When you're around
The only thing I want
Is you.
I can tell you won't be easy to get over.
I can tell I already want you
much more than I should.
I already know you don't feel the same way
at least not really.
I don't cross your mind on any given moment,
not like you have invaded my mind
and slowly taken over.
Soon enough
I hope I will be free
of the spell you have unknowingly cast upon me.
Soon enough
I will be alone
and fine with that,
just like I have been
for so long.
Because no object of my desire
has crossed my path in so long.
It tears me down
how much I want you to be mine.
You've awakened emotions
I thought were long since dead.
I killed them long ago as my best defense.
I didn't want to let them out
but you pulled them out with one look.
I almost forget how to deal with them
and how to kill them once again.
I can't go through any pain and hurt
like I know I will with you.
I'm destined to be hurt
and alone
and it kills me how much
I wanted you to be the one
to prove me wrong.
3-19-02
Mellabopper
