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My two V-Day traditions but you know what I was thinking? This cat Joey is so fucking cool and I ❤️ him SO SO much… I have never been lonely since he came into my life - OK I’m a little bit lonely missing John Prine every day for the last 3 years on April 7… Anyway back to the 🐈 Mr. Joey he’s not even a cat!! If anything, he’s a cat dog or just a dog because he growls at the 🚪 he pulls hard on a leash… He’s got more spunk and cattitude than any animal I’ve ever seen and he watches TV intently! I have him recorded watching some commercials that I’m going to have to put up on Twitter.

Hey I’d really like some fb on upping amounts but lowering the # of times per/d. I feel a very strong sense of déjà vu feeling because I think I already know the answer but I’m just checking because I really don’t remember. My memory is fucked. So what’s same. Eight a day divided by three max only before it was about. Two per times four which is every six hours so I think I’ve mostly slimmed it to 2x/d day over the last month but of course it’s 2x as strong ~~ I like it but I’m doing .4 per minimum in fact, I’m not so sure that i almost didn’t come back early this a.m. it’s not like it’d not be probably about the Best way to check out … i think of it far too much but I don’t want to leave Joey like that but he’s about the only reason because I never could have believed that one of my pets would outlive me.

And he knows something‘s wrong. He’s always watching my face - scanning it & he’s scared I can tell because he can’t really trust me bc his mother isn’t his rock anymore - the thing that makes Joey pull so hard that he mostly walks bipedally on his leash bc he knows mama is always standing right behind him. Smmfh. I thought I was teaching him to be autonomous yet silly me 4got 2hv any kids and it turns out that all I created by leashing him is a big fat pussy of a mammas boy who’s so tough so long as mama is right behind him.

He started getting scared of me which breaks my ❤️ . I know he doesn’t want to stay without me which sounds so selfish. I don’t want him to stay here sans me either - but I could never do that either. I ❤️ him so much he’s been everything to me. And now I’m crying. I don’t know why well I guess bc I’m pretty sure that’s the closest I’ve ever come last night - I woke up on my knees on top of some ✂️ or marbles or some Legos or crap but with just no memory whatsoever of ever hitting the floor.

I recall saying on here that my hope was just hoping that I would make it to the bed instead of the sleep-wake flights towards the wall seam like seems to happen povaulting from the closed toilet seat where I wake up flying across the fucking room which is kind of a trip bc I have my hands out usually or I’m headed towards the corner of the wall for a big goose egg but this time ~~ I just came to bc of the pain underneath one of my knees.

I was in a weird fucking position jammed between the cabinet and toilet ~~ head between my legs pretty much neck mashed against the wall you know all that stuff that should be fun usually since I seem to enjoy being so nihilistic. I’m being overly dramatic because I wouldn’t have woke up right? No pain could’ve awakened me if I truly was that close, right?

You all have mentioned knowing a few to check out like that. Are you left wondering if there was any thought put into it or do you know it was just an accident? I just don’t think it’s that terrible of a way to go. Then again it’s easy for me to say bc I’m facing some horrific outcome because there’s no pretty way to go. It’s not nice at all what lies ahead.

Hey I found one of my deals!! Hooray & for a few hrs now I’ve been wanting to try it again - I l got maybe 30m of sleep this time. Often I hit the ground running & never end up resting. I can even feel me waking up bc pain stops etc …not this time bc TBH everyone in my fingers and I’m trying to use to type is in business for self it hurts like a motherfucker because my fingers are all retarded facing in different directions like at the pool or something. I don’t know what’s up with that but it’s very uncomfortable. I hate these cramps. I can’t continue typing. That’s my reality it sounds pretty sad when I say it.

oH YEAH ~~ I had a container when I awoke with THAT upside down in hand. I gathered up what I could & still 6 so that’s cool since I was scraping barely by on 6/mo for a long time.

All right my other Valentine’s Day song since Talladega nights anyway which isn’t that great of a movie Ricky Bobby but you know it’s where I first heard it.

joey has heterocheomia. One 💙 and one 💛 EYE. …and He’s SO SMART Jenny!!

he’s a dog if anything. At one time I was the loneliest person ever existing as a ghost in the 🏠 with somebody else a stranger. But I had to get OK somehow with codependent/CODA no more & it happened in an instant. I couldn’t duplicate it for anything in the 🌎 because it happened the day I got my diagnosis.

~~~~~>>>> 🤎 <<<<~~~~~~

Wtf is that? More like a 💩 sammich…. Whateva! I do what I want!!!! Whateva!!!!!

 
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