now, the wigger shit is complicated. i heard guys getting called that in prison, but it seems to be something more, a need to be accepted. but me, i snuck into a bootsie collins concert
when i was seventeen, and i ain't been right since. maybe i ain't been white, since, i don't know. but i ain't black, i got a mf mirror. i have about zero use for what passes for urban black culture today (here, let the
right reverend dr. king tell y'all about it) because i lived Pfunk (last days), De La Soul, Digable Planets, etc and i know that this crap the recording companies are selling, telling kids to ... well, okay - i was on my bunk one day, and this guy walked by with headphones on, rapping to himself, 'i'm a real nigga and you can TELL, i'm a real nigga goin straight to HELL'. that shit is NOT okay. most people don't understand how much urban black culture and prison culture are linked. i'll never tell a man not to fight for what he believes in, unless he believes in gettin money and bitches and fuck all the rest. damn, i was locked up in the ATL dc for conspiracy to manufacture ecstasy when they brought in a group of kids to be 'scared straight'. every one of the kids was black, in the city of MLK, and they only message was 'obey the law, do what you're told'. i bit my lip so hard it bled.
wtf you gone do? i speak perfect, accentless, standard english, the language i used to defend my dissertation. but that's a mask i put on. see, with 'white' people, meaning bland, they accept me at first based on how i look and how i talk (sometimes) around them. only when they get to know me do they kick me to the curb. black folk might judge me at first from looks, but when i get to talkin its all cool. and hell, i'm fluent in spanish and have a mayan jaguar tattoo. and gay culture - no, that doesn't work at all. when they find out i'm a homosexual convict who doesn't do casual or anonymous sex, it's like holding a bone in front of a chained dog (idiot prison porn, like being gang raped is ever gonna be fun). and the leathermaster dudes can't handle it at all, cause i don't give respect to anyone who hasn't earned it. i don't go to gay bars anymore cause i get in fights.