iLoveYouWithaKnife
Bluelighter
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- Mar 30, 2002
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And the clock read 8.14 when I opened my eyes. Why the hell can't i just sleep? ...used to be able to sleep a good 14, 15 hours when i could...
hold off on the beer for a little bit, i thought. maybe i'll do laundry. nah, changed my mind, no reason for clean clothes... no where to go. paced around the house for a little bit. damn dog won't stop barking. guess he doesn't have anything better to do. maybe try sleeping? perhaps, he can't either.
wasting time.
crawled back in bed for a bit. turned on the tv. gosh, i love this movie!
"go sell crazy somewhere else, i'm all stocked up here."
I'm not even comfortable, pull the blankets up, turn to my side, fluff my pillows. damn these springs. they're hurting my back again.
-But as uncomfortable as i am -I just cannot bring myself to move from this.
Lady on the screen is fighting with her mom. all she wants to know is how to spell a goddamn word. and i'm trying to do is fight your imprint out of this mattress so I could get comfortable.
Con-science, conscience. yes that is how you spell it, your mom was right.
And maybe... just maybe...... this is,
"As Good As It Gets"
It's funny, you know, everyone wants to live this movie life where everything works out in the end. Take the classic chick flick for instance-
You've got the girl, who is well off, taking care of herself, but is just at this emotional breaking point because as much as she has everything in her life, she feels empty. She needs someone to fill this void. Prince Charming strays into her life, and sweeps her off her feet. An hour later, they live happily ever after.
Where's the sequel? Is the the only thing (the guy) that this gal was missing? Her feelings just stopped there, all her insecurites of being alone just went away? ...just because someone smiled at her? If so,
I want to live the movie life too. But for me, there's always something more. I always want something more. Just because you sweep me off my fucking feet doesn't mean that I am going to stop feeling lonely inside, even when you are holding me. Doesn't mean that i'm going to stop wondering what all this means-
Although I wish I could. I wish my movie ended there, happily ever after.
And really, in the sappy chick flicks, dramas, horrors, actions, comedies....
The good guy or gal always gets what they want in the end.... most of the time. Everything ends up ok. And even when it doesn't we understand why it happened and it makes sense. We say, 'it's just a movie'. But is it really?
And I was reading Words online the other night and someone had written something that caught my eye. I'm not sure of the exact quote but i give full credit to the person who wrote it. Although, i cannot recall the alias. Apologizes.
Anyway, "I am here to play the supporting role in your dreams." I thought that to be beautiful. but turn it around now.... You are here to play the supporting role in my dreams. Still not right... something missing.... okay, i got it, change the word dream to life. You are here to play the supporting role in my life. Role, movie, life... movie life is what we are living.
We are all directors- but yet i'm lacking something- something like direction.
And someone once tried to direct my movie. They tried to take it away from me- I didn't need that..... I needed that supporting role.
And I act it all- the drama, the action, the comedy, the horror. But none of it would be complete without you. You put me up on the big screen.
hold off on the beer for a little bit, i thought. maybe i'll do laundry. nah, changed my mind, no reason for clean clothes... no where to go. paced around the house for a little bit. damn dog won't stop barking. guess he doesn't have anything better to do. maybe try sleeping? perhaps, he can't either.
wasting time.
crawled back in bed for a bit. turned on the tv. gosh, i love this movie!
"go sell crazy somewhere else, i'm all stocked up here."
I'm not even comfortable, pull the blankets up, turn to my side, fluff my pillows. damn these springs. they're hurting my back again.
-But as uncomfortable as i am -I just cannot bring myself to move from this.
Lady on the screen is fighting with her mom. all she wants to know is how to spell a goddamn word. and i'm trying to do is fight your imprint out of this mattress so I could get comfortable.
Con-science, conscience. yes that is how you spell it, your mom was right.
And maybe... just maybe...... this is,
"As Good As It Gets"
It's funny, you know, everyone wants to live this movie life where everything works out in the end. Take the classic chick flick for instance-
You've got the girl, who is well off, taking care of herself, but is just at this emotional breaking point because as much as she has everything in her life, she feels empty. She needs someone to fill this void. Prince Charming strays into her life, and sweeps her off her feet. An hour later, they live happily ever after.
Where's the sequel? Is the the only thing (the guy) that this gal was missing? Her feelings just stopped there, all her insecurites of being alone just went away? ...just because someone smiled at her? If so,
I want to live the movie life too. But for me, there's always something more. I always want something more. Just because you sweep me off my fucking feet doesn't mean that I am going to stop feeling lonely inside, even when you are holding me. Doesn't mean that i'm going to stop wondering what all this means-
Although I wish I could. I wish my movie ended there, happily ever after.
And really, in the sappy chick flicks, dramas, horrors, actions, comedies....
The good guy or gal always gets what they want in the end.... most of the time. Everything ends up ok. And even when it doesn't we understand why it happened and it makes sense. We say, 'it's just a movie'. But is it really?
And I was reading Words online the other night and someone had written something that caught my eye. I'm not sure of the exact quote but i give full credit to the person who wrote it. Although, i cannot recall the alias. Apologizes.
Anyway, "I am here to play the supporting role in your dreams." I thought that to be beautiful. but turn it around now.... You are here to play the supporting role in my dreams. Still not right... something missing.... okay, i got it, change the word dream to life. You are here to play the supporting role in my life. Role, movie, life... movie life is what we are living.
We are all directors- but yet i'm lacking something- something like direction.
And someone once tried to direct my movie. They tried to take it away from me- I didn't need that..... I needed that supporting role.
And I act it all- the drama, the action, the comedy, the horror. But none of it would be complete without you. You put me up on the big screen.
