The Methamphetamine Addict - A Downward Spiral

This is a 'sort-of' poem, obviously coming from the mind of a fictional person who's getting deeper into the scene I got involved in.

It's a new style of poem for me, in that it's written all in speech (some coming from the meth user's head - some from their mouth) and I wasn't on anything at the time as I'm doing a little detox (going 3 days without using any P at all) so I'm not confident enough to stick it in 'Words', yet again!

THE METHAMPHETAMINE ADDICT - a downward spiral
'Just today I'll have a puff'
'Okay, just one more hit - I'll give up tomorrow'
'I promise I'll give up this stuff'
'Why can't I stop? It's bringing me sorrow'

'Shit, why can't I fucking stop?'
'It's not so bad - it's only a gram'
'Is there someone watching me? A cop?'
'I don't care now, don't give a damn'

'Why am I so itchy? What's that on my skin?'
'I love that crackling sound when it burns!'
'Come on mate, have a try - just one little spin'
'Hey give the pipe here - it's my fucking turn'

'Smokings not working now - I might try the rig'
'God, look at how skinny I am - I'm a fool'
'It's only a little bit, meth aint that big'
'My mates all use it - they seem to be cool'

'Is it the needle that makes my veins look all red?'
'It's not like I'm on heroin, Mum - please don't cry'
'Am I addicted? Fuck I wish I was dead'
'I only feel good now for five minutes when I'm high!'

'If I give you a fuck will you give me some P?'
'I need more - I'd better learn how to cook'
'Holy fuck I have cash again - this life is for me!'
'Wait there's someone at the door - better go have a look...'

'No sir - the chemistry set isn't mine'
'Mum why are you crying? Please dry those tears!'
'Okay I cook P - tell me sir, what's my fine?'
'Hang on - did you say jail? Why? For how many years?.....'

Tell me what you think! Bit different to my usual style but it could hit hard...

 

I like it! Yeah, it is a bit different to your usual style, but it works well. And like most of your poems, I can relate to it.

 

awww glad u like it babe

unfortunately i broke the 'P-tox' as u know.....typing here, fried out of my skull

gd news tho....wow 2 days without P even seems to lower the ol' tolerance - wait til u smoke next....

glad u think it works but then, u may b biased, darling

 

Don't worry about breaking your "P-tox" hun. There's no way I could go 2 days without P if I knew I still had some tucked away in my room, so you did really well! I tend to just keep using until the bag is empty.

 

ah well its an art u learn to work at - just keeping urself realllly busy

that and having ADHD meds helps
dexamphetamine does take away the cravings to an extent
call it a mild form of 'methamphetadone'