carrion Doll
Bluelighter
Hun please listen to all the good advice above. You gotta get help NOW. Or you are going to be me with 3 kids and 1 on the way and just getting out from under a heavy opiate addiction. I am trying to care for a toddler with no energy and no motivation and pregnant on top of it. I was young with 1 kid and settled down with a man at 21 and had 1 more by 24. But we still thought we could party here and there. Well, he is able to party on occasion for a night and put it to bed. But not me and it almost ruined our marriage. I had another kid in the interim (always stay clean during pregnancy except a very small dose of methadone prescribed. I always stayed at a much lower dose than what the doc even recommended).
But I would be alone with 3 kids and kicking has been SO tough with them. Like I said, no energy, no motivation. Sometimes, I just hate life. We are so broke because of all the money that mostly I blew on drugs. Can't give my kids the things they deserve, now have another coming. Please don't end up like me, at 34 and just starting to get clean and figure out life, getting out from under all this shit seems impossible at times...
But I would be alone with 3 kids and kicking has been SO tough with them. Like I said, no energy, no motivation. Sometimes, I just hate life. We are so broke because of all the money that mostly I blew on drugs. Can't give my kids the things they deserve, now have another coming. Please don't end up like me, at 34 and just starting to get clean and figure out life, getting out from under all this shit seems impossible at times...