Heroinnitiative
Greenlighter
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Hello bluelighters, good to be part of the forums, discussion, wisdom, knowledge, love, and compassion of this community.
Swim have for a long while now read many forums in the past few years, but then not being a member, Swim felt it very disrespectful to the community to not be registered and have access to the information sited.
Swim have for a long while now swim used many, many substances from the ages 13 to present age of 20. Swim have wondered swims way in to an insane cycle, some how swim managing to grasp a most insensible heroin addiction. Swim tried heroin at the age of 15, ROA via intravenous, but being younger and not having a solid connect that didnt last long, and as well as not having sufficient funds to support swims habit then. Swim have faced a year an intense alcohol addiction, worked swims way up to a fucking "pitcher" of jim beam daily, and even gulping down 151, you'd be amazed to see a 130lbs kid gulping down liquor and still speaking and acting straight, swim is not proud of that tolerance but it was and is what it is. Alcohol tho has many negative side effects, especially at higher doses in swims case. Back tracking to swims start with chemicals was marijuana at the age of 13. Surprisingly as well as a clouded shroom trip at 13. Swim has experienced alot and swim means consistently alot of various chemicals, nights of tripping, not of stimulants and there dreaded comedowns, powerful opiate nods, mixing many chemicals often. Swim loved smoking pot but soon after a year of or so, swim found swims self on probation, continuing to smoke pot after being put on ankle monitor for continuing use, swim found himself in the cuyahoga county detention center for 2 months. swim needed a new drug, one that is undetectable. From 13-15 swim fucked around with the courts dodging and eluding protocol only to end up defeated. Alcohol was the answer. Swim switched his addiction to alcohol which led to the year of alcohol abuse. Swim soon grew tired of alcohol's negative effects and jumped to spice but then spice got changed around so much to practically dirt and grass, or poporii or whatever sprayed with chemicals, which led to throwing spice out of the picture. Pills were then the answer. Fucking around with various chemicals daily led swims self to a year gruesome heroin addiction from 18-19, only for swim to look back on the past 7 years of being a prisoner of drugs. Somehow swim put it together and graduated highschool, swims only thing to show for is swims diploma. Swim sold his flat screen, 2 of them, his laptop, and keyboard(synthesizer) and more items to support swims heroin habit. When swim wasn't high he was terrible sick. Swim said enough was enough and 2 months ago quit heroin, having sufficient access to subs, swim switched to subs, also having an iv fetish, swim had to support that. Swims switch to subs, the first dose (2mg intravenous) particularly led to an intense fucking precipitated withdrawal, holy fuck, swim stated that it was like a bad trip, a cruel nightmare while in sleep paralysis. So swim jumped in the shower. when swim got out of the shower swim felt great, not high, but definite mood lift, and noticeable slight opiate body buzz, but just over all swim felt normal. Swim fucked himself, now swim has captured a routine of dosing subs intravenously then immediately jumping in the shower, this was swims morning wake up routine for the past 2 months. When swim got high swim didn't just sit around and stare at the wall, swim did stuff, swim wrote many lines of literature, varying from poetry, rhymes, journalism, screen writing, all serious intentions. Swim now noticed when swim was sober, swim did not have the drive and testosterone he should have and had.
Swim thought opiates were the amazing answer to his anxiety, in which swim forgot to mention swim was prescribed alprazolam for anxiety, but opiates worked the best for swim. In the end opiates just ending fucking up swims receptors and swims peace, and swims motivation, and swims sensibility. Swim has now been on subs for the past 2 months, and is growing tired of needing the subs, that are not even producing a euphoria they just keep swim from not being sick. But swim is not even physically addicted to heroin anymore, he's now physically addicted to subs. Swim grows tired of this cycle. swim has a great family, successful parents employed at nasa, great support and environment, in which swim has no answer or reason of why he was controlled by drugs, all swim knows is he wants off them, specifically subs. Swim states it is time to start swims life and love and live it. Swim is only at 2mg iv of subs, can swim switch to bucal/sublingual administration with great results, swim know the bioavailability of those ROA's are significantly less then iving. Swim only has 14mg left and does not want to go get more. Can swim taper off of subs succesfully through iving? Like persay swim dose swims normal 2mg, then next day swim does 1.5mgs, the next day does 1mg, then next day does .8mgs, then .6mgs, then .4mgs, then .2mgs, then .18mgs, then .16mgs, then .14 mgs then .12mgs then .1mgs and so on? Swim reiterates Can swim do this taper via intravenously? Swim didnt calculate if 14mgs if even enough for that taper, swim doesn't feel like doing the math, and that taper is only hypothetical, and suggestive, swim is asking, swim did not intend to suggest swims own route, or swim would not be in this situation. Swim sits here telling reciting his story, chain smoking, as swiy types for him, asking, reaching out to compassionate human beings, us beautiful creatures do not deserve to have a life wasted, there is so much nasty ness in this world, that its too fucked up for someone to be destroying there own lifes. Swim wants advice, swim asks for advice. swim will be mindful of advice given, and swim assures every letter you type in response will not go unappreciated. Swims wants to achieve a life of happiness and is tired of not having energy and being controlled by drugs. so swim jumped around alot, swim apologizes, but swims goal is to receive all and any advice given about how to successfully taper from subs, and any information on post accute withdrawals and getting back on swims feet.
Swim thanks you deeply for reading, and responding, swim wants everyone to know there worth it. and swim asks politely if members do not jump around in comments, practically starting a new thread inside of someone else's thread, be mindful of others please.
Much love,
Swim Out
Swim have for a long while now read many forums in the past few years, but then not being a member, Swim felt it very disrespectful to the community to not be registered and have access to the information sited.
Swim have for a long while now swim used many, many substances from the ages 13 to present age of 20. Swim have wondered swims way in to an insane cycle, some how swim managing to grasp a most insensible heroin addiction. Swim tried heroin at the age of 15, ROA via intravenous, but being younger and not having a solid connect that didnt last long, and as well as not having sufficient funds to support swims habit then. Swim have faced a year an intense alcohol addiction, worked swims way up to a fucking "pitcher" of jim beam daily, and even gulping down 151, you'd be amazed to see a 130lbs kid gulping down liquor and still speaking and acting straight, swim is not proud of that tolerance but it was and is what it is. Alcohol tho has many negative side effects, especially at higher doses in swims case. Back tracking to swims start with chemicals was marijuana at the age of 13. Surprisingly as well as a clouded shroom trip at 13. Swim has experienced alot and swim means consistently alot of various chemicals, nights of tripping, not of stimulants and there dreaded comedowns, powerful opiate nods, mixing many chemicals often. Swim loved smoking pot but soon after a year of or so, swim found swims self on probation, continuing to smoke pot after being put on ankle monitor for continuing use, swim found himself in the cuyahoga county detention center for 2 months. swim needed a new drug, one that is undetectable. From 13-15 swim fucked around with the courts dodging and eluding protocol only to end up defeated. Alcohol was the answer. Swim switched his addiction to alcohol which led to the year of alcohol abuse. Swim soon grew tired of alcohol's negative effects and jumped to spice but then spice got changed around so much to practically dirt and grass, or poporii or whatever sprayed with chemicals, which led to throwing spice out of the picture. Pills were then the answer. Fucking around with various chemicals daily led swims self to a year gruesome heroin addiction from 18-19, only for swim to look back on the past 7 years of being a prisoner of drugs. Somehow swim put it together and graduated highschool, swims only thing to show for is swims diploma. Swim sold his flat screen, 2 of them, his laptop, and keyboard(synthesizer) and more items to support swims heroin habit. When swim wasn't high he was terrible sick. Swim said enough was enough and 2 months ago quit heroin, having sufficient access to subs, swim switched to subs, also having an iv fetish, swim had to support that. Swims switch to subs, the first dose (2mg intravenous) particularly led to an intense fucking precipitated withdrawal, holy fuck, swim stated that it was like a bad trip, a cruel nightmare while in sleep paralysis. So swim jumped in the shower. when swim got out of the shower swim felt great, not high, but definite mood lift, and noticeable slight opiate body buzz, but just over all swim felt normal. Swim fucked himself, now swim has captured a routine of dosing subs intravenously then immediately jumping in the shower, this was swims morning wake up routine for the past 2 months. When swim got high swim didn't just sit around and stare at the wall, swim did stuff, swim wrote many lines of literature, varying from poetry, rhymes, journalism, screen writing, all serious intentions. Swim now noticed when swim was sober, swim did not have the drive and testosterone he should have and had.
Swim thought opiates were the amazing answer to his anxiety, in which swim forgot to mention swim was prescribed alprazolam for anxiety, but opiates worked the best for swim. In the end opiates just ending fucking up swims receptors and swims peace, and swims motivation, and swims sensibility. Swim has now been on subs for the past 2 months, and is growing tired of needing the subs, that are not even producing a euphoria they just keep swim from not being sick. But swim is not even physically addicted to heroin anymore, he's now physically addicted to subs. Swim grows tired of this cycle. swim has a great family, successful parents employed at nasa, great support and environment, in which swim has no answer or reason of why he was controlled by drugs, all swim knows is he wants off them, specifically subs. Swim states it is time to start swims life and love and live it. Swim is only at 2mg iv of subs, can swim switch to bucal/sublingual administration with great results, swim know the bioavailability of those ROA's are significantly less then iving. Swim only has 14mg left and does not want to go get more. Can swim taper off of subs succesfully through iving? Like persay swim dose swims normal 2mg, then next day swim does 1.5mgs, the next day does 1mg, then next day does .8mgs, then .6mgs, then .4mgs, then .2mgs, then .18mgs, then .16mgs, then .14 mgs then .12mgs then .1mgs and so on? Swim reiterates Can swim do this taper via intravenously? Swim didnt calculate if 14mgs if even enough for that taper, swim doesn't feel like doing the math, and that taper is only hypothetical, and suggestive, swim is asking, swim did not intend to suggest swims own route, or swim would not be in this situation. Swim sits here telling reciting his story, chain smoking, as swiy types for him, asking, reaching out to compassionate human beings, us beautiful creatures do not deserve to have a life wasted, there is so much nasty ness in this world, that its too fucked up for someone to be destroying there own lifes. Swim wants advice, swim asks for advice. swim will be mindful of advice given, and swim assures every letter you type in response will not go unappreciated. Swims wants to achieve a life of happiness and is tired of not having energy and being controlled by drugs. so swim jumped around alot, swim apologizes, but swims goal is to receive all and any advice given about how to successfully taper from subs, and any information on post accute withdrawals and getting back on swims feet.
Swim thanks you deeply for reading, and responding, swim wants everyone to know there worth it. and swim asks politely if members do not jump around in comments, practically starting a new thread inside of someone else's thread, be mindful of others please.
Much love,
Swim Out
