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The light at the end of the tunnel

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anawfuljunkie

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Hi. This is my first post here ever.

I was an oxycodone addict for 3 years. I was injecting it weeklyish for a while, and at least once daily(150-250mg) for another 2 years. I'm presently 6 months clean.

This is to everyone out there having trouble with opiate addiction. I want you to know there really is a light at the end of the tunnel. I never believed it, but it's true.

I destroyed everything I had, and am currently doing my best to rebuild it.

I'm clean now and I love it. It's so tempting to return to the needle, but the desire to never return to where/what I was is motivating enough to stop me.

This is me, wishing the best of luck to you out there with family/financial/friendship problems because of opiate addiction, and hoping you get through it.

Good luck, and I sincerely wish you the best.
 
Congrats, man! I can relate to realizing that the pain of using is greater than the pain of stopping being an excellent motivator to staying clean.

The needle itself is something that can be a hurdle as well. Its like we have to quit two things: the needle AND the drugs that go in it.

getting clean is a HUGE accomplishment! Congrats again!
 
that's fantastic, man!! it def helps to hear about ppl making their way out of the darkness and into light.


OverDone said:
The needle itself is something that can be a hurdle as well. Its like we have to quit two things: the needle AND the drugs that go in it.
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welcome and best of luck to you, OP.
-izzy
 
Great job on your sobriety!I too was a bad oxy user never used needles but could of probably been a heroin user/abuser if I didn't get off the 160-200mg addiction. I was soo close to the heroin life as money gets tight doing that much oxy. Thank GOD I had help with money from my family cuz if i didn't, and they cut me off I would be using Heroin. I hate when people say to parents( just cut them off don't give them any money they will get clean). soo un-true. We find a way to get the drugs we need and get into a bunch more truble with out the help. My parent knew I would get sooo sick of the drug game. They where there for me when I was using and they where there for me when I wanted to get clean. Parent stay by your children. They will come around and do the right thing.
 
That's great! I need a message of hope right now. Did you use any maintenance therapy? I just called up a few of the doctor's offices in my area (I live in smallish town) that offer suboxone treatment. The one I am hoping for has a treatment program every saturday that is not required, but it is individual, group, art therapy, and addiction counseling included in the $300 a month fee. And is 7 blocks from my house. This is the first time I have asked for help with opiate addiction, or sought out treatment, then I read your post today and it made me feel like there is hope for my sobriety. Thank you!

Edit: My heart is pounding and I am teary eyed while I type this. It doesn't feel real to admit to wanting to be sober. Is that normal!? Thank you again, I will hold your post close to my heart today.
 
Kallisti said:
That's great! I need a message of hope right now. Did you use any maintenance therapy? I just called up a few of the doctor's offices in my area (I live in smallish town) that offer suboxone treatment. The one I am hoping for has a treatment program every saturday that is not required, but it is individual, group, art therapy, and addiction counseling included in the $300 a month fee. And is 7 blocks from my house. This is the first time I have asked for help with opiate addiction, or sought out treatment, then I read your post today and it made me feel like there is hope for my sobriety. Thank you!

Edit: My heart is pounding and I am teary eyed while I type this. It doesn't feel real to admit to wanting to be sober. Is that normal!? Thank you again, I will hold your post close to my heart today.
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I don't know what I can say to you to make it easier. You have some rough times ahead of you, Quitting is a really emotional time. I was questioning my validity as a person, I felt weak because I let the drugs get on top of me. I felt like I didn't deserve to stop, and I should just throw my life away into an abyss of needles.

I can't really comment on counselling or treatment programs. I visited a couple of doctors who almost immediately shot me down saying I just needed "to stop', which lead to me using to spite them a couple of times. In the end, I used a combination of cannabis, benzos(small amounts, just for sleeping), immodium and ibuprofen to get me through it.

Reading your post is making me sad, and so thankful for where I am now.
 
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