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The Life and Times of an ED mod. Purplefirefly

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In a previous lifetime, I was a sports journalist and as such I thought it might be fun to bring our Ecstasy discussion readers a few interviews with various people that may provide some interest for you.

First up is someone who has become a great steadying influence on my own life and also someone who has continued with her quest to help reduce the damage that drugs can do by stepping up to become a senior Moderator here at Bluelight.

This lady began her Bluelight career as a simple greenlighter back in July of 2006 before being selected to moderate Ecstasy Discussion in April 2007 and then moving up to the Smod position late last year.

I remember when she first applied for the moderator position that she was even worse than me in terms of pushing harm reduction. I guess it rubbed off........lol.

Without any further ado, I give you the one, the only, Purplefirefly.

Cue the applause.........lol.




Purple, Can you provide us with a bit of your background and also something i have been wondering for some time now.......Whats the story behind how you arrived here at Bluelight?
 
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Let's see where to start...

I'm a 25 year old, happily married (going on almost 4 years now), biker chick. No children (yet? :)) and I've lived in various parts of New England my entire life. I couldn't imagine living anywhere else, I think I live in one of the most beautiful places on earth (especially in the fall).

I've been getting sort of serious about motorcycling. I've done several large group rides, including a charity ride last fall that included a couple thousand other bikes. I have a Suzuki Volusia and it's the most comfortable bike I have ever been on. I already have some weekend rides planned for this summer with a group that I am apart of.

Now onto my drug history. Before I turned 18 the only drug that I have ever tried was alcohol. I didn't smoke weed until after I had graduated from high school. One of my friends had a joint and we were with our other friend, so the three of us lit up. I took a couple of hits and starting coughing uncontrollably. I thought I was going to become ill, but on the upside, I got the best nights sleep ever.

When I started dating my husband he was sort of my "bad influence" so to speak, although I never did anything that I didn't want to. I tried ecstasy for the first time back in 2003. It was an amazing experiencing. Sonic and I had a great time. :) I just remember feeling so giggly and happy, it took me a long time to be able to describe the experience, it's still sort of hard to describe.

And so I just sort of went along, started trying different things. I've never had an addictive personality so I never had an issue trying various painkillers or benzos. In fact it took me a long time to develop any time of appreciation for them on a recreational level because at first they would just put me to sleep. I still don't see much recreational value to benzos (for myself anyway) but I do like to nod out on opiates every one in awhile now.

I've done various psychedelics and other categories of drugs as well. Mdma still remains my first and favorite though, even after all these years.

So how did I end up here? Well, sonic has been part of the community for quite some time. It took me a long time to catch on with what is going on here and to decide that this is a community that I should be a part of. I became a member back in July of 2006 after attending a party in which other blers were in attendance and that sort of sealed the deal. I had always had this preconceived notion that drugs were for low life's so to speak, because those are the only types of people that I ever saw doing drugs. At this party I met some people who absolutely destroyed this stereotype and they were all part of this board. I became more interested and decided to join.

And that leaves me where I am today. I became a mod in March of 2007 and then in November 2008 I was promoted to senior mod. I enjoy helping people and being part of this community, I want more people to see that just because you use drugs doesn't mean that you are irresponsible or incapable of functioning in society. Drugs do not inherently makes you a bad person, you make your own choices.
 
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For those of you who were not aware, Sonic is Purples husband and is also a Senior moderator here at Bluelight.

Having arrived here at bluelight, what were some of the surprising facts you learnt during those first few days?
 
Well, I had been on Bluelight before, I never really browsed around though, but sonic would always show me different posts and have me read different things.

As far as facts that I learned off the bat, it's really hard to say, I've learned quite a bit though since I have been here, and not just about mdma, but lots of other drugs as well.

I think it's interesting to learn about how the different chemicals work on your brain and what makes the different drugs work differently in your body because of how they alter your neurochemistry.
 
Indeed, it is most interesting, in fact I have often wished that i had become a neuro-scientist such is the magnitude of wonderment I have for the way the brain can have its functions altered in such amazing ways.

Over the years that i have known Purple, one thing has always stood out, and that's her unquestioned desire to help with the harm reduction cause.

I imagine it was that harm minimisation concept that drove you to become a moderator purple?
 
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sonic has always been a strong advocate of harm reduction so his principals sort of rubbed off on me. The more drugs I did and the more I listened to my body, I began to realize even more from a personal standpoint at how important it is to practice as well as preach harm reduction. I've learned quite a bit about myself, for example, I know now that I cannot make a whole weekend out of partying. As much fun as it is as the time, I know that for the next several days (maybe even longer) I am going to be a psychological mess and I already have a lot of stress in my life due to family and work related issues. It's just not a good idea for me to get into any sort of abuse pattern, I know myself too well, and I listen to myself.

I just think that it's so important for people to understand what they are putting in their bodies and just because you don't feel any damage, doesn't mean that something isn't happening. I've seen too many people just get in over their heads with all sorts of drugs (alcohol being at the top of the list) and they are just basically wasting their lives away. No goals, no ambition, just get to the next beer or get to the next line. It's a sad way to live.
 
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There is some excellent advice there Purple.

Many posters out there may not have noticed but towards the end of last year, our very own purplefirefly was elevated to the lofty heights of Senior moderator. Affectionately known as Smods.

Purple, how has this changed your role as an ED mod and what extra duties is a smod involved in?
 
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I don't think that it's really changed my role as an ED mod, I still try to help in ED as much as possible and keep posting so that I can do my part to help the posters of the forum. Really the only difference in my role now is that I have some extra abilities that I didn't have before. For example, I can ban someone if due diligence has been completed or if the person happens to be a spammer. I also have the ability to check IP's.

As far as other forums are concerned, I now have the opportunity help out the other forums from a senior moderator level. I can help the mods with concerns they have, or maybe offer a different perspective. I can also be a point person for posters to go to if they have an issue that they would not rather discuss with the mods.

Case in point, I'm really still the same ol' purplefirefly that you've all come to know and love. =D
 
I know that you are very keen on the idea of legalising mdma.

Do you think this could ever happen and what do you think the future holds for mdma?
 
I'm an advocate of the legalization of all drugs, I'm definitely not limited to mdma. I think that the "war on drugs" does absolutely nothing to promote or enforce harm reduction or safety among people, if anything, it harms people due to non existent regulation. Legalization would alleviate a lot of people becoming hurt or worse as there would no longer be a question of dose or purity.

With that said, I try to stay optimistic, I would love to see mdma legalized. If it can't be made legal for all then I would settle for therapists being able to use the drug to treat people with post traumatic stress syndrome for example. I think that some people would benefit greatly from the treatment.

I'm not sure if I will see mdma legalized in my lifetime, but it seems that there are several organizations (MAPS for example) that are making great strides in getting there and providing accurate information about the drug so that people can become more informed.

I'm always hopeful. :)
 
Purple, lets take a look at your own ecstasy use........... Can you remember your best ever experience? can you describe it?

Have you ever tried missions while on mdma? If so, describe one.

And describe your ultimate dream for an evening with mdma. What would make it perfect.
 
I think that my one of my best times was the first time that I ever took mdma. The set and setting were just perfect and I had such a great time. The first time I ever rolled was back in 2003 and it was just my husband and I. I had never experienced anything like it in my entire life, it was pretty indescribable to say the least. It still sort of is. :) It was nice to just be able to chill with someone who knew what to expect and knew what they were doing to create an amazing mood. It's also pretty awesome to be around someone that you love and care about, I think it makes the experience much more meaningful.

I've never really tried any missions per se while under the influence, but I did have an interesting time with a friend of mine. She had never rolled before so we decided to go for a little walk (just the two of us, we left our guys back in her apartment) and as we were walking around the complex where she lived we decided to throw some pebbles at a window in her apartment to try to be funny. When as we are walking up to the building we see something moving around, we get closer and find out that it's a skunk!! She was like "Awww lets go pet it!" and I'm like "Let's get the hell out of here" At least it makes for a good story. :)

My perfect mdma experience is pretty simple. It could just be my husband and I, or it could be with friends. I just like to be in a very chill environment, I don't like to deal with any drama or anxiety, I just want to be able to relax. I want to listen to some great music and I just want to be able to sit and talk. I'm pretty easy to please. :)

Actually, that leads me to another sort of good story. While candy flipping, sonic, our friend, and I went and sat out on my deck in the middle of the night and just talked and listened to the peepers. We tried to imagine what they were talking about. LOL That was a pretty great night. :)
 
haha I think that the idea of someone wanting to pat a skunk while under the influence of mdma, in many ways sums up just how good mdma can be. Thats hilarious.

Purple, many people tell me that i really should try candy flipping (Using Acid and mdma). Can you walk us through a typical, if there is such a thing, experience? How is it different and what makes it so special?
 
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The skunk incident is definitely unforgettable. :)

I've candy flipped twice so far, the first time really wasn't mind blowing as I had spent a weekend partying and I was pretty much spent when I took this combination. I hardly even tripped at all.

The second time was much different. I took some lsd with a friend of mine. I took two really strong tabs of acid. I was tripping quite hard, I was having crazy introspective thoughts and very vivid and wild visuals. I was just sitting on the couch not really saying anything and just trying to take it all in. About 4 hours or so into the wild acid trip we decided to take some mdma (about 100 mg or so). It was strange because I expected the mdma to make the acid feel even stronger and more insane but it actually mellowed out the experience for me.

The mdma definitely gave the lsd a much softer feel and the trip became even more positive than it was before. I also felt like I could focus more and I could actually begin to engage in conversation again rather than just being in my own little world. It was a really nice trip. The night ended with doing a bit of ketamine. I had one of the best k hole experiences that I have ever had. Everything was just so positive from the push of the mdma.

I would recommend candy flipping to anyone who has experience with both drugs. It's truly a special combination.
 
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OK lets finish off with a few quickies........

1. Home or rave?

2. Naked or Clothed?

3. Best combo?

4. Favourite method of administration?

5. One day i want to..........?

6. I will never ever...............?

7. How much longer would you expect to use mdma?

8. You are invited to a Michael Alig party. Would you go?

9. Lets assume you did go....what would you wear?

10. Most important bit of advice you would offer newcomers.
 
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1. Home or rave?
I would have to say definitely at home. While raves can be amazing and fun, they just don't offer the same comforts that home does. I don't have to wait in line to go to the bathroom, I don't have to pay $5 for a water. I can just be free in my own home.

2. Naked or Clothed?
Clothed for sure. I'm way to self concious (even on mdma) to do the whole naked thing.

3. Best combo?
My best trip ever was from doing a cocktail of 4-acO-dmt and mdma. I have a trip report out there if others are interested in reading it. It was just one of the most wild trips I have ever been on. There aren't enough words to do it justice.

4. Favourite method of administration?
Oral administration for sure. I like to take a capsule that way I don't have to taste anything. My stomach is getting more and more sensitive as I age (sometimes I think it's because of all of the horrible tasting drugs that I have taken). I made the mistake of chewing a pill one time and I almost threw it right back up.

5. One day i want to..........?
Hmm...this one is hard. One day I want to see mdma regulated and legalized (among other drugs). As stated before, I think that prohibition does nothing to help people, it can only hurt them.

6. I will never ever...............?
I will never ever get into a pattern of abuse when it comes to drugs and this really isn't limited to mdma. I don't ever want to find myself in a position where I can't seem to say "no" to the drug so to speak. I like the freedom of being able to do the drugs, I don't want them to start doing me.

7. How much longer would you expect to use mdma?
I expect to use mdma for as long as my health and the quality of the substance prevails. If it means that I continue using in my later years in life then so be it, if not, then I don't. To be honest though, I think I will definitely feel some sort of loss if there ever comes a day when I can't use mdma anymore.

8. You are invited to a Michael Alig party. Would you go?
He's a little crazy but if given the opportunity I would probably go. I mean, he's got his own movie for heavens sake ;)

9. Lets assume you did go....what would you wear?
I would wear whatever is comfortable to me. I've never really gotten into the whole "rave gear" scene, I am just me. I might wear my rolling shirt though. :)

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10. Most important bit of advice you would offer newcomers.
My most important piece of advice covers several aspects. The first part is know your body and know your limits, don't ever try to live up to any ones expectations, they don't have to live with the consequences of your actions, only you do. Also, watch your usage and learn as much as you can, drugs aren't safe, and most drug usage comes with a cost. Don't ever think for a second that you are immune from harm, that's a dangerous mentality to hold.
 
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Some excellent advice Purple.

So that gives you a little bit of an insight into the amazing Purplefirefly. One of our fantastic mods here at ecstasy discussion.

If anyone would like any clarifications or would like to ask purple any questions then please feel free to do so.
 
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You guys should definitely arrange for more of these interviews to be done. I loved it, one of my favorite threads I've come across! One thing I have to say about the whole naked/clothed thing is naked+fuzzy blanket = win!
 
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