~the last few days...~

[neverwas]

this is something i wrote over the last few days. i dont expect anyone to understand it, nor do i want anyone to feel guilty about it. its not about one person its about a number of things.

im very lost right now.
things have changed
not for the good.

my mind is full of emotions that shouldnt be there.
last night
i longed for you,
and i looked,

you werent there.

you dont want to be.

i cried for days.
you didnt see,
i asked for you
everyone heard.

i dont understand
why things have gone
the way they've gone.
why suddenly when im around,

the other way your mind turns.

your look has gone.
i stare at a blank face.
where use to be desire,
now
boredom,
normailty.
lack of interest
are there replaced.

its hard not to take it personally.
when the once loved and craved
is not anymore.

its hard not to hate you for your selfishness.
should i just walk away?
hide behind a closed door.
a fake smile?

can we get through this?
still be really good friends?
yes
but it will take some time.

for me re-adjust.
to accept,

now i cant love you
like i use to.
the desire has been taken from me.

its probably my fault.
for not seeing things.

its hard,
when your heart is blind.

i guess in time
it wont hurt so much.

the feeling of 'love"
will subside.
i will move on
just like you have...

and i wont feel like
yesterdays trash.

 

[Dastrix Slogan]

*hugs*

Hope everything goes better for you

 

[RareForm]

its hard not to hate you for your selfishness.
should i just walk away?
hide behind a closed door.
a fake smile?

my favorite part. i too hope things progress for you.

 

[frostyangel]

long time no speak... miss you dearly...

You know I'm always here for you if you need me

 

[Suki_Nova]

Hope you're feeling happier soon

 

[neverwas]

i like re-reading old things

 

[kazza_baby]

wow.. good work babe.
i love the movement of this piece, and i can definately relate.
hope you're feeling happier these days.

much love