gingerbaker
Bluelighter
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- Dec 3, 2013
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First of all, kava does NOT "suck shit" if you're doing it right which it doesn't sound like you are. Order real root from a good vendor and work through the reverse tolerance and I can guarantee you that you will find the best non-addictive substance (even less psychological dependence than MJ, and literally zero withdrawal of ANY kind).I'd really like to try this but I am shitting myself at the thought of 'physical addiction'. All my drugs of choice in the past have just been psychologically addictive...dopamine stims being my particular groove.
I definitely don't have a track record for being addicted to stuff but this sounds like it could be easy to make a habit of. ie at least with coke it was prohibitively expensive and illegal etc. I don't need outside forces rather than exercising willpower but I am very pessimistic and always thinking of worst case scenarios, but likewise the life of sobriety is also driving me insane; feels like a double bind, fucked either way.
Nowadays I find any sort of comedown intolerable so have had to put stims on the shelf.
It seems that physical addiction is characteristic of downers...nearly all/all of them have it don't they. ghb, phenibut, benzoes, opiates, alcohol. Why is it that downers are physically addictive but uppers arent even the strongest ones? Or is it more a case that all drugs are but you just can't take uppers long enough in a run for them to cause the same levels of physical addiction which downers do?
I seem to have a very paranoid disposition and so even if a downer chills me out for the duration Im on it I worry that each time I take it Id be creeping closer and closer to physical addiction. Is it like having a stim comedown but lasting much much longer? If that is the case then it defeats the object of me wanting to take downers. Ive had benzoes before but I didnt enjoy the feeling, only used them for sleep once or twice after stims so no worry of getting addicted to them. I am scared that if I like kratom each time I take it Ill just be further reinforcing a bad habit and pushing myself closer to dreaded physical addiction. Is this a realistic fear?
It sucks cos Im really gagging for a new drug of choice and the non addictive alternatives I know of really suck shit- kanna- yaaaawn booooring serotonin dump, weed- nono for my already highly strung personality, kava kava- only lasts like 15 minutes and don't really like the 'stoning' effect prefer clear headed highs. Ppl give me the stupid empty phrase that I should get a hobby or go running. I tried that junk it doesnt cut it! don't give me that shit! and dont you dare give me the 'get therapy' line! I'm not paying 100 dollars an hour just to have my ego stroked! thats what a good stimulant is for and does it way better!
That being said, Kratom withdrawal is very mild compared to real opioids if used reasonably. I would recommend kava over kratom if you are concerned with withdrawal, and hell, there are even somewhat "upper"-like kava strains (Hawaiian strains, Solomon's Island, CO2 extract, Fijian Waka from certain vendors, among others). If you don't want as much of a sedative effect (if those give you too much "stony" feeling), then try kratom because that will definitely have more of the effect you're after (again, depending on the strain).