thank you, pegasus and nib! a couple of more questions- what's the difference of the stim effect and the downer effect in terms of dosage? Like would taking just a few grams likely give me the stim effect I've heard of in reference to kratom? (I don't want that, lol) Also, what's the best way to store kratom? Should I put it in the fridge or is the preferable, lockable dresser drawer ok? And should I mix it w/ OJ or try a tea? I was thinking a tea would weaken the effect? I throw up easily, so parachuting may not be the best for me.
And I
have been tapering.

Significantly so too... The last few days I haven't even touched one of my 100mcg/h patches! Just half of one 50mcg/h patch twice a day buccal, and a few roxy's on top of that. I don't feel great but I can manage, I think. I'm in
ALOT of pain though

. I
do legitamately NEED my pain meds for pain. I'm thinking tomorrow I'll start to cut the 50 patches in thirds instead of halves, and nix the roxy, just try going down to my perc 10s (yuck). But in 3 or 4 days all I'll have is my 100 patches and they're so damn tempting, thats why I haven't even opened the boxes yet.8)
But, I am serious about quitting. I need my head straight for school, this is a big step for me, a lot of responsibility, and I don't want to be on this shit forever. My insurance (the insurance that pays for the visits,
not the insurance that pays for the meds) will run out in a few months, and I would rather deal with all the withdrawls now rather than when I have homework to do, and 40 hours a week in a classroom, feeling like a piece of withering dung in the summer heat!!! You know what I mean? Right now, I'm just doing 15 hours of online classes, and an internship (plus taking care of my family) and in January I'll have to do all that PLUS the 40 hours a week of school and homework so I'll need like 36 hours in a day, which is not easy, let alone when your in the bathroom every 5 minutes and throwing your body around at night instead of sleeping, and feeling like you want to bite a bullet.... So I'm trying to be responisble and make the transition easier, so that I can function.
Anyways like I said I wanna start the kratom soon. I'm gonna get my doctor to prescribe me subs next month @ my next visit, but my plan is to have him think I'm still on the high doses of all those opiates, so he'll give me more than I need, and I can stock up before I gotta come up with

$200 for doctor visits (which I can't do) so that way I'll have enough to completely taper off before I'm cut off and fucked cause I still gotta play the societal student and continue to be the loving and nurturing parent that I am. I'm scared not to do it this way. I really am. Hell, I'm scared to even do it this way cause I'm so sick, and its by choice cause it aint like I don't have the meds 10 feet away from me right at this very moment...So I just thought I'd try doing this the way that made sense...
Back to the point, if you could PLEASE answer those few more questions that I have, I'd be eternally grateful! Thank you again Pegasus and Nib! Pretty please answer the other Q's if you have the A's!!!!!!!!!

miss h