junglejuice
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The JULY sobriety thread
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xburtonchic
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An opiate-like drug for cig withdrawal? Really? I've never heard of that before, that's kind of cool if it actually works.
Slinky1119
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3 weeks clean for me!!! Attending NA and CR helps a lot. I went to suboxone for oxymorphone withdrawl over a year ago, cut out the soma and thought I was OKAY with just 2 mgs Klonopin 3x daily... boy was I WRONG! Added alcohol in any form to achieve "desired effects" and got in trouble at work... good thing is it forced me to evaluate my addiction. Came clean with my employers and got a second chance at work! The benzo withdrawal is far worse than quitting the subs cold turkey... jittery, anxious feeling, constant headache for 3 weeks... but knowing it's only temporary (finding through researching that it can last MONTHS) I figure I can get through it with my support groups. Been able to sleep with the help of 100 mgs of benedryl, thank God. Sooooo nice to have a clear head... I'm gonna keep up the good work... if I can do it, y'all can too!!! 
xburtonchic
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Congrats on 3 weeks 
Especially cuz benzo's are no joke... been there done that. A billion times worse than heroin or Suboxone withdrawals, and constantly worrying if you're about to have a random seizure doesn't help matters either. If you're 3 weeks in, you're probably good on that though lol... and if you're quitting alcohol at the same time, I'm even more impressed. I just hope that if that's the case, you're doing it under some sort of medical supervision? Cuz quitting those two things together even WITH tapering is dangerous as fuck.
Especially cuz benzo's are no joke... been there done that. A billion times worse than heroin or Suboxone withdrawals, and constantly worrying if you're about to have a random seizure doesn't help matters either. If you're 3 weeks in, you're probably good on that though lol... and if you're quitting alcohol at the same time, I'm even more impressed. I just hope that if that's the case, you're doing it under some sort of medical supervision? Cuz quitting those two things together even WITH tapering is dangerous as fuck.
SineWaveSoldier
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In 5 minutes all of us on the east coast will have another day.
stardust.hero
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I feel like I'm running on a treadmill.
Hey.. are you sure your not pushing yourself too hard too early.. ad. I'm a little woried.. how are you today... also pay attention to when its the hardest... if its always during the busy week.. consider making a few adjustments... lov ya ad lib!
caseface99
Bluelight Crew
^^ Just remember that using will only make it worse ad lib..
The longer you go without using, the less your neurological pathways for craving fire off - But they never go away, they just become less active. So if you use even ONCE - they go back to firing off like you never had any clean time at all.
It will pass, we love you! Stay strong.
The longer you go without using, the less your neurological pathways for craving fire off - But they never go away, they just become less active. So if you use even ONCE - they go back to firing off like you never had any clean time at all.
It will pass, we love you! Stay strong.
Congrats!!! Benzos are uselessly addictive..........I, too, am glad to be off them.....really didn't do much except make me plan my day around the next dose..............Today is 1 year, 6 months and 29 days off benzos and alcohol..........................thank f**in god!!!
ad lib
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^^ Just remember that using will only make it worse ad lib..
The longer you go without using, the less your neurological pathways for craving fire off - But they never go away, they just become less active. So if you use even ONCE - they go back to firing off like you never had any clean time at all.
It will pass, we love you! Stay strong.
Thank you! I'm still going strong even though its been a hell of a struggle toward the end of this month. I can't be weak. I have to be strong. I'd let not only others but especially myself down if I relapsed.
Congrats!! Benzos are my next substance I am going to tackle. My issue with them is that they help me deal with my opiate cravings so I'm anxious about getting off them.
How did you get off them? What type did you use/for how long?
well I did a little experiment and cut the caffeine since eleven am on friday.. just wanted to see if i was dependent.. so far it has just facilitated some good make up sleep and no withdrawal symptoms other than being a little less wired through out the day and thus being more relaxed and lazy.. I wont be indulging until tomorrow morning and really really hope i dont wake up with the dreaded caffeine headache I have heard talked about.. anyway a really good weekend for me.. I hope you all had the same
.. I hope you all had the same
GenericName12
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I feel like I'm finally getting better. Slowly, but it's coming, I can feel it.
I'm in the best shape of my life, my relationship that I somehow didn't lose due to my addiction is improving, and I just feel good all-round. I still get the cravings, I still get the urges, but right now it's honestly like I feel like while I NEED it, I don't WANT it. Or something like that. Sometimes I want it. Sometimes I don't. My brain always feels like it needs it, and something is missing, but I've accepted that and I expect that to go away eventually.
I never thought I would be here. My life has changed so drastically it's unbelievable. A month ago I said to myself, "What is the point of living without drugs or alcohol?" I wasn't suicidal, I was just so close to a relapse so many times.
Even though I'm still crying a lot of days I'm generally happy. I never used to cry. Maybe once a year. I have my bad moments, my bad hours, my bad half days, but it isn't 24/7 like it used to. I never thought this day would come. Every day is still tough but as long as I keep my guard up I know I can do this. I've started to accept this life and it's something I think I can do. Every day I push forward.
I'm just really shocked I'm here right now. Gotta keep this going. I can do this.
I'm in the best shape of my life, my relationship that I somehow didn't lose due to my addiction is improving, and I just feel good all-round. I still get the cravings, I still get the urges, but right now it's honestly like I feel like while I NEED it, I don't WANT it. Or something like that. Sometimes I want it. Sometimes I don't. My brain always feels like it needs it, and something is missing, but I've accepted that and I expect that to go away eventually.
I never thought I would be here. My life has changed so drastically it's unbelievable. A month ago I said to myself, "What is the point of living without drugs or alcohol?" I wasn't suicidal, I was just so close to a relapse so many times.
Even though I'm still crying a lot of days I'm generally happy. I never used to cry. Maybe once a year. I have my bad moments, my bad hours, my bad half days, but it isn't 24/7 like it used to. I never thought this day would come. Every day is still tough but as long as I keep my guard up I know I can do this. I've started to accept this life and it's something I think I can do. Every day I push forward.
I'm just really shocked I'm here right now. Gotta keep this going. I can do this.
stardust.hero
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Generic How long have you been sober? That is such a lovely inspirational post. Thank you
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caseface99
Bluelight Crew
Keep it up Generic!
If I may ask, what's you're recovery program, if any? Do you attend meetings/support groups? Self will?
I'm just always interested to see how people are getting, and staying sober.
Congrats, and keep it up. It only gets better.
If I may ask, what's you're recovery program, if any? Do you attend meetings/support groups? Self will?
I'm just always interested to see how people are getting, and staying sober.
Congrats, and keep it up. It only gets better.
Just A Guy
Bluelight Crew
Hi, everyone.
I've got my ticket to good health and sobriety here, and am glad to be able to do this with you all. Cheers!
My quick little intro of the who what where when and why:
Generic -- glad to read your positive post! Keep it up!
I've got my ticket to good health and sobriety here, and am glad to be able to do this with you all. Cheers!
My quick little intro of the who what where when and why:
-- just need to figure out the how. lol
Generic -- glad to read your positive post! Keep it up!
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stardust.hero
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Another day begins.
GenericName12
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I'm almost 2 months clean, well, I had one slip up 1 month ago that turned out to be a great learning experience, but nothing since then, so I'm not really sure. Technically I'm only 1 month sober, but yeah. I'm bad with dates.. now that I think more closely I had that thought about not wanting to live life without drugs or alcohol maybe 2 weeks ago.
Two things really helped me psychologically.
1) Accepting that my recovery was not going to be the same as others. I've read stories about other addicts who have reached this stage 2 weeks in, I've read stories about other addicts never reaching it. I was so worried that my "recovery" was never going to happen because of all the other stories I had read. It just didn't click. I was like, "Why don't I feel this way after a month when they are starting to feel ok?" It took me 2 months to START to feel better. For some others it may take longer but it will happen eventually and I know how frustrating it is to be 50ish days in and feel just as bad or worse as you did on day 7. I can't imagine what its like to be 100 days in and feel just as bad as day 7 but I'm sure there are many people out there like that.
2) Changing my life. What's the point in being clean if I'm not going to improve my life as a result? It was so goddamn hard to get out of bed some of those days and get out into the world but I did. I used to be a lifeguard and swim a lot as a teen so I've been getting back into swimming and the exercise has been great for my body and mind. I tried to do something I would have never done while using. I think this was very important.
I attended meetings for a while, but I didn't stick with it. I found them helpful because it was nice to be around others who knew exactly what I was going through and how I felt. While I don't think willpower is enough to remain sober, I guess I just chose a different route. I've done a lot of reading both on here and other literature.
Every day is still hard and every day is still a challenge to remain sober. I'm nowhere in the clear yet but I feel like the process has started. I don't mean to sound like I'm cured or anything because it's still brutal and still hard. I can't get too cocky either. I will probably end up back at meetings if I hit a wall in my progress.
Two things really helped me psychologically.
1) Accepting that my recovery was not going to be the same as others. I've read stories about other addicts who have reached this stage 2 weeks in, I've read stories about other addicts never reaching it. I was so worried that my "recovery" was never going to happen because of all the other stories I had read. It just didn't click. I was like, "Why don't I feel this way after a month when they are starting to feel ok?" It took me 2 months to START to feel better. For some others it may take longer but it will happen eventually and I know how frustrating it is to be 50ish days in and feel just as bad or worse as you did on day 7. I can't imagine what its like to be 100 days in and feel just as bad as day 7 but I'm sure there are many people out there like that.
2) Changing my life. What's the point in being clean if I'm not going to improve my life as a result? It was so goddamn hard to get out of bed some of those days and get out into the world but I did. I used to be a lifeguard and swim a lot as a teen so I've been getting back into swimming and the exercise has been great for my body and mind. I tried to do something I would have never done while using. I think this was very important.
I attended meetings for a while, but I didn't stick with it. I found them helpful because it was nice to be around others who knew exactly what I was going through and how I felt. While I don't think willpower is enough to remain sober, I guess I just chose a different route. I've done a lot of reading both on here and other literature.
Every day is still hard and every day is still a challenge to remain sober. I'm nowhere in the clear yet but I feel like the process has started. I don't mean to sound like I'm cured or anything because it's still brutal and still hard. I can't get too cocky either. I will probably end up back at meetings if I hit a wall in my progress.
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