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The I'm Fucked Megathread: Running out in limbo land

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I stopped because I passed out (& ran out of B2, barr a line)... I think it's time I knocked drugs on the head for a bit; these past couple of months it's become very apparent I'm beginning to lose any self control, & when you have a family history of H abuse, it's something I feel I need to keep hold of.

Woke up with a pretty nifty comedowm too, sat eating a kiwi in the living room crying for nothing watching an Australian fishing program... Lol. Then I raged at one of my best mates and made her cry because she asked what the fuck was going on. I always said I'd give it up if it started interfering with my friends, social life & studies; I guess this is the time.

Those hallucinations though... They were something else! As time went on, the 'hobo in the clothes' ceased to exist, just the crocodile hand remained, which kept gesturing me to come to it with it's open hand (you know like in horror films where the demon is trying to take a child or something). I was dying to walk over to it and grab it, but I knew it wasn't even happening... Then it appeared to have a kitten, and snapped its neck, so the kitten was staring at me with its back turned. Walls, doors and windows were forever falling away, I could see 'time' - looked like oil on water, only going really fast through everything, I got quad vision - I could see regular double vision, then there was an extra offset to the left in which everything was yellow, and then one that went upwards where everything was cyan.
 
VAC said:
I got quad vision - I could see regular double vision, then there was an extra offset to the left in which everything was yellow, and then one that went upwards where everything was cyan.
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fuckin ell sounds like a stroke mate.

Glad you're gettin over it anyway, the more i hear about B2 the worse it sounds.
 
Woke up with a pretty nifty comedowm too, sat eating a kiwi in the living room crying for nothing watching an Australian fishing program... Lol.
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That is the sort of situation I find myself in after a heafty stim sesh, head just utterly roasted. Totally empty.

VAC you seem a good lad but honestly mate I really have CAINED stims in the past and never have I had psychosis like that. Not even after weeks of caining meph and mdpv daily, or even on 5 days awake on pv, yes I was hearing people whisper my name in the wind. And couldn't go to the toilet in fear people were watching me, but never have I seen things crawling under my skin man. Worse still see when psychosis gets bad, next time you use it will be worse! It gets progressively worse til you either stop, or end up with permanant psychosis. Stay safe man <3
 
that sounds like some seriously hell-ish horrific twisted head bending stuff to see, fuck that
 
Years ago in the grip of speed psychosis, but unaware that's what it was, I actually dug into my scalp with a blade to remove a transmitter...it turned out not to be a transmitter but a kind of robotic insect made of some metal I'd never seen before. I kept it in a drug baggy and showed a few people. They thought it was a scab, and looked at me funny. But I knew the truth!

Still have a nasty scar on the top of my head from that episode.
 
^ Hahahaha =D no wonder you don't take speed anymore! What an utter pleb :D

My worst one was at a festival absolute spannered on too much meph and MDMA. Went to pee down by the fence and neither me or my mate could go. I thought everyone was looking at my dick when I was trying to pee and they knew I was on drugs cos it was so shriveled, then the security guard would know and search me (I had a quarter of MDMA on me). Then I started hearing them all whispering about me in the wind. I quickly pulled my hood up and scuttled back to our tents tail between legs :D
 
smoked a doobie for the first time in 6 months, for some weird reason i feel really motivated instead of mongy stoned, first time ive ever felt quite like this from weed. not a huge fan of cannabis but im kean on this feeling. feels quite focused as well, usally my thoughts get scatty when stoned
 
Another bad one was after 4 of us were heavy on the meph one night wandering round town me and my mate thought shadows with knifes were chasing us. Started all running back to mates house through the woods, that was pretty scary.

I'm fooked now like. Did 125mg of that ODT all bombed since 5.30pm, feeling nice euphoric opiate kinda rush now. Pretty lush. Also having a couple fosters. Still no nod which is kinda good as I'm actually getting to enjoy the euphoria :)

Possible DMT day tomorrow. May have some k aswell if I'm lucky! Could be trying that combo sooner than had planned =D
 
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VAC you seem a good lad but honestly mate I really have CAINED stims in the past and never have I had psychosis like that. Not even after weeks of caining meph and mdpv daily, or even on 5 days awake on pv, yes I was hearing people whisper my name in the wind. And couldn't go to the toilet in fear people were watching me, but never have I seen things crawling under my skin man. Worse still see when psychosis gets bad, next time you use it will be worse! It gets progressively worse til you either stop, or end up with permanant psychosis. Stay safe man <3
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I've never had anything like it before either, & it's not like I did that much - maybe 7g in just over 2 weeks; I wasn't allowing my body to properly sort itself out though. I was going 2/3 days, feel like shit for 2 days, get back on it, etc, wasn't eating right, wasn't socialising, wasn't leaving the house. I think the one time I did was to go buy some kiwis (wait for my kiwi psychosis story in the near future) and on the way there I had tears streaming down my face planning my own suicide, which friends I'd go see, telling them I'm leaving the country for a few years - I DON'T EVEN WANT TO KILL MYSELF, WTF?!

ColtDan said:
that sounds like some seriously hell-ish horrific twisted head bending stuff to see, fuck that
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I think it's more the fact I let it get that far, that scares me of myself. The hallucinations were fucked, but I knew they ween't real, so I was just literally sat there looking at black worms and other creepy-crawlies crawling through my hands, arms, cock, balls, legs thinking "wtf...". I think the only reason I was so OK with it was because ever since the "BOY DOES DEADLY MEPHEDRONE, RIPS OFF OWN TESTICLES BECAUSE MIND INSECTS WERE EATING THEM" story was flying around, I was like "right, you ever see anything like this, be cool, if it's still there when you wake up, dip 'em in bleach".

Mailmonkey said:
Years ago in the grip of speed psychosis, but unaware that's what it was, I actually dug into my scalp with a blade to remove a transmitter...it turned out not to be a transmitter but a kind of robotic insect made of some metal I'd never seen before. I kept it in a drug baggy and showed a few people. They thought it was a scab, and looked at me funny. But I knew the truth!

Still have a nasty scar on the top of my head from that episode.
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That sounds awful, and thank fuck a case of paranoia didn't come with mine. The only thing I did (or remember) getting paranoid about was when I took my headphones off, and I heard "where's MYNAME then?" in a fucking Bradford accent (bare in mind I'm on the Dorset coast), & I shit a fucking brick; I thought my mother and brother had drove down to surprise me or something. I didn't know what to do apart from sit there in shame and wait for them to knock, and be disgusted at me - I didn't want my little brother to see me on drugs because he looks up to and thinks so highly of me.

Who was it?

My houesmate broke his collarbone so his dad (from Bradford), and another family member from Bradford, drove him down... And asked where I was, because he was buyng pizza... I only found that out this morning because I passed out just after haha. Ahhh...
 
VAC said:
it's not like I did that much - maybe 7g in just over 2 weeks;
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7g of what exactly?!

B2 is being sold as 3,4-methylenedioxy-propylhexedrine
(or 1-(3,4-methylenedioxycyclohexyl)-2-methylaminopropane as F&B correctly named it back in 2005)

Overuse of Propylhexedrine itself definately leads to psychosis & the feelings you described.
However if dodgy vendors are selling anything & everything as B2 then you could easily have done 7g of a desoxypipradrol + 4-MEC + 4-BMC mix or something equally as rediculous during the 2 weeks.

While there is no way to know for certain what you ingested, your psychosis hallucinations definately ring bells with me.
I've seen some insanely grotesque & grossly obscure visions during MDPV psychosis. Its not pleasant & fears of permenant psychosis/schizophrenia are very present at the time.

Glad you're over the worst of it anyway. Take care & value your mental health!
 
i dont think iv ever reached that far with stim psychosis like but last weekend for exapmple after a VERY heavy binge on pills I would hear faint voices comming from my phone. i knew they were not actually real and i couldnt even make them out but it really fucked with my head like.
 
Acid4Blood said:
Glad you're over the worst of it anyway. Take care & value your mental health!
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Thanks, and I intend on doing as I'm giving it all a rest for a bit. Was going to hit it as one of my New Year Resolution's, but why wait eh. Time to get back to the gym and get my nuts down in my studies.
 
The 'B2' i have been purchasing has just been similar to our old friend,though less potent and euphoric. Have not yet had any horrific psychosis from it (yet). Just a few tinges of mild paranoia i think mainly through lack of sleep.

Satans crusty spunk (MDPV) on the other hand is a whole new ball game. I will never touch that shit again.

But yeah VAC glad all is well again.
 
Can't keep my eyes open at the moment, i've been on the nod for the past two hours. Had my meth upped to 50ml, and was feeling a bit down on my own so have been drinking. Can't wait to curl up in bed and get a decent nights sleep tonight as I've not been getting any recently.
 
considering getting on some aMT, but have been awake for quite a long time already and not sure how it would hit me. may just drink myself into a stupor after a stressed week with very little sleep
 
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