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The I'm Fucked Megathread: FEED ME

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Aw, thanks very much for the nice posts guys. I did half expect to get flamed. But I guess I'm not the only people in the world who has felt/feels like this. It's nice to not be alone.

Yes, I've slept and eaten now, don't feel too rough physically now except for sore mouth and dizziness. Might have more naps this evening.

ColtDan said:
move to devon its beautiful down here
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Heh - well, if I do move, I'm definitely going to move somewhere based as much on how much I'd like to live in the place as on the job. I moved to Cambridge only for the job, it was a mistake. I feel quite excited by the idea of moving somewhere new. But also scared.

ColtDan said:
you have loads to live for, just sounds like your stuck in a quite a rut, much like myself. repetitive cycle of bullshit. find the motivation to make some changes... self improvement instead of self destruction i love stims as well, makes you feel so alive... its a shame they're so destructive. they make my emotions all over the place. lost count of the amount of times i said i was going to stop doing drugs, drinking so much and messing myself up... oh well fuck it, its fun at the time
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You speak truth!!! On both points. I am in a bit of a rut. Before mugabe, I was a career-head making very fast progress up the ranks. When things got serious with mugabe I put my career on the backseat and prioritised 'us'. Now he has left and my career has just completely stalled.... I'm a bit lost as to what to prioritise, and I can't help feel that I failed at both. So yeah, rutty, and I'm not sure where to go from here.

But that aside, yes, #1 reason is stims are fuuuuuun. But yes, they're really destructive for some people, and I know I'm one of those people.


Edited to add - for mugabe's benefit since I expect he'll read this - I don't regret making him a priority - it was my choice and it was the right thing to do. I don't regret a single day that we spent together. And I think my mephedrone woes set me back at work more than anything else. I guess it's always unhealthy to pin your happiness on one thing, or one person.
 
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keep things moving, get the career moving again, find yourself a decent man who will keep you motivated to sort yourself out and stop you going on massive drug benders. limit the drugs to the weekend, you'll soon be feeling good and im sure everything will work out fine!
 
Glad to hear you have settled <3
angelsmoke said:
I guess it's always unhealthy to pin your happiness on one thing, or one person.
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And happiness is only one of many million fleeting feelings...they all come and go like butterflies :)
 
Very high on a lovely MDMA afterglow, completely wrecked the back of my throat though, think it's cause of some dodgy k I took.
 
felt quite anxious earlier, i assume it was booze related, took some valium and now im feeling pretty damn good :) never really been impressed with valium before but took a lower dose this time and enjoying it alot more, much less monged and zombified
 
Still going. Why can I never sleep?! Have to pass out but no matter how much I drink I cant get drunk enough to make me fucking sleep
 
I'm not really fucked right now but thought I would reply to this.

angelsmoke said:
But that aside, yes, #1 reason is stims are fuuuuuun. But yes, they're really destructive for some people, and I know I'm one of those people.
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Yeah, stims are really fun, but as you said destructive too. I had a pretty destructive weekend myself with the 6-APB and Camfetamine, was up for about 40 hours doing them. Which meant that I failed to make it into work again today.

angelsmoke said:
Edited to add - for mugabe's benefit since I expect he'll read this - I don't regret making him a priority - it was my choice and it was the right thing to do. I don't regret a single day that we spent together. And I think my mephedrone woes set me back at work more than anything else. I guess it's always unhealthy to pin your happiness on one thing, or one person.
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Lol, that you edited your post as you knew I would read it. I guess I know that you will read my posts too and often take this into consideration when posting.

As for the bit I highlighted in bold I don't regret a single day that we spent together, even the horrible desoxy psychosis day (well maybe regret that one a bit)


I'm considering trying out my o-desmethyltramadol today hoping that it will ease the comedown somewhat and also block of the pain that is making it hard for me to eat.

Will probably be posting in here again soon telling of the wonders of o-desmethyltramadol :)
 
Let me know what you think of it! It looks interesting. It's unfortunate you missed work, hopefully it wont affect anything. :)

Toke...toke...toke...
 
Well so far it has made me feel relatively normal again (actualy feel pretty good) instead of having a comedown from hell and has cleared up my upper mouth pain so I can eat my chicken too. Still waiting for some proper opiate euphoria, maybe I need to take more than 35mg to achieve some good euphoria.
 
At least you've solved your comedown! Good stuff, that alone makes it an interesting chemical. :)
 
feeling really good from the ODT now after the redose, it is a nice drug, probably not much better than codeine though in terms of the opiate euphoria. But has a lot of positives such as making me feel good again. Would be a great antidepressant at low doses and a nice feel good drug at higher doses.

Have the opiate itches too :D I quite enjoy the opiate itches though.
 
Mugz said:
feeling really good from the ODT now after the redose, it is a nice drug, probably not much better than codeine though in terms of the opiate euphoria. But has a lot of positives such as making me feel good again. Would be a great antidepressant at low doses and a nice feel good drug at higher doses.

Have the opiate itches too :D I quite enjoy the opiate itches though.
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Isn't the euphoria and anti-depressant side of ODT because it is a seratonin releaser? When you withdraw from tramadol you get a double whammy of opiate withdrawal and super MDMA style depression.
 
Isn't the euphoria and anti-depressant side of ODT because it is a seratonin releaser? When you withdraw from tramadol you get a double whammy of opiate withdrawal and super MDMA style depression.
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If that is true then it could be why I am not getting as much euphoria as I had hoped for because of my 6-APB use at the weekend.

Although I think that might not be the case because the antidepressent and anti anxiety side is definitely present and there is some euphoria, not a great deal of it though.
 
so my weekend of "having a quiet drink" ended up completely fucking messy!
Friday - few drinks then a mate turned up with some pills id never heard of, didnt get much response from here about them but took 1 anyway. ened up partying till 5am saturday.

saturday - a bit of sleep then a few valium to help my comedown, a couple hours later i was drinking, taking coke and taking more of them pills (as everyone else was and i couldnt walk home with a broken leg lol) Gave my friend one for his first time and after him throwing up on the comeup, he loved every minute of it and was quite amusing to say the least. a couple friends went out to get fegs and booze and when they left my friend was convinced that they had set up a bomb in the house to blow us up while they gone! i had to convince him otherwise lol. the antics carried on to sunday evening and i feel sooooo shite right now.

im getting a lot of sleep and eating well but is there anything else that could help to replenish myself?
 
^isotonic sports drinks, powerade and the likes. And fruit! only thing i can seem to eat after a sesh, but def helps alot.
 
ColourfulKronos said:
^isotonic sports drinks, powerade and the likes. And fruit! only thing i can seem to eat after a sesh, but def helps alot.
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funny you should say that as im currently drinking some lucozade sport:)
thanks for the advice. iv also munched my multivitamins too which should help. should be grand after a big sleep tonight.
 
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