Aloha
I have been browsing this site for years now, and finally decided to join. Because I don't really care who is monitoring the action here, I used to think that it's a good way to get red flagged. But I really don't give a hoot. Anyway, I am just needing to communicate with some other folks. And so here I am, going through it again. I should say that I love my opioids, and have no plans for quiting....it's just been a rough month, ran out of my 8 milly dillys a bit short of my doctor's appointment. I fuckin hate WDS! And have gone through it so many times, you would think that I would know better. But you know how it is. Thank God I found Kratom! It's not completely taking away the cringe, but with all the hash, and buds as well....I will take it over suboxone any day. (Having to wait until you are in full blown withdrawal is lame) that stuff kindammakes feel. ..weirder than I already am.
Geez, so where to start? OK I am legally disabled due to back and knee problems. I have been taking opioid meds for 15 years now.
I have been through the whole thing. Long story short...at my peak consumption, I was hooked up, and going through 8 boxes of 100mcg patches, in about 10 days, and I would have my 150 30mg oxys to fall back on, but would still have to supplement with a few grams of heroin to get to my next appointment. I have a doctor that would basically give anything I want. I learned the hard way that most pharmacies, wouldn't even order the medication prescribed! Fent lollipops, ect. Anyway, those days are over.
I basically had to get my act together by force, with the whole "opioid epidemic". Over the past 2 years, I have systematically been cut back to 4, 8 mg dilaudid. Which are worthless unless snorted. I have an actual phobia of needles n never injected anything. I hear that the dillys are really bomb injecting...but I just can't do it. I snort or smoke heroin, any chance I get. But don't chase it anymore. I try to make it through the month, and usually do. But I am an old fool from the old school, and fuck up on occasion. When I do, I put on my big boy pants, and just go to some kratom. About 8-10 grams is a good dose for me. And lots of cannabis. I live in the jungle in Hawaii, and always have herb. But I love my opioids too. Often times, too much. lol
I still come across the occasional gel patches, and trade out for the whole box. Because I am a fool for the F - train. And I think free basing fent, is the best high. I am extremely weak, when I get em in my hands and I rarely get a box to last more than a day or two.
Other than that, I basically just an ordinary, fun loving guy. I have kids and grandkids. And manage well enough. I have a lot of wild stories, and what I believe is sound, real world advice. I hope to post some more soon. My new outlet for emotional distress. My kids and friends are tired of getting thousand word texts. I guess that is it for my first post. Aloha everyone.
Malama Pono.