ClearFreedom
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- Jan 13, 2018
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Day 11 has started for me and I'm still unable to sleep so I took 2mg of diazepam. My mood is one of despair now as life is hard and I'm in physical pain. I was on low dose OxyContin for 6 plus years and stopped CT. Day 2-5 was the worst
I'm having a lot of pain associated with my failed spinal fusion resulting in permanent nerve damage. I hope things improve because I wouldn't want to be in this amount of pain the rest of my life. Also I'm mad at myself for taking diazepam but I don't feel well. I went to the pain clinic today to hear there's no magic pill........yeah I already know this.
I'm trying to function during the day with appointments without enough sleep and it's not going well.
I feel like I'm in Hell!!!!!!!!!
Being present in the moment and turning down the deafening pain volume just isn't working.
The depression is crippling. I did just get that book, "The Noonday Demon" by Andrew Solomon but my brain fog is so thick at the moment I'm unable to concentrate on reading.
I hope things improve because I'm not in a good place right now.................
I'm having a lot of pain associated with my failed spinal fusion resulting in permanent nerve damage. I hope things improve because I wouldn't want to be in this amount of pain the rest of my life. Also I'm mad at myself for taking diazepam but I don't feel well. I went to the pain clinic today to hear there's no magic pill........yeah I already know this.
I'm trying to function during the day with appointments without enough sleep and it's not going well.
I feel like I'm in Hell!!!!!!!!!
Being present in the moment and turning down the deafening pain volume just isn't working.
The depression is crippling. I did just get that book, "The Noonday Demon" by Andrew Solomon but my brain fog is so thick at the moment I'm unable to concentrate on reading.
I hope things improve because I'm not in a good place right now.................