The "God Trip"

[CrazyLove]

My curiosity for others who have experienced such a trip prompted me to register and create this thread, so hello everyone! I read the forum guidelines and

For those not too sure by what I mean by "god trip," I am referring to when you trip just a little too hard and everything comes together in a way to lead you to believe that "by god, I'm God!" Not specifically God, over examples include Jesus or any sort of special and enlightened figure.

What I'm really asking before I give my story is, has this happened to you or someone you know or to you "in a dream" and if so, how'd it come about and what were the ending consequences of it when you "woke up" out of it (I hope.) If you just wanna answer and don't have the time to read one guy's silly trip just skip down. I'll just summarize it by saying I was convinced I was God, ran into my Dad's room at 1:30 am to let him know exactly that and came to at 5 am a stupid teenager being held down by my mum and dad who had no idea I ever indulged in anything of the sort.

I'll briefly share mine as I don't have the time to write up a full trip report right now, but if anyone would like one for whatever reason I'm sure I could quite soon. So basically I was on around 400-500 ug's, first time at this level, and I was by myself (that was the mistake it's safe to say.) Will skip forward about 2 hours into it for the relevant part, and it basically came out with my friend texting me "tell me about it at school. you're at school right now though."

Now he obviously meant no harm but I was tripping absolute BALLS, like, I could feel the Earth moving through space, black holes were appearing in my room and I could feel and see things which weren't there, so a lot of harm it definitely did. (for example I remember yelling to him on the phone "I HAVE A SALIVA PIPE!" as I could feel a steel object in my hands, and the matter around me blended in such a way that I could see such a pipe as well). Now as soon as he sent that message, I thought I really was at school, I could see my friends around me laughing at the fact I thought I was still at home, and I kept flicking between school and room. That sparked a thought of "holy crap I can jump backwards and forwards in time... imagine what I could do... I can control time!" As soon as I thought this I called another friend to let her know and as I shouted at her "I can control time! I can ma- oh my god, Im God. I'm God." I mistook the silence for her not being speak out of amazement because I was right. (turns out I was just yelling into voicemail.)

Then I just snapped and I can't believe what I did next, I ran upstairs frantically into my dads room at 3 am, woke him up and started yelling at him "IM GOD DAD IM GOD. NO LISTEN TO ME IM GOD." I was in a complete delusional state and any semblance of the real world was completely gone. I began jumping on his bed in frustration because he didn't believe me and was ready to teleport out of his room into the heavens. (seriously) I held out my empty hand to my mum and yelled "look mum! money!" (lol) However they eventually got me to sit down and after an hour of conversation with them, I actually peaked (yes I hadn't even peaked yet) and my mind just began to take me to a variety of scenarios and scenes. They ranged from me as God delivering a speech to the Universe about using money and LSD and dreams as a currency to me about to die of old age. In this 2-3 hour period I was basically having an epiphany every second and I was too far gone to realize all of it was nonsense (i.e I discovered the solutions to all of Earths problems! We can just stop time!)

After hell knows how long, the peak subsided and I began to slowly realize the full extent of what had just happened. I went from being God, to waking up in my Dad's old, dusty bed, in his room at 5 am with school in 2 and a half hours. They eventually searched my room, found 2 joints I was tripping too hard to smoke (I lit one up and it was rolled poorly, and it ended up just blowing up and going out, but I thought it was lit.) I have no idea what would of happened if I managed to smoke the joints, seeing as I wasn't even peaking when I ran into my dads room.

I'll end it there as a very brief report of what happened. I neglected the visuals (of which were of course insane) and other things because I mainly created this thread for the "I'm God!" aspect.

Needless to say I learnt my lesson about tripping at such a dosage alone and without adequate planning, however in my defence I was planning to meditate in a dark room and not move, however the "you're at school now" text just ruined that. I also feel that perhaps there exist slight ego problems, as at such a dose where I should experience ego loss I instead went in the complete opposite direction and thought I was God himself and everything was about me.

I hope to retake that dosage many months or possibly years for now, with a spotter and try and actually get to meditating this time. Very beneficial and positive gains can be gained at the level I was at under correct conditions, and I've learnt my lesson to keep my thoughts as grounded as possible. Where before I used to trip as hard as I can and go as far out there as I can, I now appreciate staying in tune with real life and having a much more mellow and grounded trip at the risk of possible delusions.

So phew now that I'm finally done with all that, I'll just reiterate, has anything like this, what I like to coin the "God trip" ever happened to any of you guys (or someone who isn't you) and if so how'd that turn out.

*on a final note (really sorry for how long this is ) since this is my first post, is the self-incriminating thing a problem? I read the guidelines and it said don't even bother with SWIM so I didn't bother at all. If there is in fact a potential problem please let me know and I'll edit it ASAP. Thanks for your time!*

 

[Achten]

Too bad you don't think it's "real", whatever that is. Or that you use the word delusional.

I have had more or less the same experience on 50mg of 4HOMET. Good thing was I was at home where I lived with a roommate at the time. No parents or anything.
I did want to wake him up to tell him how I found out all and everything about the Universe, but somehow I forced myself to lie down and experience it all, reminding myself:
"if this is real, it should still be the same tomorrow. And I should better wait to tell him something this insane until my eyes look normal again (ie, until I'm not tripping anymore) , otherwise he wouldn't believe me."

On to the story, This is a piece of text I edited out from raw ramblings which I wrote during(?)/just after the experience. Nevertheless, the experience holds a magnificent amount of meaning for me. I'm kind of into thinking about evolution, the Matrix, Twin Peaks, among other things, and my mind apparently loves making cross-references to these things.

Here goes:

"The Mind revealing itself to itself." (Major Briggs, Twin Peaks).

When this happens, take it literally. Without hesitation or warning suddenly to see the Light gives a powerful rush, desire for knowledge of the Truth, satisfaction when you learn it and finally peace.

It starts with one thought, and the circle begins and you always bring yourself to the same thought again, that, by doing the circle movement appears as "genius" and "an answser to everything".

By having this kind of loop you have opened Pandoras Box, and there is no turning back. I don't think people can understand this without psychedelics or meditation/astral projection.
As long as I was tripping, "it made sense" (as in, i *understood/knew* it) but afterwards it didn't. I can still feel it, but I am not able to comprehend/understand anymore.

Complete revelation. A spiral starts in our ordinary lives, and ends with perfection, but this moment can't last forever because everything always changes (time flows forward) and because perfection is "death" (the moment when time goes from linear to "ocean-like" (time that stands still).

This is what happens at egodeath. This feeling I want to share with someone, for the rest of my life. That's what life is about. They say "nothing lasts forever" and "everything that has a beginning has an end". It's so true.
Just like the Trip and Life, also the Universe has an ending, and that's why we will not achieve perfection in our 3dimensional lives. (not a pessimistic view, we are at the top of our civilization.. in this 3rd dimension, time to move to the next)

The message of the trip was as follows: stop looking for answers and LIVE your life. THAT's the answer.

It starts with a thought, or a question, about life or evolution. This opens pandoras box and the search begins.
"Being the One is like being in Love" (The Oracle, The Matrix)
You can't understand Life (be the one) when you're not in love (or otherwise serotoninically agonised ).

FEEL the FEELINGS you have, cherrish every moment before they're over.

These thoughts "what is life about?" "who are we?" "where do we come from?" "why are we here?" Just stop looking/searching for answers. Feel the feelings and live your life and the revelations will come during your life. These carry insights about your life and relation to everything. This unleashes a wonderful afterglow.

Richard Alpert once said: "I think I spent 30 years of my life, the first 30, trying to "become" something. I wanted to become good at things. I wanted to become good at tennis and school and grades, and everything I kind of viewed in that perspective.
"I'm not OK the way I am but if I got good at things..."

I realized I had the game wrong, because the game was to find out what I already was. (Richard Alpert)"

They say a trip like this can "change your life".
That's the thing, everything around you does. Thats the message, just live. You are "the One" in your life. We are all born through Love and all saw the Light (Di-Methyl-Tryptamine) before we came to our 3 dimensional bodies on this Earth.

Definite schizoid manoeuvering !

Please let me hear your thoughts.

On your post: I can totally relate, especially with wanting to share it with someone. When I think about it, it's actually kind of cool you wanted to share that revelation with your father. Seems like a good father-son relationship. At least, before the Incident .

edit: I don't know if you know Fibonacci's Sequence and the Golden Ratio? Very simplistic: it says we're all living a a spiral, or at least that everything around us has a spiral pattern. ANyway, I can't put it into words but sometimes during the experience I had the feeling of literally "going crazy". I can't really put it into words but there 's something about these crazy thoughts being like a circle, and the way to get out of it is to make another circle in this circle (?), creating a spiral, which is our normal way of living.

I don't really understand the edit myself, so if you want to ignore it it's fine.

 

[Chris Timothy]

I sure hope there aren't too many people out there who feel they're God almighty in the Hebrew-Christian sense, that's to say, God as the big boss upstairs, commanding everyone around, judging them all whether they like it or not.

But there's a world of theology behind that one word, and it can mean as much as everything and nothing, and a whole lot in between. It's one of the most difficult concepts to talk about. In a way it can't be talked about.

There don't have to be negative consequences, but you somehow have to cope with the pain of having to keep your mouth shut.

 

[Achten]

Indeed, maybe "God" is a misleading way of putting it. I found it comparable to an epiphany. *Everything* made sense, in the most beautiful way.

 

[SONN]

I've never had a trip where I thought I was god but I believed that I was discovering information about the nature of reality and consciousness to the point where I made myself condense it down to a short discussion then I went about telling lots of my friends about it for the next few days.

I put a LOT of thought into that theory and regarded it with utmost importance until basically one of my ruder friends just said 'you're crazy' and other friends paid little attention to it. Although I think I got a lot of them to wrap their heads around it and I even got one friend to possibly subscribe to it for a short period of time.

I never thought I was god, simply that I had uncovered the relationship between consciousness and the infinite.

It was a VERY intense few weeks after that because I was rather obsessive yet I didn't want to tell everyone because of how many people either wouldn't care or would just think I was crazy.

I came to terms with the fact that I was borderline schizoaffective a few months later and have since regarded any epiphanies I have had as a very touchy subject.

 

[Toltec]

The Good Trip Only exist; in the set and setting, its in ones MIND.... reality is an illusion make it what you will....

 

[Achten]

I hear you toltec, but why have we collectively as a species become so interconnected with that illusion, neglecting what everyone feels but doesn't want to talk about ?

"Reality is an illusion", there's something to say for that, but it's kind of easy to dismiss everything that quick, imo.

 

[twentysix]

Although not false at its roots this feeling of being God, it can be dangerous... or hard for one to integrate in a positive way. Its like a response of the Ego- reasserting itself... or something... in light of this (Boundary) dissolution experienced.

It is a very valuable experience... but definitely changes us. We are all ____ in his image. Divine, all reflective God.

(I am just talking)


Sometimes, I think those who have gained recognition as being Gods.. such as Jesus, Horus, Krishna... They are ... well. They are. But they are born "with all sins" (Psychedelics allow me different, perhaps clearer access at times to understanding what it means).They carry. Atlas. They are with great imbalance. THE imbalance...

Now... are they given this, because simply thry can handle it?

Are they so cracked that the water is now flowing only through them? (For an extreme)

Does order appear with them, around them, because they are... chaos? Singularity.

(Just talking)

 

[eye_wide_open]

has this happened to you or someone you know or to you "in a dream" and if so, how'd it come about and what were the ending consequences of it when you "woke up" out of it (I hope.)

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lol

I can't do it anymore. I'm sick.
I've type it so many times I just can't. Somebody please copy and paste it all for me. lmfao.

You want the whole story? Read all 783 of my posts.

My user name has meaning too most people don't seem to get it I think lol.
A good chunk of the smarter and more open folks here do.

Somebody help guide this poor soul.

"Reality is an illusion", there's something to say for that

I could write volumes on why that is and isn't true.
You make your own reality, no matter what happens.
Make it good.

 

[25I_am_so_wonderfu]

This guy is just a shill for the latest untested research chemicals on the block. No one listen to what he is saying