so am listenin to the mark eg set from last uprising...the night of my engagement. what a night that was...i am flooded with memories.
as i think back to earlier today i think about how nice it was to just go sit in a cafe and each lunch with a couple of my loved ones....that is my fiance and best friend, i think we need to do this more often. still cant get the shit from the weekend out of my head, in a way i think it was a blessing in disguise, me and ki are growing closer all the time and the bitch that tried to destroy us is finally out of out lives. ye it took an explosion but can only move forward from here, still it hurts that she was a good friend and she manipulated me for months in an attempt to have me to her self. fuck her! i dont need it! we dont need her!....
since i had my implant out all i can think about is how long will it be before i am pregnant. i'm scared but excited. never wanted anything so much in my life. finally i am with someone i want to spend my life with and finishing our family off with a child that is neither his nor mine but ours would just be the icing on the cake....(my god domer is rippin the mic up on this set)...
so here's to the beginning of our new life. i know the parties and drugs have to stop but i like it! i dont want it anymore. i will still attend the major events cos my love for bass is apart of me! i cant turn my back on music..it has been the only constant thing in my life.
right now i am procrastinating....i really need to do some house work but this toothache is no fun. i'm in the zone writing about my life with the music blasting. mentally in my element.
as i think back to earlier today i think about how nice it was to just go sit in a cafe and each lunch with a couple of my loved ones....that is my fiance and best friend, i think we need to do this more often. still cant get the shit from the weekend out of my head, in a way i think it was a blessing in disguise, me and ki are growing closer all the time and the bitch that tried to destroy us is finally out of out lives. ye it took an explosion but can only move forward from here, still it hurts that she was a good friend and she manipulated me for months in an attempt to have me to her self. fuck her! i dont need it! we dont need her!....
since i had my implant out all i can think about is how long will it be before i am pregnant. i'm scared but excited. never wanted anything so much in my life. finally i am with someone i want to spend my life with and finishing our family off with a child that is neither his nor mine but ours would just be the icing on the cake....(my god domer is rippin the mic up on this set)...
so here's to the beginning of our new life. i know the parties and drugs have to stop but i like it! i dont want it anymore. i will still attend the major events cos my love for bass is apart of me! i cant turn my back on music..it has been the only constant thing in my life.
right now i am procrastinating....i really need to do some house work but this toothache is no fun. i'm in the zone writing about my life with the music blasting. mentally in my element.