The Existential Pain of Being Young, White, and Affluent

its funny how i look at this topic after reading about the tragedy of eva rausing the tetra pak fortune heiress. She died in a filth strewn room and who's body lay undiscovered for 2 months in a mansion were her also drug addict husband lived she grew up with her father been a pepsi big wig.The tragedy really is thou that drug addiction effects rich and poor and im not rich and grew up with a oxycontin habit so there you go.
 
I found this article very thought provoking. It really struck a chord with me,. Helpded me take a big step forwards in my counselling today.

I have worked for everything I have today but I dont have much sense of achievment, or value for anything. Things that impress my family but I just shrug them off. I think all this is tied in with unrealistic expectations, so nothing is ever going to measure up unless that attitude changes.
 
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I found this article very thought provoking. It really struck a chord with me,. Helpded me take a big step forwards in my counselling today.

I have worked for everything I have today but I dont have much sense of achievment, or value for anything. Things that impress my family but I just shrug them off. I think all this is tied in with unrealistic expectations, so nothing is ever going to measure up unless that attitude changes.
This is one of the best posts ive read, in this thread so far.
That Evans story has moved someone closer to trying for a positive change is the highest aspiration for any cautionary tale, i think.
Ive been in the situation of finding little or no reward in lifes achievements. I would say that for me, it was like living in a 'grey world'. While other peoples seemed to be full of colour. The trick for me to help myself was a long and difficult 'rewiring' of my brain, to teach myself to find joy in small things and unexpected places and then, slowly, the world gained 'colour' again.
Now, im still disfunctional but in a much better way.
 
Why do people hate on DXM so much?

"robo tripping" if thats not a filthy, cheap worthless ghetto-ass drug I don't know what is. oh, and sorry.

Why do people hate on DXM so much? I understand, back when TOTSE was around, kids ruined the "BLTC" forum with a flood of threads about it. But, it's supposedly stronger than Ketamine... the dissociative drugs being big brother PCP, then DXM, then Ketamine, then Nitrous... I understand that chugging 'Tussin is a little ghetto... but there are some good gel-capsules of pure DXM available OTC now; or a brand at one of the box stores with 20mg of DXM per pill with some Guaifenesin unfortunately, but a super cheap price. It's a NMDA antagonist, so low, non-recreational daily dosing makes it a neuro-protectant and combats tolerance. Why the hate people, really? I know familiarity breeds contempt, but people don't talk trash about people who like alcohol, nicotine, or caffeine....
 
I'm a testament to this. Nothing racist about what i'm about to say, but the things I did in the past that are things related to making money using the grey market was not available to people in the ghetto in the late 90's and early 2000's. I still ended up doing things I swore I would never do down the line after wasting all my money on partying and hurting my health. I'm sure you can all guess what that is am I am drinking my bottle of orange juice mixed with methadone.

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He's from New York, i'm not even american and I view 9/11 as the point in my life, I was 19 and had a great future ahead and when that happened just 500 miles south of me (canadian, real close to NY in fact...), I viewed it as a message to my generation as a "No, you will not have the chance your dad and mom and had, this foolish thing that too many people believe about infinite expansion, which doesn't exist, is except maybe for the universe itself;and that's still up to debate,is being realized and unfolded during the time you are alive on this planet. The greedy has won the material world, now the rest of us are slaves in a dystopia, starting now." Then I went why me ? I always thought I was born a little too late anyway.

Say I'm wrong, especially how the whole debate about that event being manufactured is basically over, it is, the truth has been leaked so badly the manufactured mainstream 911 truther bullshit could only be effective for so long. "in ten years or so, we'll leak the truth..." (Dead Kennedys - I Am The Owl 1982). I like how most of my favourite music is extremely negative about the future and is from the early 80's like this, Reagan was just the beginning of the downfall of america, 9/11, of the western world.

And so I picked up the needle and shoved dilaudid into my veins sometimes in my mom's money paid for college apartment sometimes in 2008...
 
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