The Elastic Band

[Jennyfur_Karma_Kin]

It's like that moment
Just as I'm about to fall asleep
I feel like I'm falling
Jerked awake by fear
Having been lulled into a sense of security
By how good it's all been
Sleeping sound for three days
Out of each calendar month
Then all of a sudden it's ripped from me
Now I'm freefalling
Crash landing in anger
Broken bones

How the fuck did I manage to end up here
Again

Each notable friendship is a dictatorship
No wonder I can't have a relationship
Each time it's like being ensnared
Blinded by the prospect of precious metal
Which turns out to be fools gold
Every time it's because my vulnerability is noted
The naive heart that I've carried since childhood
Like a small brightly coloured purse
On my shoulder
Is clear for the world to see
Meaning that the small few that I let close
Start the constant push and pull
Of building me up and wearing me down
Until I'm not sure who I am anymore

The constant pressure of these people
Bearing down on me
Until the air is pushed out of me
I'm flat on the ground
Pinned into submission by their expectation

But what they do not understand
Is that I've now had the realisation
That there is no true good in this world
Love isn't all we need
Because when you love someone
They're able to dominate you
Berate you
Cut you to ribbons with words and ideas
Until you no longer care who you are
Broken down into pieces

The elastic band has finally stretched to capacity
Now it's hurtling at speed towards them
They don't see it yet
But it's going to hit them right in the fucking face.