Aye, some people need the meds for sure but others it just makes them worse or messes up their head even worse, its like some doctors don't understand the whole ymmv thing, it doesn't just apply to illicit drugs! And i'm not too sure, the first time i went in is because they thought i was suicidal cause my use was so extreme (which i wasn't), when it was due to psychosis though it was cause of kidney and liver faliure and iirc renal faliure can cause psychosis on its own. I was acting strange but not lost it for the first few days but then just snapped, maybe it was a combination kidney faliure, being stuck in a hospital bed after an od and ruthless withdrawals.
If you mean right back, i used to have anger problems as a really young kid, and slight anxiety but mainly massive stress cause of circumstance (hard to tell the difference when you're young), and drugs helped me for a long time, masked the symptoms, calmed me down, even sober i dont have any anger issues at all, its just the anxiety which i find to be worse even than a panic attack, at least panic attacks come and go wheras unless i'm on benzos anxiety is just constant. Not even worried or stress, just that anxious churny feeling. Ugh.
So the anxiety was caused by stress when i was young before i even touched drugs, but the psychosis and bipolar and whatever other labels they've tried to stick on me have been after/during my heavy heavy use years i reckon. You're damn right though, loads of people working in the drug services are ex-users and half the staff on the hospital ward i was on had some sort of mental problem in their lives, and thats really good because it helps people with their problems understand em alot more if they've been through it or something similar like it, itd be therapeutic for them both!
sorry y'all i kinda use this thread to whine a bit, i've been going up & down like a yoyo these last few weeks, still trying to get it together properly ha. Nearly finished painting my flat and got a cooker and fridge and sofa today (&even carpets
) though so i'll have somewhere thats mine and that'l make a world of difference
edit: yeah i refused all the pills they tried to force on me apart from the antipsychotic which i asked to be taken off after a week cause of its side effectss and because i was pretty much nomral again, turned me into a zombie n all, getting loads of support from various groups though starting a basic spanish and web design course, exercise/fitnesss groups, volunttering housing work and also CBT once a week, which helps, but im on a low dose of diaz occasionally skipping a day but still cheating, stil i've found the best thing to do when feeling like shit is to do something, anything, even though i now fully sppreciate the expression 'watching paint dry' now ha
.. Its a horrid shame that you have had to watch opportunities pass you by as you are grieving love. But you'll get some more. You'll get a licence soon enough. Take this time to be quiet with yourself and mourn your dog. 
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well,i am on my third sick note and in no mans land,no money (APART FROM SAVINGS),and still waiting to see a shrink about many issues. i'm paranoid,unless he tells me the truth.
,mainly paranoia issues. My olanzapine script,he upped to 10 mgs at night,this dose whacks me out in about half an hour leaving me half sedated and groggy in the morning.If i didn't have to get up for things,i feel i would sleep for 14 hours. Put me on 10 mgs of diazepam a day. Sertraline,100 mgs in the morning.
