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The EADD I'm Fucked Megathread - Four Posts Early!

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i have £360ml of somnite fdfs two trade bottles kinda 4got to take it n i made a 1/8th of the bedst H since i can temember last last 3 wee shared a about 1/3rd wit the better half 2 . I ai'm not buying it again unlees it's that stuff or similar it reminded me wot proper 40%/50. brown #3 h is like n it's lush better than any oxy.fent or ting .
 
I like how this is the only thread in the entire BL database, that actually gets shorter each time I look at it.

ColtDan said:
Booze time
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Me too buddy. Last day of my drinkathon then im back to work. if only you could understand...

brimz said:
yeah kick back wiv a bit of Dire shite do the walk of life sweet !
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Big up da Kool Fm 94.5 , Ragga 106 fm
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Thanking you kindly... for the "bad boy flo"
 
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Shambles, watch this through properly... and see if you can do it without cracking up laughing.

I guarantee you won't be able to.





(with the exemption that you're going through some kind of insane 4-fa+multiple stim, sleepless come-down from last night)

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raas_2012 said:

(with the exemption that you're going through some kind of insane 4-fa+multiple stim, sleepless come-down from last night)
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I'm not actually. Had plenty sleep and have been fairly perky today. Moderation, dear boy ;)

Unfortunately for your vid, I can't be doing with bleedin' Green Jelly without chemical assistance of some kind. Usually vasty quantities of booze before I willingly listen to any of their stuff. The vids are hilarious though. I posted one for you t'other morning whilst fukken on a decidely moderate amount of 4-FA and 6-APDB, dontcha know ;)
 
Yeah I'd already seen it a trillion times. Well done for liking and knowing of GJ aka best band ever, though
 
a new coctail combo for me tonight; red vein thai kratom, etizolam and ethyplehnidate. I have a feeling it will be interessting. I feel like im heading towards some sort of conclusion or 'epiphany'; and that it will happen over the next few days or weeks. By christ yes i want to go out on a blaze of glory, i dont mean i want to kill myself by saying that, and im sure there are better combos to have a blaze of glory on. but as far the moment thats the best i can do, it's all ive got in house.

My keywokers veiled threats to throw me out due to my lack of progress, and certain posts on here have applied pressure on me to either commit to one thing ot the other. It really is no use half heartedly attempting to quit over and over again. I believe kenny was correct when he said i should either resign myself to being an addict for x number of years and just fucking get on with it, in practice for me that would possibly mean hitting rock bottom and having no money left, losing the support of my family, as distant as it is, becoming a disgrace to the community, spiralling down completely out of control, obtaining a criminial record etc etc. Obviously no one actively seeks such an outcome, but that is a possibilty if i choose to continue down this road much further, or get deeper into it.

I hope my posts are no longer winding brimz up. I may be living on another planet to him and talking out of my arse, im sure if we met face to face we could come to an understanding, but with his recent posts i get the impression his first reaction would be to deck me for being such a dick, in his eyes. I would take that for what he's been through, even if he is just venting at me and i am to some extent a scapegoat for him, there is a truth in the things he says. And the things he and kenny have said have caused me to 'move on' a bit with my thinking, rather than being stuck in a hopeless cycle. I have to be either in, or out. This may mean spending more time in the recovery sections of BL than i do at present. EADD does act as a trigger for me, my keywokers have been telling me this for weeks. When i re-ordered PV against my better judgement a while ago, but kept quiet about it (as i knew everyone would go NO, NO, NO) it kind of proved it to me. As much as i feel i have made some 'virtual friends' here that i feel some genuine bond and effection for, i have to decide if this is the right lifestyle choice for me.

Im unable to dabble and use in moderation like several people here, with the possible exception of stimulants, they are managble and controllable and self limiting for me. This doesnt mean Im going to stop posting in EADD, I'll possibly deeply regret this post later on, but right now this is how things seem to me.
 
mydrugbuddy said:
I'll possibly deeply regret this post later on, but right now this is how things seem to me.
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I think it's a rather good post actually, MDB. It's good that the different perspectives have helped you to move on with your thinking, as you put it, cos being stuck in a cycle of switching from heavy abuse/light addiction of one drug to another to another really is a hiding to nothing. Obviously I'd not recommend throwing yourself wholeheartedly into any addiction, but they do say that some people have to find their own personal "rock bottom" before they can start to turn the corner and come out the other side. I hope you can avoid having to find out for yourself just how low and rocky those rock bottoms can be <3

It's also positive that (with the help of your keyworker) you're identifying triggers. Clearly EADD isn't intended to be triggering but I have no doubt that it could be for some people in some situations. Unless it were to become some kinda anti-drug propaganda site - or at best a dry, neutral, strictly HR information only site - there's always going to be a mixed presentation of drugs here. Yes there is drug and HR info and that should be the overall focus, but there will also be a certain degree of glorification of the hedonism of drug use because the site content is created by the members who will have a variety of opinions and experiences both positive and negative presented alongside the neutral, factual information. If you're finding it triggering then it may well be a wise decision to take a bit of time away - or at least limit the time spent and choose which discussions to take part in very carefully. I've never really looked into the Recovery section myself but know people who do and have heard many good things about it. I do know it's very supportive and have seen some excellent advice given too. And there are EADD folk who post there too afaik - only posting with a different tone and emphasis, perhaps.

It's good to see you thinking about your future, your drug use and how the two could be connected. Good luck with whatever you decide <3

(but I do hope you can make the choices that will help you to avoid that nasty rock bottom bizniz)
 
dont want to post here anymore, but why not, right? Fucked up on a lot of things..:)
 
What 20mg 2cb for a first timer like ? had an hour ago am tipsy also best to wait much longer before a 5m sniff ? am very relaxed no fear.. ok tokeep drinking cans of cider ?
 
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